We arrived back at the hotel and I couldn't stop looking at my new tattoo, Kat really had out done herself. "Ronnie, how do you plan on us spending our two weeks in L.A?" He came and sat down beside me "Well, since I'm a fucking rock star, we can pretty much do what we want, when we want." he smiled "Look, I didn't know you would get all emotional today, you normally keep everything in, I was shocked to see you open up like you did with Kat." he told me getting up to get something out of the mini fridge. "Well, I try to keep my emotions hid when it comes to my dad and my family, because once daddy died it went all down hill. Like my sisters disown me, my brother can't stand me, and I haven't spoke to my mom since I left Tennessee. But I know keeping your emotions bottled up isn't good for my own well being so, I decided to open up, maybe one day you'll be lucky for me to do it again" I chuckled, "But I do want to tell you this story though about him, did you ever meet my daddy?" I asked kicking back on the couch "I think I did a long time ago." "Well let me tell you."
I started to think of a couple stories I could tell that were funny, "When he was still alive he always tried to be funny, and not funny/funny just you had to be there funny, and he was in the hospital once and they were gonna transfer him to another hospital, we were all in the room cuz we were gonna leave right after the ambulance did. One of the EMT's came and was gonna put him on a stretcher he asked daddy 'Mr. Evan's how you feelin' and daddy being the smart one he is said 'Well, to tell you the truth... I feel with my fingers.' he had the whole west wing of the ER cracking up." "That is kind of funny but I guess you had to be there." "You did, it was great, and then he called me in the kitchen one night when my friend was over, so I went up there to see what he wanted, he told me 'Avi, you know that , where you can find anything you want about any member of your family' I was like yeah, what about it? He then tells me 'I got on there today and found out that my great-great-great-great granddaddy was born naked.' I died laughing." "Now that's a funny story, that one made me laugh." "And I do believe he's watching over me, because before I started dating you I was in a real bad wreck, I was driving around one night and I thought I saw a deer so I swerved to try and miss it, and I hit a tree. My left leg was snapped in two, that's why I walk with a limp at times, I don't know if you've noticed that or not, when cops got on the scene they said I wasn't breathing, they thought I was dead."
"I know this sounds crazy, but you know how people say that they have voices in their head?" he nodded, I got comfortable putting my legs across his lap. "Well, that night, if I forget everything else that happened I won't forget hearing him encouraging me to pull through it." "Wow, that's heavy stuff right there." he smiled at me "I know right, your lucky that I'm showing you this side of me because like I said, it doesn't happen that often, wait, have you spoke to Jeffree today?" "I did earlier, he was just waking up, but that's all he said" "Oh alright, I just realized he wasn't with us when we went to High Voltage." I laughed to myself, he had his hands on my legs, "You cold baby?" he asked "I'm fine, it's probably just right in here actually, not too hot, not too cold." he picked me up and moved where I was laying "Good then you won't mind keeping me warm." He smiled, playing with my fingers. "Ronnie, where would you be, if me and you wasn't together right now?" "Where would I be with my band, or where would I be in general?" "In general." I asked "I'd probably still be picking up the pieces
seen a single Royalty check from them when they owe me a lot." "Can't you sue them?" "I don't want to start up unnecessary drama." "What would be unnecessary about it? They owe you money, are you scared of that punk Craig?" "Fuck no." was all he said turning the T.V on that was my signal that he wanted to shut up about the topic.
I knew not to push his buttons since the time, I went a little too far aggravating him when he was already in a bad mood
[Flashback]
Ronnie was finishing up a set and he wasn't happy, I don't know why, but I could always tell when he was on stage mad, I caught him as he was going back to the tour bus
"Good show baby."
"Not right now Avi, I'm pissed they were a couple measures behind the entire last half of the set, let me sit this out."
I followed him to the bus, and I tried to lay on him to be all flirty, he needed sex he just didn't know it
"I thought I told you, Avian. Leave. Me. Alone" I could hear the anger in his voice but I didn't care, I was drunk, I tried to kiss his neck, that's when it happened, he shoved me back trying to just get me to leave him alone, I fell back not being able to catch myself, and I hit my head on the floor. So hard it knocked me unconscious.
I felt a slight breeze on my face Ronnie was trying to get me to come back too.
[Flashback]
I know he really wasn't too violent towards me, but he did have trouble with his anger management, he had a quick fuse to start an argument, which I find hilarious because I'm the exactly the same way. He didn't hit me, he just shoved me and the fact I had a concussion from the fall he is extra careful around me now
[sorry this chapter is kind of suckish but I'm kind of sleep deprived right now and I can't think of anything good to write. I promise throughout the day tomorrow I'll write down ideas as they come to my head and make something juicy out of them:)]