AN: I'm going to apologize in advance for the dialogue heavy and choppiness of this chapter. It's the only way I could get my thoughts across without dragging it out forever.

Everything was a complete mess! Misa didn't know what to do any more. Between Light's paranoia and her growing attraction to Matt her life was falling around her in shambles. To top it all off her wedding was scheduled three weeks from now. She was at her breaking point and didn't know how much longer she could hold on.

It started out well enough and then BAM it all went to shit. Things between her and Light were better than ever, she had finally gotten what she always wanted and it felt right. Then the feelings for Matt came knocking again. The more time she spent with him the more she remembered why she fell in love with him. So she stopped but that only made her think about him more. She tried limiting the time spent with him as well but that didn't help much either, he was still constantly on her mind.

Light could tell something was up and so began the paranoia. He was constantly checking in on her to the point where it was smothering. He even had her tailed anytime she spent time with Matt. It was annoying but she dealt with it, he had reasons for the suspicion. If only she never confessed about cheating on him that one time maybe he wouldn't be so suspicious.

"And then we can…hey Misa are you even listening?" Light asks breaking her away from her thoughts.

Startled she jumps slightly, "Oh I'm sorry Light what were you saying?"

"Just forget about it."

"I'm sorry Light, I've been really distracted lately."

"I've noticed." He mumbled.

"Aw come on don't be like that. You know I have a lot on my mind I mean I'm planning the wedding I've been dreaming about for years. I just want to make sure everything is perfect."

"If only that was what you were thinking of." He grumbles.

"It was!"

"I don't believe you."

"You never do. Seriously Light how long is it going to take for you to trust me! So I fucked up in the past, you did too. Let's not forget how many times you cheated on me!" she argues.

"That was different. I never felt anything for those girls I used them to keep L off your trail. You however loved Matt. Those types of feelings don't just disappear."

"I know they don't! Of course I still care about him but he's just my friend. I love you Light, you, not Matt, you. Otherwise I wouldn't be planning on spending the rest of my life with you, you jerk!" She cries.

"I wish I could believe you but I see the way you look at him. Never in all the time we've been together have you looked at me like that. So forgive me if I'm a little suspicious."

"Please let's just drop this. We have this same argument almost every day. I'm tired of it." She begs wrapping her arms him.

"So am I." he replies holder her closer against him.

"I don't know what to do Yuki." Misa whined to the other model. She was the only girl friend Misa had besides Sayu and it's not like she could complain to Sayu about Light.

"You know I'm biased on this situation. I like Matt; he's funny and cute and makes you smile a lot. That other guy is an asshole that made you cry a lot. I honestly don't see how this is a problem at all. Just go with Matt."

"I wish it was that easy." Misa sighs realizing this was going nowhere.

"Well if it's really that hard of a decision why don't you just choose the one that's best in bed?" Yuki suggests with a wink.

"That wouldn't be fair."

"Why not? Sex is the most important thing in any relationship." She says with a giggle.

"It's not that important."

"You obviously never had amazing sex. Maybe you should ditch both of them."

"I have had amazing sex, thank you very much. I just don't think it's that important." Misa pouts.

"De-ni-al!" Yuki sung. "Anyway you really need to figure this out soon love. Your wedding is like what, ten days away?"

"18 days actually. "

"You're fucked." Yuki sings heading towards the door.

"You're just going to leave me like that?"

"Sorry hun I have a shoot to get to, I do believe you have one too." Yuki calls as she closes the door behind her.

"So you two broke up again?"

"Yup."

"That's the third time this month!"

"I know."

"I think you two should consider couples therapy."

"I think we need therapy in general."

"This is true."

Misa and Mello shared a laugh. It was one of the rare days Misa got to hang out with him alone. She had gone over looking for Matt who had got called into work to find Mello chilling on the couth without a care in the world. So of course she stayed to hang out with the guy.

"What about you Ms. About to Say I Do?" he asks.

"Everything's fine." She replies picking at her nails.

"Just fine?"

Misa nods her head in agreement not looking at Mello.

"That doesn't sound too good. What's up?"

"He doesn't trust me. He keeps thinking that I'm going to cheat on him again with Matt." She explains feeling uncomfortable.

"Ah I see. Well to be totally honest he has reason. I mean you and Matt obviously share something. An idiot can see that. And I know damn well you still want to be with him."

"No I don't." she tries to lie.

Mello looks at her with a raised eyebrow and smirks. "Trying to convince me or yourself?"

"I'm serious! I only want to be with Light!"

"You're a terrible liar .Just admit it already, you still want to be with Matt and trust me once you can admit to that your life will become much easier."

"I don't." she whispers.

"Keep telling yourself that."

An awkward silence fell over the two with that. It stayed that way for quite some time until Misa broke it.

"What if I did?" she asked suddenly.

"Did what?" Mello asked.

"What if I did still want to be with Matt? What would that mean for Light and me?"

Mello shrugged. "Nothing really unless you felt more for Matt than him. Either way though I suggest you do some serious soul searching and talk to both of them."

"I suppose you're right." She paused, "But what about you? How would you feel?"

"I'd be happy for you guys just as I was before. "

"Who knew you could be so selfless and wise." She joked resting her head against his shoulder.

"I'm simple amazing like that." He replied wrapping his arm around her shoulders.

"Light, we need to talk."

Light froze, "Uh oh those are the words no one wants to hear."

"I know but it's serious."

He frowned, "You're not leaving me are you?"

"No but you might leave me."

Light gripped the edge of the chair he was sitting on, waiting for her to say the words he's been dreading.

"Before you ask, no I did not sleep with or kiss Matt. However I can't deny that I've had thoughts about it. I've been trying to deny the feelings I have for him but it has only made it worse. After talking to a few people I realized I need to accept the truth in order to move on from it, which is why I'm telling you now. "

"I don't understand what you're trying to say." Light says trying his hardest to control the urge to punch a wall.

"I'm not exactly sure either. I just felt as if you deserved to know. I guess I thought it would help to be honest but judging by the look on your face I just made it worse."

"No I'm glad you finally admitted it, I really am, but it still hurts to hear." He replies counting to ten in his head to calm down.

"I'm sorry. I wish I could just erase the feelings."

"Don't feel sorry Misa, this is my fault. I was terrible to you before, hell I practically drove you to him. That's what upsets me the most, knowing this all could have been avoided if I wasn't such a prick!" He admits punching the computer.

Misa jumped back in fright wishing she never brought up the subject at all. Light noticed and relaxed a bit. He didn't want to scare her.

"Sorry Misa." He mumbles.

She just nods walking over to him before throwing her arms around him. "It's ok." She whispers kissing his ear.

He smirked leaning back in to her embrace. "I love you."

"I love you too." She replies leaning over to kiss him passionately.

She left soon after thinking everything was ok, it wasn't. On the inside Light was seething in anger. Things were not going the way he planned. She wasn't supposed to feel anything for Matt anymore. She was supposed to love him alone.

Light knew getting Matt that day was a risk but at the time he was willing to take it but now he wished he just left it alone. Misa would have come around eventually without the help of Matt. Then he wouldn't have to worry about her leaving him for a low-life game tech. It was insulting she cared about him at all when she had Light all to herself.

Before the wedding he will get her to forget about that redheaded brat. He wishes he could just kill the kid and get it over with but he knew that would only serve to make Misa hate him. That or that he never fell for Misa in the first place. Then he could marry her then kill the fucker without caring if Misa got hurt because of it, at least she would still be his.

Misa sat on the couch opposite of Matt anxiously waiting for his reply. She had just confessed everything to him. However he wasn't saying a word, just staring at her mouth agape. She was beginning to worry she messed everything up like she normally did.

Matt didn't know what to think. So he didn't, he acted. Before he could talk himself out of it he leaned over and kissed Misa. Her first instinct was to push him away but it felt so good to have his lips on hers again that she found herself kissing him back. Caught up in the moment Matt pushed her gently back against the couch so that he was on top of her.

Completely forgetting about everything but the taste of Matt, Misa slipped her hands under his shirt pulling it off. With that out of the way she began kissing every bit of him she could. It wasn't until she was in the middle of leaving a rather big hickey near his collarbone that she remembered Light. Feeling horrible she pulled away. "This is so wrong."

"Then why does it feel so right?" Matts asks her huskily leaning his head against hers.

"I'm engaged Matt." she whispers wanting nothing more than to latch herself to him again.

"Believe me, I know."

"So why is it that I want you so bad?" she asked more to herself than him.

He smiled down at her placing a small kiss on her nose. "You really need to figure out what you really want before you say I do."

"I know."

"If it makes you feel any better I'll always be here for you, no matter which of us you choose. I know what life is like without you and I never want to live like that again." He tells her running his thumb lightly against her cheek.

"Thanks Matt. That means a lot." She kissed him softly on the cheek.

"Hey Yuki."

"Yeah Misa?"

"I think I've finally decided."

The End