Dear Diary, I know it's been a few days, but I have been so exhausted from keeping my mind off Loke. I have took every job I could just to keep my mind off him. I made enough money for rent over the next three months and money for some new clothes. I think I did pretty good, and I didn't even call on Loke for help. So I guess in the spirit world he can see me or sense what's going on, cause it turned out he didn't like that. During the battle of Fairy Tail he came out on his own because I damn sure wasn't calling him, but anyways I guess it's a good thing he came out when he did or I would be dead. And you know we work well together. Once the battle was over Loke jumped on me for not calling him...
Loke was livid " What is the sense of me being your spirit if you can't even call me to help you". " I don't remember requesting you as my spirit so why does it matter?" she asked. " I know you didn't request me, but your stuck with me". Lucy was starting to get a headache. " Look Loke thanks for helping me, and I will try and remember to call you if I need you. So you can go back now"." You'll try to remember to call me if you need me? Are you serious?" Loke grabbed her by the arms. " Do you understand how I would feel if I couldn't save you, I can't go threw that again". " Is that what this has been about Loke?" " What do you mean?" " You have been so worried about paying for Karin's death. Is that what I was to you? What I am now?"Loke let her arms go. Lucy started laughing. " It makes so much sense now, You pulled me out of the water that day, and stayed when I asked you to" "STOP" Loke shouted. Lucy could feel the tears welling up in her eyes, but refused to let them fall in front of him. " Your wrong" was all Loke could manage to say. " No Loke, you just don't want to admit to it".
" Go back Loke, If I need you I'll call". Lucy wanted to be as far away from him as possible. " This conversation isn't over Lucy". " We have friends out there fighting Loke, and I refuse to stand here arguing with you anymore". Lucy started walking away, but Loke just followed her. " Please Loke, just leave me alone" she begged. Loke felt bad, he felt bad for her thinking he used her, and most of all for hurting her. He knew he messed up the first night they spent the night together. Since then he couldn't get her out of his head. He thought about not telling her the truth, and just fading away without anyone knowing any better. But he didn't want to be forgotten. He was selfish like that, but he wasn't expecting Lucy to save him. He needed to fix things with her, but now was not the time. " I will leave now Lucy, but I will be at your place when you get home" and he was gone. " Then I guess I won't be going home" she said to the air. She knew it wouldn't matter where she was he would be there. After all the battles were over, and the messes cleaned up the parade started. Lucy has a great time, and for once her thoughts wasn't consumed of Loke.
Lucy had thought about asking her friends to come over, but she knew she need to get this over with. She would not be able to work with Loke if there was gonna be so much tension, and it wasn't even the good kind. Although there was a hint of it underneath the rest. She unlocked the door, and took a deep breath as she opened the door. Loke sat on the couch. Lucy noticed his clothes were different, instead of the suit he had been in earlier he was wearing a pair of baggy jeans and a black wife beater. She didn't know how she was going to get threw this, because his body was very distracting. " Did you enjoy the parade?" he asked. " Yea, it was alot of fun". Loke didn't look at her until she spoke. He was instantly mesmerized by her. Her hair was pulled up off her neck, and she was wearing a short blue dress. They both looked at each other waiting for the other to speak. After a few minutes of standing in silence Lucy spoke first. " What did you want to talk about Loke?" He shook his head and stood up " This isn't going to work". " What's not going to work?" Lucy asked.
Loke started pacing the floor, away from Lucy. " What is wrong with you Loke?" she asked. " Me being here with you is not going to work. I need to leave". " Wait" and she grabbed his arm. " I can't be here with you Lucy, I don't know how to control myself" he closed his eyes and took a deep breath. " I don't want to hurt you anymore, so I can't stay here". " Damn Loke! I thought you wanted to fix what was wrong between us, and now you want to leave". " Yes, I do want to fix things, and no I don't want to leave, but if I stay" and he stopped. " If you stay what?" " I can't control myself around you, I want you so much everytime I see you, but I will only hurt you". Lucy lifted her hands to hold his head between them, and brought her lips to his. Loke kissed her back as he ran his hands down her back. Lucy pulled back and looked in his eyes. " Tell me you want me Loke". Loke grabbed her hair and pulled her closer before whispering " I want you Lucy" in her ear.
Lucy jumped on him wrapping her legs around his waist. " Then show me" she told him before bring her lips to his a second time. Loke put his arms around her butt and walked to the bedroom. He put her down, breaking the kiss long enough to grab the hem of her dress and pulling it over her head. He unclasped her bra and flung it behind them. He pushed her down on the bed and pulled of her panties. He admired the way she looked in the moonlight before discarding his clothes and crawling on top of her. He brought his lips to her and licked her bottom lip causing her to open her mouth, and letting his tongue move against hers. He moved his hand to her thigh making her gasp, and he smiled against her lips. He started kissing down her neck, while moving his hand up the inside of her thigh. " Please Loke, don't tease me" Lucy moaned. Loke moved down and took her right nipple in his mouth, as he enter his finger in her moving it in and out. Once he felt Lucy about to climax he added another finger and started moving them faster, sending her over the edge. Now it was Lucy's turn to take control, she pushed him off her and climbed on top of him. Slowly she brought herself down on him making him moan. Once she got comfortable she started moving up and down. It took her a minute to get her rhythm but once she did Loke's moans grew louder. Lucy started to move faster making them both climax shouting each other's name. Lucy fell onto the bed panting. Loke pulled her to him kissing her head, and they laid like that until they fell asleep.
I know diary I said I wouldn't do it again, but sex is the easiest part of a relationship. I don't know what to do really, but I can't help wanting him everytime I see him. Who knows maybe things will work out. But then again it's to complicated. Love Lucy