Letting Go

Raven crashed to the floor, shaking with Rage beginning to consume her. She could feel her skin skid on the cement and a burning went through her body. Magic was starting to course throughout her, trying to find a way out and wreck havoc anywhere it could.

"Don't lose control," She told herself repeatedly.

She never meant to do that, she didn't want to start a war. And, yet here she was going around and almost killing innocent people. Not that Terra was a good little girl or anything but Raven hated how she felt. It was as if something had broken deep within her psyche. The darkness had given her pleasure and her heart wanted more of it. Raven felt sick knowing how much she enjoyed almost killing a person. Almost a friend. It was true that she hated Terra with a deep passion, but was she really a cold-blooded killer? It was people like her that she and her friends would put behind bars. Now she was the one playing bad guy. I wonder if this is how Robin felt..except he never actually hurt anyone.

Footsteps echoed in the darkness, creating an eerie feeling to the chamber. She couldn't keep her shakes at bay. Too ashamed to face Slade she turned her head away.

"My dear, why turn from me?" She could feel Slade's breath on her skin as he crouched before her. It seemed to warm her. The smell of gun-powder and male scent hung in the air around him as well. Raven closed her eyes, a tear threatening to fall.

"I couldn't, I just couldn't," she whispered.

Raven felt a hand rest upon her shoulder and her head jerked up in shock. Slade looked into her eyes and he saw the surprise there mixed with self-loathing. He knew this because he had experienced the feeling all too well. He knew that his 'partner' had been just through a traumatic event, but he also knew she was capable of so much more.

"The first kill is always hardest my dear, you'll get over it in time."

Raven bowed her head, "that's what I'm afraid of." And, for the first time in years she broke down into tears.

Beast Boy stared in shock at the spot where Raven had just been standing. He couldn't believe nor' fathom what had just occurred. His head snapped over to Terra who was crouched over on the ground looking almost as green as himself. Everyone seemed to be trying to stomach what had just happened, but how could they? Raven was someone they could turn to for comfort. She held the team together, including him, and now she was gone.

"Wow, you kids really put on a good show." A voice that was distorted and filled with arrogance said.

Robin whipped around to see a figure clapping mockingly in the distance.

"X" He ground out. "What do you want?"

Beast Boy could see that Robin wasn't up for a fight by the way his shoulders had sagged in defeat. But, then again, none of them could stand up for themselves now with her gone. They were at their most vulnerable.

"I couldn't help but notice your 'predicament'" Red X seemed to choose his words carefully.

"And?" Cyborg added before Robin could say anything stupid that would get them all into trouble. Suddenly X jumped down from his perch on the roof and sauntered over to them.

"You may not trust me, but you need to now. I know what may be affecting Raven, and before you say it, it isn't Slade." X had gone cold as he began his sentence, almost if it was his death sentence being conversed about. Though, it was hard to tell with the mask on.

We all looked at each other not knowing where he was going with this statement. Robin nodded his head signaling for him to go on.

"There is someone out there who wants Raven to herself and will not stop at anything to get to her."

"How would you know this?" Robin asked crossing his arms, not believing the criminal.

X bowed his head in shame for a few minutes, and then looked up with hate radiating off of his body and aura.

"I know, because she's my sister."

The young woman screamed in fury and lashed out with her claws to the mirror. Xavier was going to ruin everything! All that she had worked for her brother would steal from her just as he always had. The good for nothing thief would pay for his treacheries.

"Not this time my dear brother. You won't get the beauty you seem to care for so much. Oh no, that vixen is mine. "

And, this time when she tries to kill him, she'll do it right.

Sorry for the wait! I kept getting sick, and then school, and the drama, and all this stuff. I know, I know, excuses, excuses...sigh.. Well I hope this makes up for it! Sorry, no blood though, haha, but I kinda wanted a more emotional level with Raven and Slade, and I wanted to add X in there just because I love him. :) Anyways, I do not own Teen Titans :( but if I did there would sooo be a Raven and bad guy pairing, lol.