I do not own the characters.
Sorry it's taken me so long to update but between work (people always calling out and guess you says yes) and a child that doesn't believe I should have any me time it's been kinda hard. To be honest I've had this mostly completed since I last posted but I didn't feel like it was ready yet. So with some time I finally completed it. I will get working on completing the next chapter asap.
"Rin." Sesshomaru tentatively steps closer to her bed, suddenly unsure if this was a good idea. Despite her desire to turn away she continues to watch his approach. I can do this. Coming up beside her bed, Sesshomaru reaches for her hand, he sees her hesitation but she allows him to take it anyway. "Nothing I say can take back what happened." He moves her hand and places it over his heart. "I promise that I will never hurt you again." Is that an apology?
Rin stares at her hand over his heart. "You can't promise that." Sesshomaru gently squeezes her hand. Rin shifts her gaze towards his eyes. "I'm gonna move away." Rin can feel the tears begin to well up. "I'm going to be alone."
"You won't be alone."
"So Rin, how are you feeling today?" Doctor Hakaca asks from the chair he is sitting in beside her bed, same thing everyday for the past week between one and two o'clock. "Fine."
"Same as everyday so far it seems. Have you been going over your positive thinking exercises?"
"I'm tired of thinking positive."
"From what your acquaintances tell me you used to always be a positive thinker." Rin shrugs. "What's the point anymore?"
"I know you might not believe me but things will get better but only if you put the effort into it."
"I tried before and what did that get me?"
"A family who loves you."
"Who I might never see again."
"Well one member doesn't seem to want to let you go." Rin stays silent. "I think what you need to do is find a way to productively vent your feelings. What hobbies are you interested in?" Rin shrugs. "I'm not sure. It's always been kinda hard to pick up a hobby with moving and sharing things with other kids. No real time to become adjusted to individual things."
"You could paint. That tends to help people." Rin sighs. "I'll try."
"Ahh why is this so hard!" Rin throws the paint brush against the wall. Nothing I do turns out right. The colorful blob in front of her seems to mock her so she throws that on the ground. Tears spring from her eyes. Just make it go away. Despite the efforts to get better Rin just can't help but feel empty.
"All those years of faking it are finally catching up with me." There's a knock at the door and Rin quickly wipes her face. "Come in." Expecting to see a nurse since she's sure they could her here down the hall, Rin turns and is surprised to see Sesshomaru.
He has been making attempts to see her everyday. Rin isn't always receptive but he's determined to make things right. He looks to the painting on the ground and the splashes of paint on the walls. Then to her face. His heart breaks.
"Hi Sesshomaru." He moves closer to her and brings her into a hug. Rin contemplates pulling away but decides that the feeling of being held is nice. She moves her arms around his torso and takes a deep breath in an attempt to calm her nerves.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Sesshomaru cautiously asks, unsure if that is really the right thing to say right now.
"No. Not right now. Can you just keep holding me for awhile?" Sesshomaru tightens his grip around Rin. With a silent hope that it will help take her pain away.
A few days later Sesshomaru is heading over to visit Rin. Some days she seems better and like her old self, others not so much. Guilt eats away at him but Rin insists that it's not really his fault and that this was an inevitable turn for her to make. He comes to a stop in front of her room and knocks on the door. "Come in." Rin yells. Stepping into the room Sesshomaru sees Rin standing in a corner by a table with a vase and various flowers around her. He moves to stand beside her, staring at the arrangement she is working on.
"I tried painting but I couldn't really get into it. So I started messing around with the fake flowers they had. Turns out I have a talent. Maybe I can be a florist or something." Sesshomaru continues to analyze her work. "You can be a florist and I will run a successful business. I think we will make a fine living." Together. Rin sighs. "Sesshomaru."
"Rin." She takes a few steps back from her completed work. "Don't build up my hopes okay. It's counterproductive."
"Just stating facts." He knows she wants that future. He wants her happiness. And the guilt to go away. Rin decides to change the subject. "When do you leave for school?"
"I still have six more weeks." Rin continues to stare at her work in silence. Sesshomaru puts his arm around her waist and pulls her against his chest. We'll get through this.