Dear Diary, I know it's been awhile but so much has happened. My father sent some people after me to bring me home, and my friends at Fairy Tail wouldn't give me up without a fight. It made me feel good to know I had people who cared for me that much. We won the fight, but there was some injuries. Loke was injured trying to save me. When Natsu told me that I was surprised because Loke had been avoiding me since the shower sex. It hurt when the next time he completely ignored me but I knew that was bound to happen. After that he was gone most of the time, so I didn't see him much. After we rebuilt the guild I decided I needed to put my father in his place, so I left a note for my friends while they were out on jobs, and went back home. Of course father wanted me to stay but I stood my ground and left with my head held high. On my way home though I got into some trouble.
Lucy stood there facing two ugly old men. She knew what they wanted but she damn sure wasn't gonna give it to them. They were closing in on her and she was trying to figure a way out. She thought about her keys, but the are about ten feet away. She grabbed her whip from her hip. " Now that's what we're talking about" the shorter of the two said. "Gross" Lucy said with disgust. "Don't worry girlie, we'll make you feel real good" the uglier one said. " The only thing that's gonna make me feel good is knocking the rest of your teeth down your throat" Lucy retorted. " And how you gonna do that there is two of us and your all alone" the short one said. " Who said she was alone?" Lucy knew that voice, she turned around to see Loke jumping down from a tree branch. "Loke" Lucy could see he was angry. The two men started backing away." Look, we don't want no trouble" the uglier one said. " Then I suggest you leave, and if you ever see her again walk the opposite way". They bowed and left. "Are you okay?" Loke asked watching the men retreat. " Uh, yea what are you doing here?" Loke turned to face her he noticed she had bags under her eyes. " I was on a job and I heard your voice". Lucy wanted to run to him, but she stood still. " Are you on your way back to the guild?" he asked. Lucy shook her head yes, she was afraid to speak. Loke could tell she was about to break, whether it was from what happened between them or the men harassing her he didn't know. Against his better judgement he walked over and put his arms around her and she broke.
She cried for what could have just happened to her if Loke hadn't come, for her father not loving her, for the torture she felt watching her friends fall because of her, and for the complicated mess she was in with Loke. Finally giving in to the black hole that had been circling around for weeks now. Loke knew how she was feeling he knew she just left her father's estate turning her back on the life she had there. He knew she felt guilt for what happened when the guild was attacked, and he knew he was hurting her by ignoring her. Loke was angry with her for being her and making him feel things he knew he shouldn't feel, but most of all he was angry with himself for allowing it to get this far. After a while Lucy calmed down, and she pulled away from Loke." I'm sorry to bother you, and thank you for saving me" and she stood up. She was dizzy, so she swayed a bit. Loke grabbed her shoulders to try and steady her. Lucy wanted so bad to lean into him, but again she stopped herself. " Can you stand on your own?" Loke asked "Yea, I think I'm okay now" and she started picking her things up. Neither of them knew what to say so they just walked to the train station in silence. Once settled on the train Lucy pulled out her ipod and put the ear phones in her ears. Loke watched her close her eyes and move her head to the beat. He wanted her still, but he couldn't keep playing with her feelings. He kept telling himself that he doesn't deserve her, she was to good for him. It's funny cause at first he didn't want nothing to do with her because she's a spirit mage. That first night they had together he thought she would just be like any other girl, but that's not the way it went.
Lucy sat there with her eyes closed listening to all the songs that remind her of Loke, but she couldn't look at him. She wouldn't put herself out there no more. She had been telling herself that for weeks but everytime she seen him that went right out the window. She could feel his eyes on her but she was ignoring him. It wouldn't do any good to see those bright green eyes looking into hers. Lucy knew she was falling for him, and she knew that was a bad idea. He was like one of those actors you fantasize about, but no you can never have him. I guess in away she got more than most girls in that situation but it wasn't enough. Once they got off the train it was dark. " Well I guess I'll see you around" Lucy said grabbing her stuff. Loke stopped her " After what happened earlier I think I'll walk you home". Lucy sighed in defeat and agreed to let him walk with her. Though they were both quiet their minds weren't. Both of them thought about what happened anytime Loke was near her place. Neither of them wanted to say it but they were nervous. Once Lucy opened her door she walked in and put her stuff on the floor, when she turned around Loke was in the doorway. She could see he was having a difficult time trying to decide what to do. So she walked over and grabbed his hand and pulled him in and closed the door. She went to the kitchen and brought a bottle of sake and two glasses. She sat on the couch and poured the drinks. Loke sat down and took a glass. " To no regrets" and he tapped Lucy's glass with his own before downing it. After a few shots they both relaxed. Lucy turned to face Loke " I want you". Lucy pushed him back on the couch and straddled him. He put his hands on her hips as she bent down and kissed him. Loke moved his hand up her shirt making her moan, he started to massage her right breast as he stuck his tongue in her mouth. Lucy grinded against his member making him moan and she smiled into the kiss. She sat back up and he pulled her shirt off and unsnapped her bra. He started to pinch her nipples making her grind into him harder. " Oh god Luce" and he flipped her over he ran his hand up her thigh. " I want you so bad" he whispered into her ear making her shiver. He started sucking on her neck, he had to leave his mark again. He moved down to her nipples and starting sucking on them. His hand moved further up her thigh until he reached the edge of her panties. He moved them aside and ran his finger between her folds. " Oh god Loke, quit teasing me". He smirked at her, as he entered a finger into her, he started moving it slowly in and out. He watched her as he entered another finger, this time he moved faster as her moans got louder.
After Lucy reached her climax she sat up and started to unbuckle Loke's pants. She could feel how hard he was and it turned her on. She pulled out his member and took her tongue across the top of it making Loke shake. Now it was her time to smirk before she took him into her mouth. " Oh shit" Loke moaned. Loke grabbed her hair as she moved her head up and down. Before long Loke came in Lucy's mouth, not sure what to do Lucy swallowed. Loke lifted her chin and kissed her hard. Before anything else could happen there was a loud bang on the door and they both jumped up looking for clothes. Loke ran to the bedroom and Lucy went to the door. " Hey, Luce where have you been?" Natsu yelled " Geez Natsu don't be so damn loud,and anyways I left you guys a note".
Needless to say when I finally got rid of Natsu, Loke was gone, and I haven't seen him since. I haven't talked to Natsu since then either. I know he had no idea what was going on but I got to be mad at somebody. I don't know diary it's complicated. Love Lucy