We´ll try it

Jacobs POV:

Edward seemed to be happy that I was on a good way to accept my new being, but what else should I do? I assured myself that I would never let my vampire-part be the one who lead my actions, I was still a werewolf, I was still me – still me!

We sat there in the living room for a while and chatted with Eddie's parents, Esme gave me so much to eat, that even for me it was impossible to finish the plates. As every time she cooked for me it tasted wonderful, unfamiliar because of some extraordinary spices but nevertheless extremely delicious. Better then blood?

When my stomach was more than filled Edward excused us, took my hand and pulled me with him. I have to fulfill my promise he thought while we went upstairs, a stupid grin entered my face I´ve almost forgotten it

I entered our room and jumped on the bed, full with excitement I clapped my hand on the matrass. I haven´t to invite him a second time he was on my side an instant later and his lips collide with mine. I don´t remember when we put out our clothes but somehow it must be happened because as I once broke from him to gasp for air we were both nude.

"I - want - you – Edward" I whispered between our kisses "And so do I" he replied

The kiss got more intensive and I could feel his growing desire. I fared no differently; all I wanted was to feel him. I wanted to merge with him. I wanted him inside me; I needed him, right now.

Fuck me I blinked at him and I knew for sure he wanted me just as much

My hand glided bit by bit between his legs and I started to wipe his shaft with slow, pleasant movements. I looked in his eyes all the time and saw how much he enjoyed what I was doing to him. He moaned softly and I felt my own erection rising.

Unexpectedly my vampire pushed me away, only a bit and without any violent characteristic but I didn´t understand what this should mean

Edward shut his eyes and pressed his fingers against his temples "Stop it Jake", he said in a slow, painful voice. I was afraid, I didn´t know what´s up with him.

I was perplexed "Stop what, touching you?"

"Stop torturing me like this!" he begged

I had still no clue what he meant, so I sent him only an asking look and said nothing to his words

Suddenly he calmed down again and watched me furious What the hell have I done, he liked it before

"You don´t have to remind me" he hissed "I know exactly what I did; I really thought you had forgiven me! But apparently I was wrong. You don´t…"

I interrupted him "Ed, I actually don´t know what you´re talking about. I did nothing except of patting you"

"But your thoughts" he noted

"All I thought was how badly I want to feel you"

He stared at me, his expression thoughtful "I had a flash-back and I believed you did it with intention but possibly I´m wrong. Maybe your subconscious has done this. I guess you´re not ready for having sex, the illusions your mind sent me, I can´t handle it.

That´s not fair.

It felt right Ed! I want you!

Fucking subconscious!

I was frustrated, who knows how long it would take until my mind was completely healed from the former happenings maybe I should go and talk to a psychiatrist.

I rested my head on his bare chest and murmured "But we will try it again, will we?"

Edward answered "Sure honey, we´ll try it!"