What am I?
Jacobs POV:
My whole body was trembling when the doctor´s words sank into my mind. How could he even think on the option that I wasn´t an ordinary wolf any longer? I had to proof to myself that I was still able to shift, that I´m not one of them.
As fast as possible I left the room and ran into the forest, I phased immediately when I was out of sight. I was afraid that it wouldn´t work, but as always my body changed perfect into its wolf form.
I could hear Edward following me but I didn´t pay any attention to him, I was only focused on myself when I raced through the undergrowth. I enjoyed the speed, the wind that brushed my fur, the feeling of endless freedom; I stopped when I reached the cliffs and watched the sunset on the sea.
Edward soon joined me and sat down beside me he was agitated but so was I. "Do you feel better now, honey?" he asked
Using only my mental voice I stated "I´m sorry Ed. I just needed to know. I mean if my inner wolf is there still, you see it is!" I smiled a wolfish smile for him while he curled the fur between my ears.
"What does the doc mean when he said I´m a kind of newborn? I was so puzzled that I couldn´t ask him before!"
"I also had no change to ask him any questions, I left right behind you. But I guess he meant that the change of your smell, your new gift, your long unconsciousness, your rejections to something to eat and your burning throat let him think about this possibility. He is also wondering where the scars on your neck came from, he doesn´t know yet that it was me who marked you"
I growled, I didn´t want to think about it. "Look I´m here just in front of you and I´m a wolf. I can´t be a bloodsucker and a shifter, both together in one person. There must be something else!"
With a sigh I stood up and glanced at my vampire "I´m feeling better now, shall we go home?" He nodded, stood up too und we headed back to the house. Someone was so friendly to put some clothes for me under a tree so I haven´t to cross the meadow naked. These vampires can be really nice if they want to
When I get closer to the house I heard them, not only their voices, the mix of their thought were really annoying, I wasn´t able to make one more step, I stand there frozen in front of the door.
I looked to Edward; searching for some support "Calm down Jake" he said in a low voice "just concentrate on me. You´ll see, it won´t take long and you´ll love your new found talent, trust me."
I grabbed his hand, took a deep breath and we went towards the voices. Carlisle had told them about my talent, his theory and my reaction on it. Neither the wolves nor the vampires seemed as concerned as I, I couldn´t understand why even Sam wasn´t worried about this news.
I did as Ed had told me and focused only on his mind, he sent calming words and pictures and I could also feel Jaspers mood-altering gift work. They helped me both through the confrontation with the many people in here.
Esme was the first that moved, she crossed the room and embraced me carefully "I cooked something for you" she said, smiling on me "Seth told me it´s your favorite. You like goulash – don´t you?" I nodded, "Sure, Esme. I do" I answered when we went to the kitchen.
The marvelous, mouthwatering scent let my stomach growl, I seemed to be very hungry I only haven´t recognized it first. There was just too much happened at once, the overwhelming new feature in my mind, our first kiss, Carlisles idea but right now I needed something to eat.
I glanced to Seth this was his favorite meal, not mine. I grinned, maybe I can eat it all alone and he won´t get a bite of it. It tasted delicious, extraordinary how this woman could cook without tasting it.
While I ate, the voices in my head got lower the only one that was constantly in my mind was Edward and this didn´t bothering me. He was right, I´ll learn to life with this new ability and I´ll learn it fast!
When Carlisle joined us at the kitchen table I smirked at him "See doctor – I eat normal human food. So your theory is crap! I´m not a vampire, I´m still a wolf!" I stated
"Well, I guess we have to figure out what you are! We´ll talk about it later Jacob, first I wanted to speak with my son – alone." He went outside and Edward followed him quickly. What the hell? I was so consumed with eating that I wasn´t listening to Carlisles thoughts, so this was unexpected.
I needed someone else to focus on while Ed was gone and I choose Seth which happily ate his second plate of goulash. He was cheery, calm and simply lovey and so were his thoughts too.
I was tormented by curiosity but I was sure Edward would tell me everything of their conversation when he´s back – and if not I could still see it in his or Carlisles mind – maybe mindreading isn´t as bad as I thought.