I will miss you

Edwards POV:

After the decision was made, they gave us less time to say goodbye properly. They wanted to go back to Italy immediately and for me it was no question that I will come with them too. But for Jake it was unthinkable, he didn´t allow me to accompany him.

"I do that for you! I don´t want you around those monsters" he looked quickly to the vampires he had to follow soon "I want you to stay here with your family – safe. You know me darling; they will soon get enough of me and send me back! Until then, promise me not to risk anything and above all, don´t follow me."

Again he squinted to his "new family" and recognized that they were ready to leave - only Aro was still chatting, he renewed his invitations for Alice, Jasper and Bella to join his family while the others waited a little annoyed – our time was nearly over.

I still didn´t know what to say, how to convince him to let me stay at his side, to let me be a part of his chosen way. Besides, I didn´t have to say anything, he already knew what I was thinking.

Jake lifted his hands to my cheeks and pulled my face close, our lips melted and for a brief moment we forgot everything around us – we were only two people in love, sharing a very private moment – but far too soon we were brought back to the dark reality when Aro cleared his throat.

"When you two are finished, I would prefer to leave this uncomfortable place and go back home. You´ll be so excited when you´ll see your new home, young Jacob." He said thrilled.

Aro seemed to be the only one who was absolutely satisfied with this new situation. Well, Jake was glad that his plan had worked perfectly and that no one would die today – we all were – but his internal conflict was indescribable.

On one side, his heart was screaming in pain; he wanted to stay, he wanted rather to die then to leave me but on the other side his mind told him that he has to go to rescue all of us; it leaded him away from everyone he knew and loved.

"So dear Jacob, are you ready to go now?" Aro asked his tone more an order than a question.

I looked in my mates eyes and whispered "Please, let me come with you?" Don´t make it any harder for me he thought as a reply then he nodded and told the Volturis leader "I´m ready!"

I will always love you! I will come back to you! I swear!

He kissed me one last time and followed the leaving vampires. Abruptly he stopped and searched for the biggest of the wolves on the field, when he found Sam he shouted "Tell my dad that I´m sorry. I saw no other way for us. And Sam, tell him I love him!"

With these words he turned and never looked back again.

When they were out of sight it should have been delight or leastways relief in the air, the Volturi were gone, we were all still alive and no one was even hurt. But we all stood frozen, we couldn´t believe what just had happened.

Have we really lost Jacob?

I couldn´t describe how I felt; where my heart should be there was only a cold, painful emptiness left. I knew he did this mostly to protect me but that he wasn´t willing to spend the time he has to be located in Volterra with me at his side offended me anyway.

I should ignore his wish and follow them quickly but he wouldn´t be pleased when I would act that way. No, if he wants me to stay with our family, I will – at least, for now.