Today was the day, the day of Zoe's surgery. She had decided against telling anyone what she was doing. Zoe arrived at the hospital at six thirty, the earliest she had ever been there. But she wasn't there for work. She made her way up to oncology and waited to be called. Zoe sat waiting, she now regretted not telling anyone about the surgery, she was going to have to do it all by herself.

"Hi, I'm Julie" Zoe jumped when she heard the voice and hesitated for a second as she wasn't sure if she was talking to her. Zoe turned her head to see a woman of about sixty.

"Hi,I'm Zoe"

"I hate places like this, do you?"

"I work down stairs actually but yea I know the feeling"

"Oh so are you a nurse then ?"

"No, I'm a doctor, can I ask why your here?"

"Just some test results"

"Well good luck"

"I am prepared for what ever God will give me, I trust in his plan for me"

"That one way of looking at it"

"Your quite young dear so I'm guessing your here on work purposes"

"I suppose you could say that" Zoe didn't even have the heart to tell a complete stranger.

"Julie Banks" the old woman Zoe had previously been talking to stood up .

"Well good bye sweetheart"

"Good Luck Julie."

Zoe sat in silence,waiting for her name to be called, her hands trembled with fear. Zoe had told herself that it was nothing, just a stepping stone to get back to normal life, but really she was terrified. Every operation carried its risks and what would happen if it didn't to go to plan? Would anyone even care? Would anyone notice"

"Zoe Hanna" Zoe was brought out of her gaze upon hearing her name, she knocked those thoughts out of her head and stood up and followed the nurse into a cubicle.

"Ok Ms Hanna, Doctor Clarke will be with you soon" God Zoe thought to herself, she hadn't been call for that for a while. Zoe sat down patiently on the bed and took in her surroundings. Suddenly the curtain was pulled back.

"Ah, Doctor Hanna are you ready?"

"Yes, thank you , just ready to get it over with"

"Ok, well we will get on with in then, I will give you this gown to change into and then the anaetheaist will be coming in to speak to you"

"Ok thank you" the doctor flashed Zoe a smile and then went to walk away but when she reached the curtain she turned around.

"Do you want be to call someone for you, there really should be someone here when you wake up?"

"it's ok, but thank you" the doctor left and Zoe got changed into her gown. She lay on the bed with her mobile in her hand. Part of her wanted to called Nick and another part of her was wishing that he would call her. She went thought her contacts and stopped when she saw his name, Zoe was about to press the call button when the curtain opened.

"Zoe, you're the last person I expected to see here" Zoe looked up and was shocked to see who was standing on front of her. She really should have expected it but the thought had never passed her mind.

"Matt, it's good to see you again"

"Should I be worried?"

"No, it's nothing really"

"Ok, well I guess you know the drill, this is general anaesthesia and once I give it to you you will be unconscious within thirty minutes and you should wake up in about ten hours" Matt held up an injection and sat on the chair next to the bed. "Are you ready?"

"Yeah" Zoe pulled up the sleeve of her gown and Matt injected the liquid into her arm.

"So what now"

"Well, now we wait"

"We?"

"I'm due a break so I thought I would keep you company"

"Thank you Matt"

"So Zo, what have you been up to lately"

"Nothing really, the same old"

"Are you still Doctor Hanna? Or is there someone else in your life now"

"Still Doctor Hanna, not the marrying kind me"

"Yes, I learnt that once before"

"I see a ring Matt, are you going to spill?"

"I got married last spring she's amazing, I have a little boy now as well, Michael"

"that's amazing Matt, I'm really happy for you, how old is he?"

"Two months, hold on" Matt shuffled around in the pocket of his scrubs until he found his phone. He unlocked it and handed it to Zoe.

"Wow Matt, he's beautiful" Suddenly Matt's pager went off.

"Thank you Zo, but I better go, I will be back later good luck"

"Matt wait... I am sorry about what happened"

"It's ok Zoe"

Part of Zoe was happy that Matt had got everything he wanted, after her messing him around. But another part of her was incredibly sad that it wasn't her.

Zoe lay in the bed and gradually drifted off into a deep sleep, the anestheasia was taking effect.

Hope you like it, there is something big coming in the next chapter. Thank you for all the lovely reviews :)