CHAPTER 17

For the next several days after Derek had brought Rose over for dinner, Derek had been ignoring her attempts to apologize and Meredith had begun to realize that her actions against Rose had cost her her friendship with Derek. It was the last thing she had wanted, considering after the stunts she had pulled she was surprised and amazed that he stuck by her through the whole Ellis thing and the Alex situation.

And when he needed her to be happy for him she let him down, and for that she'll never forgive herself. Now she wanted to find a way to apologize, but how would she do it? Meredith went downstairs one morning and spotted Derek sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of coffee and some muslix. Walking towards him she noticed him stiffen as if he felt her presence.

Approaching him, Meredith noticed that Derek had begun to stand up as if he were trying to leave, but this time she wasn't going to let him go. Not before she had the chance to apologize.

"Derek, one of these days you are going to have to talk to me," Meredith said wryly.

Derek glared at her, his blue eyes simmering with heat. "Not in this lifetime, I won't, not after that last stunt you pulled."

She rolled her eyes. "I said I was sorry, what more do you want?"

Derek moved closer to her causing a trickle of fear inside her, which was not a good feeling, and for the first time in months she was glad she was pregnant so he couldn't hurt her, at least not physically. But emotionally he could and that's what scared her the most.

"This time that's not good enough. You went way beyond far this time, Meredith, you cost me my relationship with Rose, and for that stunt you're lucky to be still living here," Derek said coldly.

Meredith had managed to hang on to her temper but only barely. "I never asked to be living here in the first place."

He pointed towards the door. "Well, there's the door, don't let it bite you in the ass on your way out."

She walked a little bit closer to him and grabbed him by the collar "You're a complete bastard, you know that? You're just like my father and the only difference was that he left," she said rather angrily.

Derek didn't like being compared to her father, but right now he didn't care. Meredith had to know that the stunt with Rose went too far, and in the past he had definitely cut her some slack, but no more. He was going to be a little more tough with her, even if it meant that she hated him.

"Meredith, do you get that what you did the other night was wrong?" he asked as he watched Meredith continue to glare at him.

Meredith tilted up her chin. "If you mean by getting rid of Rose? Then the answer is no, but for the rest of the stuff that I did in the past, then the answer is yes. I regret doing the things that I did, but Rose " she shook her head, "Then no, I didn't," she answered truthfully.

Derek was becoming more frustrated with this conversation by the minute. "How could you possibly not know that? You didn't even know her, you didn't even give her a chance, so what is it huh?"

She didn't want to reveal her feelings to him just quite yet so she tried to make it sound like his girlfriend was a dog. "Rose wasn't exactly a warm person, you know," she said wryly, "plus she looked like a dog, and since I don't like dogs I didn't like her."

He waved his arms in the air. "You are unbelievable, you know that? I thought I knew you, the Meredith I know wouldn't judge a book by it's cover, and that's exactly what you did. I can't believe it," he said, turning away from her.

"You don't know me," Meredith said coldly.

"Obviously."

"And what's that supposed to mean?" she demanded, starting to feel the anger surge through her.

Derek turned towards back towards her. "You know exactly what I mean," he hissed.

That did it. Meredith ran towards him and started to hit any part of his body, which would normally be a turn on, but not today, so he grabbed her flailing wrists and held on. Before he could say something both of them heard his mother coming down the stairs and automatically he released her wrists. He went over to the kitchen table and grabbed his brief case and left for work before he could say something he shouldn't.

Meredith stood there, trembling, realizing that out of any of the fights that she had had with Derek, this was by far the most serious one, and had likely caused damage to their relationship - or "friendship," as he called it - for the worse and now she really had no clue how to fix it. She was trying to figure out her relationship with Derek when she heard footsteps coming from behind her.

Carolyn had heard the fight from upstairs and made sure she didn't interrupt things, however bad it may be right now and judging from the sound of it, it was bad. Now she was going to try to help them out in whatever way she could.

"Meredith is everything alright dear?" she asked gently, and watched as the poor girl stood there trembling and nearly was in tears.

Meredith shook her head "I think I really did it this time," she whispered.

Carolyn frowned. "What do you mean? Are you two still fighting over what happened last week at dinner?"

Meredith nodded. "Believe it or not, this is the first time we have spoken since that night."

Carolyn knew that her son and Meredith hadn't spoken, although not for lacking in Meredith's part, she had been trying to apologize to him ever since that night but her son refused to acknowledge her. Knowing how stubborn he could be, she tried not to push it, figuring that they would resolve it, but now it seemed like it was time for her to step in.

"I know, but you did go too far this time. I didn't expect my son to stay silent for this long, though," she said and watched as Meredith lowered her head and let the tears run down her cheek. Carolyn wrapped her arms around the young woman and gently led her over towards the stairs and placed Meredith on a chair.

"He hates me, "she whispered as she began to sob uncontrollably.

Carolyn gave Meredith a hug and tried to reassure her. "Derek doesn't hate you, dear, he's angry, yes, but I know my son and he doesn't hate you. Just give him time."

Meredith didn't think she had anymore time, but didn't say so. "He definitely wasn't ready to hear anymore apologies from me, look at all that I've done, and he's forgiven me for those but why not now?"

Derek's mother shook her head "Meredith you were rather rude and very impolite to Rose, not to mention that little fight the two of you had afterwards. Do you see where I'm going with this?" she asked gently.

Meredith nodded and wiped the tears from her eyes. "I know I was wrong, but Rose rubbed me the wrong way and knowing she was with Derek?" She shook her head before going on. "I couldn't stand it, so I guess I let the jealously get the better of me," she admitted to Carolyn.

Carolyn finally understood what had gotten the better of Meredith. "You don't like sharing him with anyone, do you?" she asked and the young woman shook her head so she continued on. "Meredith, I hate to break it to you but Derek is allowed to date, he is twenty four, besides he still cares about you, you know that."

Meredith knew that Carolyn had a point but it didn't seem to stop those feelings that she had for him. "I know, but it's still hard. I really like him, a lot, and I don't want to lose that not now and definitely not ever," she said.

Carolyn sighed. "Meredith, you are only fifteen. Can you honestly say you're ready to have a relationship? Especially with a man who is nine years older then you?" she asked.

"I don't know," Meredith admitted knowing that Carolyn was right about a relationship with Derek being a complete disaster right now.

"Well there you go. Has he ever said about how he felt about you?" Carolyn asked.

Meredith tried to remember if he ever said he loved her or something like that, but she couldn't so she told Carolyn, "He said he likes me and would like to be friends for now, and that if should something happen between us it would happen when I become an adult. I also think he said he would wait for me."

Carolyn smiled "You see there you go, my son is a honorable man and when he says something he means it, so you should wait a few more years and then see what happens."

For the first time in over a week Meredith smiled "Okay, I'll tell him all that if he'll still talk to me."

Carolyn patted her shoulder. "Oh, I'm sure of it, he will be back tonight, so talk to him then."

"Okay," she said and sat down on the chair and watched as Carolyn started to make some breakfast before she had to leave for school. Meredith sat there thinking as she watched his mother serve them their food that things were about to get better and that she was confident enough that she and Derek would patch things up and things would return to normal, and she couldn't wait.

Okay so Meredith and Derek are still fighting or sort of but no worries i promise there will be a resolution in the next chapter which should be up and running in a few days so please stay sorry about the wait i was out of town for a week and just got back yesterday and now the updates will be regular or so.
As well i hoped you enjoyed this chapter i know this wasn't what you expected but i felt there needed to be a conflict in which it wouldn't take overnight to overcome so i hope you enjoyed it and please review just makes my day and any ideas that you may have send them my way,thanks and enjoy!