Another life:

Jacobs POV:

I missed my Edward badly – all the time, but most after our chats. When I hung up after his calls I mostly began to cry because it hurt just too much not to be with him.

During the days when I was too busy to think the pain in my heart was bearable but in the nights when I was all alone, laying on my bed it was torture to be separated from him.

So one day I decided it would be easier not to talk to him, not to be reminded on what I wanted the most, not to hear his lovely voice and not to cry me into sleep every single night. I really believed it would ease the pain and it would be better for Edward too if we would learn to life without the other. And not to take his phone calls would be the first step in this direction.

After I had begged him not to call me again I broke down on my bedroom floor whining and sobbing all night long. My mobile box was filled soon with his please. I listened to them when I missed him too much even if I knew it would be worst afterwards – sometimes I just needed to hear his voice to secure myself that he was still there.

Though, I never called back because I honestly hoped that he´ll stop trying and start a new life without me – for his own best. I wanted him to be happy.

I´ve learned a lot about the Volturi and maybe it sounds weird but somehow I started to like them. Well, not all of them. Caius per example refused being in the same room with me if possible and Jane still used her gift on me from time to time – she really didn´t like me.

At least Aro wasn´t the bad guy I thought he is – he was full of life, he wanted to learn everything he doesn´t know yet and he really loved his family.

He was curious about the wolves and even if I was afraid at first that he would knew all the secrets of my tribe and use it against us; his mind teaches me otherwise. When Aro found out that we were only made to protect our people he simply said "That´s what we are doing too. We are protecting our kind."

He didn´t see us as enemies any longer because now he understood that our motives were the same – we wanted the people we care about to be safe. He also wanted to find out more about shape shifting and finally he hoped to build an alliance with the wolves. He didn´t want any more fights between vampires and them.

Aro convinced me to try human blood like all "normal" vampires do and to tell the truth I tried it one or two times, maybe even some more but I always felt guilty afterwards and so I decided to prefer animal blood or regular human food instead.

Only when I was too stressed out or I needed a lot of power for doing a job Aro has given to me I was cheating – sometimes.

He also was curious about how I would taste like and after a while I allowed him to bite me. I regretted it instantly. It felt strange; it felt wrong; Edward should be the only one doing this, drinking my blood.

I didn´t move an inch while I watched Aro sucking on my left wrist – I would never offer my neck to someone else than my imprint; this felt weird enough for me. The bite started to hurt and when I moaned Aro stopped immediately.

"Your wonderful Jake, even the taste of your blood is extraordinary" he said enthusiastic. I couldn´t help but smile on his excitement.

He made me a member of his personal guard and I spent my time mostly with him, Felix and Alec. It was good not to be alone too much – being busy meant less time to think, less time to miss him, les time to suffer.

We were looking for other legend similar to ours and when every time we found one Aro sent me out to proof if they were true.

Since Caius still didn´t trust me he ordered Jane with me, my master wasn´t pleased when he found out what she was doing to me when we were out there alone. I would never told him that – I´m not a traitor – she told him by herself when she touched his skin.

Good for me. So since that day Alec – who I can tell is a great friend – volunteered us and held his sister in line. He also was there for me to calm me down when I was freaked out or to cheer me up when I was down.

He was always lovingly and gentle when we spent the night together, having sex with him eased my mind, it felt good to be wanted but it was nothing compared to being with Ed. With him it was only fucking, with Ed it was love.