The Game

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The Game was a known game in my village which happened every year in the autumn. Every year twenty young people were chosen from the city and villages. There were chosen ten teenagers from city and ten teenagers from villages and rural places around the city.

The Game was made to stop the war between city and villages around the city. Poor people lived in the villages when rich people were living in the city. Often disagreements happened between these people. That's why mayor in the past made The Game.

The Game's rules were simple – if you didn't kill, you were killed.

I won The Game this year.

I killed seven people.

I was a murderer.

Citizens were afraid of me since everyone that won The Game turned out to be psychologically unbalanced.

I often had nightmares from The Game's arena. I saw how I killed my friends, people who knew everything about me and were very dear to me.

But I had to kill them since my life was in danger. I had to kill them because I wanted to see my lover's face again. I loved him too much to let him go in a foolish game. I had to dirt my hands with blood to prove him that I really loved him.

He was the city's mayor's son. He was immune to The Game since he would be the next mayor of the city. I met him five months ago. He had come with his father to visit my village and greet every person in it.

When he shook my hand, something passed between us. It was like electricity hit me. We both looked up in the same time. I looked into his ruby red eyes and opened my mouth to say anything but nothing came out my mouth. We stood there for few seconds, lost in each other's eyes.

Then, he said his name and it got written in my mind forever. Natsume Hyuuga. He was the one for me, I just knew it.

He was the one who taught me how to fight once he got to know that I was chosen to be in The Game. He father made me promise that I would win, just to be with Natsume and my family forever.

And I did as he asked.

And now Natsume Hyuuga was mine.

Forever.

As I stepped out the arena, he hugged me and told me how much he loved me. I cried since it was the first time he told me that. Those words sounded so good, coming out from his mouth.

Those words made me realize that everything will be okay. Even if I go crazy after seeing the nightmares every day, I knew that Natsume would be there to take care of me.

Maybe in the future we will have children. My mother would love to see her grandchildren.

Perhaps Natsume will change the laws of the city, so, all the citizens of the city and villages could live in peace.

There are a lot of things that I would like to be changed in my life. I don't want to hear the whispers that tell me how crazy I got in the arena and how brutally I killed their children. I don't want to see mean glares thrown at me everyday when I go out, I don't want to see how people stop talking when I walk in the room since they think that I'm brainwashed toy that the mayor had made.

Because I'm independent, I have a self control and I will not let somebody control me. I'm Mikan Sakura, the girl who won The Game. I killed my friends to reach the victory. I betrayed my friends who put trust in me. I did it all for him, my only love.

As selfish as it may sound, I wasn't sorry for what I did.

Yes, maybe sometimes in the night, when I slept beside my lover, I would cry a bit. I tried to lie to myself, telling that those were happy tears. Because, let's face the truth, happiness doesn't exist in this world. Once you're happy, somebody brings you down. That's why I'm scared to say that I'm happy. Maybe I'm lying to myself right now, maybe I'm brainwashed by the mayor of the city. Perhaps they erase my memory after every session. That's why whenever I have panic attacks at the night, Natsume is there to call the maids to take me to the white room.

I never can remember what happens in the white room. But I know that, whatever they do there, they make the pain go away.

I'm grateful to them for giving me release. Because, who knows what could have happened with me if they didn't erase the tiny little bits of The Game from my memory.

Mayor of the city, if you happen to get the papers where all my memories are written on with an ink, please, keep the hidden from me until I reach a stabile way of living.

Because I have no idea what I'm capable of doing now. I just hope that I will never hurt the people who are very close to me.

Hope never ends.

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A/N – Since few of my reviewers didn't understand the story, I made another chapter, telling you who is Mikan Sakura and what is The Game.