Dear Diary, If you thought my relationship with Loke couldn't get more complicated you would be wrong. A few days ago he went missing but I knew where I would find him. When I seen him it was almost like you could see threw him, and I was so scared. I screamed at the heavens that I wouldn't let him disappear, but he kept telling me to let him go. But I wouldn't give up, and it paid off. The Spirit King showed up and I argued how it was wrong to punish Loke for what happened because he didn't do anything wrong. He tried stopping me, but I wouldn't listen and I talked the Spirit King into allowing Loke back to the spirit world. Can you believe it little old me? Anyways the Spirit King did give Loke a condition, and that was he had to become my spirit. Loke agreed so now I have Leo the Lion spirit key. But like I said things are more complicated now than ever.
" Thank you Lucy, I owe you my life" Loke said walking to her. Lucy was relieved that he was still here, but she knew he would be leaving to go back to the spirit world, and she wasn't sure how she felt about that. " Well I guess I should go". " Well I guess I will see you around then" Lucy said looking at the ground. Loke lifted her chin and kissed her softly " Call me when ever you need me" and he disappeared leaving a gold key in Lucy's hand. Lucy dropped to her knees. She managed to save Loke only to have him leave anyway. It's not like she wouldn't see him again, but dammit he was a spirit. She was falling for a spirit, how is that even possible? Lucy sat there lost in her thoughts until she realized she was shivering. She got up and started back to the guild to let everyone know she found Loke. She would just tell them he was resting and they could see him tomorrow. She didn't want to think of the reason he wasn't able to come with her.
The next morning Lucy woke with a major headache, she ended up crying herself to sleep. She looked at herself in the mirror, her eyes were red and puffy. She looked awful, but she had to get this over with. She washed her face and brushed her teeth, and got dressed. She thought about eating, but as soon as she thought about it she had to run to the bathroom. After she brushed her teeth for the second time she left. Once she got to Fairy Tail she told her friends what happened to Loke. They didn't believe her, like she would joke about that, but then again they didn't know about her and Loke. She pulled out his key and called for the lion. When he appeared everyone was in shock, and gathered around him wanting to hear his story. Lucy left the huddle and sat at the bar. " Lucy, you don't look so good" Mira told her from behind the counter. " Yea, I'm not feeling so good". She laid her head down on the counter waiting for Loke to be done with his story. After a few minutes he walked up to her. She hadn't notice his clothes before but now she couldn't help but stare at him from the counter top. " Lucy you look terrible" he said sitting next to her. " Thanks Loke, you know how to make a girl feel better". "Why don't we get you home" and he helped her up.
After reaching Lucy's apartment Loke helped her to the couch. "Are you sick?" he asked. " I think so" she mumbled. Loke got up and put a blanket over her, and went to make some tea. When he came back he noticed she was crying. " Why are you crying?" he asked handing her the cup of tea. Lucy just shook her head. " How are we suppose to work together if you can't even talk to me?" " What do you want me to tell you Loke?" He sat down next to her. " I want to know what's bothering you?" He took her hands in his. " Tell me Lucy". She pulled her hands away from him and stood up." Okay fine! I have spent the past how many months fighting the feelings I have for you, not to mention having sex with two and a half times. AND NOT ONCE DID YOU THINK TO SAY, HEY I AM A OUTLAW SPIRIT!" she screamed. " How could you Loke? Why didn't you warn me first!" He didn't know what to say, he knew he should have not taken things so far, but his heart out weighted his mind at those times, not to mention his little guy. " I knew you were a player, but dammit Loke being a spirit is something totally different". " Why?" Lucy looked at him like he sprouted another head."What do you mean why?" " You knew I was a player, so why put yourself out there? You knew it wasn't gonna work!" Lucy slapped him.
Loke put his hand to his cheek. " Get out!" Lucy screamed. She picked up the tea cup and threw it at the wall. She went to grab something else when Loke grabbed her hands and put them behind her back. "Get off of me, and get out" she screamed again. She was trying to pull away from him, but she was no match for him. " Stop acting like a child" he yelled at her and she stopped moving. She started to speak but he cut her off. " You think your the only one that's been bothered by this?" He let her arms go and disappeared. A few seconds later there was a knock on her door. She wiped her eyes and opened it. " Lucy, are you ok? I heard screaming" Gray asked. Lucy stood there and looked at him for a minute when she dropped to the floor and started sobbing. Gray walked in and closed the door. He sat down next to her and put his arm around her trying to comfort her. Lucy wrapped her arms around his neck and cried into his chest. Gray knew it was Loke that she was arguing with, but didn't ask why. After awhile Gray noticed she had fell asleep, so he picked her up and carried her to the couch. He laid her down and sat in the chair next to her. He didn't want to leave her with the way she was acting. After a hour or so she woke up. "I'm sorry" she said sitting up. " For what?" Gray asked. She smiled "Oh I don't know, maybe for soaking you with my tears, or making you sit here and watch me sleep". " It's okay, your my friend and that's what friends do".
I am lucky to have friends like Gray, but I'm not ready to tell them about me and Loke. I wouldn't even know what to say really. Other than it's complicated, and I guess that is the best way to describe it. I don't know how things are gonna work between me and Loke, but now that we will be working together things are bound to get worse. Say a prayer for me diary cause I'm gonna need it. Love Lucy