Another chapter hope you guys like it.

Base song for chappie- Chasing car's (snow patrol)

Kairi pov.

I ran to mine and Namine's apartment and didn't even notice Namine's calling of my name. I slid into the bathroom and slammed the door. I couldn't believe I had done it. Was it really the best thing to do. But god those things I said...they were just wrong. I begged my mind to calm it's ranting but was offered nothing. Tears were falling from my bright red eyes, down my bright red cheeks and into my tangle of auburn hair. Oh my, why did I have to be so foolish. Why did I have to love him?

I wondered to myself which him I was thinking of and let out a weak giggle which was more like a spurt of choking but it was all the same. I turned on the shower giving it a minute to heat up as I stripped my clothes. I had showered more in the last month than I had in the past year. Everyday I would take about four showers and sometimes five and most of them didn't end up being warm. The reason was that I never quite felt purely clean. Ever.

As I slid into the shower and felt the too-hot water beat against my skin angrily. I pressed a hand covered in strawberry scented shampoo against my hair as I rubbed it in viciously. I felt the difference of the hot water and the lukewarm tears on my face. It was far too much. I rinsed out the shampoo and began massaging in the conditioner. I let the soap sit in my hair as I scrubbed my body with my soap and shaved and then scrubbed with the strawberry kiwi body-wash I had bought myself recently.

For a few minutes I just sat there letting the conditioner unclasp itself from my hair. Another couple minutes passed. Then finally as the water turned to ice I turned it off. I didn't leave the shower stall though. I just sat and stared at the tiled wall. Eventually I slipped out of the shower and collected a towel and wrapped it around my head then another towel that I slipped around my body. I looked at myself. My skin was red from the hot temperature but my face was glowing red and itched like hell.

More tears came past my attempted barriers. I ran out of the bathroom and into my own room slamming the door. I looked into the mirror as I stripped the towel and rearranged it so it was wrapped around my shoulders for warmth.

A picture of Sora, Then me with the middle, and Riku on the end sat on my dresser in one of those frames that say things like Love and Friends on them. I crumpled to the ground and sat in a pile of my own misery and just lay there crumpled in misery. How did I let this happen? What had I done? My god had I ever cried this much before?

'Who the hell do you love?' cried that smart-Alec little voice in the back of my head. I was wheezing miserably with snot all over my face and slightly bitten down nails. Riku. He always knew how I felt and made me feel safe and happy. Sora. Knew the best ways to cheer me up (but wasn't always sure when) and I never felt alone around him. My heart reached out to both as I lay miserable on piles of clothes and crap that was scattered in my bedroom.

When I finally heard a noise I jumped clumsily but didn't make any other movements. I heard the creek of a door opening. Steps came towards me as I made no sign to move. The floor creaked as the person knelt. I felt a hand touch my cheek but I kept my eyes closed as I sniffled in grief.

"You know by closing your eyes that doesn't hide you. I can still see you." Said the voice of Riku. I looked up at him. Oh god those eyes. Those perfect orbs of sea green with the crystal blue sparkles. (though she never would have guessed Riku's thought's were about how stunningly blue her eyes were even after the hours of tears).

He collected my hand into his before lifting me up into a sitting position. I blushed as my chest was bare, he folded the towel so it covered me. Our eyes met and I bit my lip to stop the tears again. This time it worked gladly. I looked into his eyes begging to see them again. I loved his eyes. I love his silver tresses I loved his muscular arms, I love how he held me so softly that night, I loved how he would always take care of me even after the terrible things I had said to him. My god I loved him. It was stupid since of course I knew I was supposed to love Sora and of course I did, but who the hell did I love more?

I fell into him and allowed him to wrap his arms around me. They were holding me together like I needed. I needed someone to love me right now and I wouldn't dare ask Sora.

Riku never noticed once in that hour they sat there like that the fact that her bare body was pressed against him as the towel had fell. All he knew was the girl he loved was there and was pleading for him to take care of her. That was all that mattered right now.

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I felt safe in his arms. I wasn't sure what I was doing since I knew I shouldn't be allowing him to hold me but I needed him. Not Sora for once, I needed Riku. He had been twirling my hair in his fingers and running them through it and it felt so good. My tears had stopped and now I just sat in his arms content.

Finally after about and hour he spoke.

"We should get some clothes on you." he murmured against my hair. I blushed when I finally paid attention to my nude body. He pulled towel that had fallen over my shoulders and I pulled it close to me. I took in one last whiff of his scent before he pulled away and stood bringing me up by my hands with him.

I went over to the drawer and collected a pair of polyester pajama pants and a shirt adorned with the collage name and logo on it. I walked over clumsily to my underwear drawer and pulled out my favorite bra and a pair of heart covered panties. I stripped the towel off noticing Riku's eyes on me but not minding as I slid each piece of clothing onto my body.

I stepped over to the dresser collecting my brush and as I was about to begin the process of brushing my hair Riku tapped my shoulder. I looked at him questioningly.

"May I?" he asked requesting the brush. I tilted my head to the side and nodded handing it to him. He slid the object through my hair gracefully and slowly his face close to it as he took in the scent. He slid a hand through it right after the brush and soon after he finished.

"Done" he said but the brush and his hand still went through my hair. I giggled and he smiled at me. "Sorry..." I leaned myself back into his chest and he placed his hands on my hips. He tilted his head over my shoulder and just rested it there breathing steadily. With this position I could take in the sweet scent that came off of his hair. We sat there until Namine came in with some juice in one hand. She jumped but gracefully Vanitas slid in and caught the cup, not a drop spilling.

Namine smiled at him but hastily turned around apologizing towards us. Our position had changed and somehow I now faced him and Vanitas looked at us with one raised eyebrow.

"My poor cousin...does he know about this little thing?" he said addressing the two of us about Sora. I looked up at Riku worriedly as he glared at Vanitas. He took a moment to look at me and saw my tortured face.

"Don't you dare..." he began but Namine was already glaring at Vanitas.

"Vani, this doesn't have anything to do with us..." she began quietly.

" But think of Sora...i thought you all people would care since your so obviously in love with..." she then pushed a hand against his mouth and brought him with another arm wrapped around his torso making sure his arms stayed in place.

"Have fun...stay safe, always use a condom, say no to drugs, um eat lots of carrots...an apple a day keeps the doctor away!" she ranted nonstop before pulling Vanitas out and closing the door. Both Riku and I were blushing as I started a fit of laughter which began his laughter. We continued laughing until they just became little spurts of giggles.

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Namine pov.

"Vanitas! How dare you. You can't just...and to his best friend..." I hissed

"Yes he surely seemed like the best friend right then... I hate the guy and I still wouldn't be like that with his girl behind his back." Vanitas murmured angrily.

"Kairi...she loves Sora...It was probably just a misunderstanding." I mumbled. I hated bringing anything up that had to do with Sora and Kairi. I hated it.

"You love Sora too, would you ever be caught dead like that if he were to accept you as his girlfriend?" He hissed angrily.

"SHUTUP!" I snarled. "You don't have a clue what it's like to be in love with someone who wont have you! You have no right to...to, insult me like this!" I screamed.

"How do you know? Maybe I do. Maybe I am in love with someone. Maybe they WONT have me. Sora DOESN"T LOVE YOU! Get the Hell over it! I am the only person who gives a shit about you so get used to it!" he screamed making tears overflow from my eyes.

"Kairi does!" I wailed angrily.

"Oh really, then why hasn't she told you whats going on in there. Or how long it's been going on. HOW DO YOU KNOW SHE HASN'T BEEN CHEATING WITH HIM THE WHOLE EIGHT YEARS THEY'VE BEEN FUCKIN DATING?" he screamed.

"SHE WOULDN'T YOU BASTARD!" I screamed throwing a pillow at his head.

"How the hell do you know?" he yelled walking towards me getting in my face. "Sora doesn't love you. You deserve better and you know it. The boys clueless of anything and honestly I wish I was him...then at least I could have something he has..." Vanitas said in an almost humane voice but it still rang through the room.

"What does he have Vanitas...what does he have that want so badly?" I wailed tears leaving wet tracks down my face.

"You." was all he said before taking my face in his hands and kissing me. I had never been kissed before. Ever. I had begged for it in my head from Sora and once upon a time Roxas but this was real. This felt amazing. I placed my hands over his that cupped my wet cheeks and wouldn't let them move.

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"do you hear that?" I asked Riku as he stroked a hand through my hair. He nodded.

"SHUTUP!" Namine snarled. "You don't have a clue what it's like to be in love with someone who wont have you! You have no right to...to, insult me like this!" She screamed.

"Is it odd for them to fight?" he asked.

" How do you know? Maybe I do. Maybe I am in love with someone. Maybe they WONT have me. Sora DOESN"T LOVE YOU! Get the Hell over it! I am the only person who gives a shit about you so get used to it!" screamed Vanitas.

"Extremely. I have never heard one of them yell at one another before...ever. And I am almost posotive it's my fault..."

"SHE WOULDN'T YOU BASTARD!" Namine Wailed.

"Actually I believe it would be our fault, but don't bring yourself too down, it was bound to happen." he looked at my brokenhearted eyes. "Would you like to check on them?" he asked finally. I smiled and nodded. We stepped out the door to hear the final words said.

"How the hell do you know?" Vanitas yelled walking towards Namine and getting in her sobbing face. "Sora doesn't love you. You deserve better and you know it. The boys clueless of anything and honestly I wish I was him...then at least I could have something he has..." Vanitas said in a kind of normal voice but still it could be heard throughout the room.

"What does he have Vanitas...what does he have that want so badly?" Namine begged sadly as she cried helplessly.

"You" was all he said before kissing her. Kissing her. She had never ever kissed anyone. Ever. She actually pulled him closer. I sat there open mouthed as Riku watched with raised eyebrows.

"Wow, well isn't this a surprise." Riku smirked breaking the silence. I still stared mouth agape. Namine squealed and her pale face turned bright red.

"We...um...were talking and um...i... and then...he um..." she stuttered. She looked up at a dazed Vanitas. "I'm not helping myself am I?" she asked him as he smirked at her.

"Aww, it's okay na-mii you never have been any good at that." he said laughing. She pursed her lips and glared at him before staring to giggle happily and quite bubbly.

"Your a jerk!" she giggled, all he did was laugh.

"Thank you m'lady" she acted as if he were tipping a hat her way.

"As cute as this is... it is kind of late and I had better be going." riku said with a raised eyebrow. I giggled at his comment. I went up on my toes and whispered in his ear.

"Can you stay with me tonight?" he smiled at me a nodded. I smiled back. "Night Nams I said feebly as they both looked at me in shocked silence as Riku followed. I sat down on the bed and patted the spot beside me. We both laid down and faced one another.

"I don't think either of us want Sora knowing, am I correct?" riku asked me smiling sadly. All I did was nod

"will you just lay down with me and forget it all for now?" I begged. He nodded smiling and we fell asleep facing one another.

How was it? I dont know if it seems like it but I worked really hard on this so don't go too hard on me... please read and review thank yuuu:)