Well-being

Jacobs POV:

I finished my meal and thanked Esme for her wonderful cooking then I left the kitchen and went back to Edwards's room. Without him it was too difficult to stay downstairs with the others for a long time.

I let myself drop on the bed, closed my eyes and waited for Edward to come back. It´s seemed like an eternity to me until I heard his steps when he hurried up the stairs to join me.

When he stepped in I thought I wanted nothing more than to know what he had done all the time, what Carlisle has wanted from him but then he sat down next to me, our eyes met and immediately something else was more important to me than my curiosity.

I wanted him, and I wanted him right away!

I clung to him but that wasn´t enough, there was far too much cloth between us, so I slipped out of my shirt and was glad that he did the same. When our bodies met again I could feel his cold skin getting warmer under my touch.

After a deep, passionate kiss I started to lick on his neck, his chest and on my way down I paused on his navel. I could feel his arousal, he wanted me just as much as I wanted him – I believed – but when I unbuttoned his Jeans to go on with kissing all parts of him he was immediately gone and stood on the other side of the room a moment later.

Edwards POV:

I have enjoyed what Jake was doing but then a short image flickered through his mind – me when I was sinking my teeth into his neck – that was enough to remind me how thirsty I was and that stopped me.

His scent was still too overwhelming for me, I wasn´t able to guaranty for his safety. As long as I must be afraid that I would lose control, that I couldn´t stop myself if we go too far, I couldn´t do this, I didn´t wanted to hurt him again.

I was out the bed and across the room in a second. Jake blinked twice when he found himself in the bed alone, he was confused by my action but I had to protect him.

"What´s wrong Ed? I won´t upset you; I thought you wanted this too. So please tell me, what have I done?"

Even if he could read in my mind that I simply wouldn´t risk to hurt him he blamed himself, his mind was screaming

Why doesn´t he want me?

What the hell have I done wrong this time?

I knew he´ll never love me!

"No, no, no damn it Jake – don´t be stupid! Would you just listen to me! You´re the only one I´ll ever love you´re the most important person in the whole world to me and you already know that!" I shouted

He looked at me with still doubtful eyes and winced "But you won´t me touching you!"

I sighed "I´d love it, but right now I think it´s too dangerous for you to be so near, I could lose control – you know that happened before. I don´t want to bite you. Look, I just want you to be safe"

He gave me a bitter smile You´ve lost control so many times until now "I don´t care of safety! I love you and I want you and honestly I don´t see the problem if you want to bite me - just do it!" he said

"Don´t be ridiculous! I´ve almost killed you the last time and I already know how it feels to lose you. I couldn´t life without you, so I won´t risk anything" I announced

"So your plan for our future doesn´t includes having sex? Never?" he moaned "That´s torture Ed!"

I smirked; he was so sweet in his nervousness

"No, never" I said, watched his startled expression and started giggling but underneath his now angry stare I added:

"Honey, when I said I won´t risk anything, I meant no sex when I´m thirsty like now, but if you want you can come with me on a little hunting trip and after I have drunken enough we´ll see what will happen!"

Jacob calmed down abruptly, glanced at me and nodded "That will be fun, let´s go!" he said and hopped out the window. Well he wasn´t thrilled because of the hunting part, but rather to the time afterwards! That thought was clear Let´s get him a deer and then I could have him