disclaimer: i still don't own Gilmore girls, so do not worry!
i just wanted to really thank everybody who actually took precious time out of their day, to read this and review, you guys are awesome, i am pretty sure that i read all of you fanfics so i feel honored and pleasantly surprised by your support.
I don't really know where this is taking me, and frankly i am very skeptic about this chapter, i am not quite sure that i lived up to the expectation, so if not i am truly sorry... I do have a few idea that are dancing in mind for quite sometime so, we'll see...
so here goes...
Still Emily's POV
As the seconds pass, I wait patiently for my answer. As I look at my husband, I give him "a stay out of this, I know what I am doing" look., I hear a faint "what" from Lorelai. As I look over to her, I see the shock and surprise in her face as I am repeating myself...
- I am simply asking a question here Lorelai, I don't see where is the difficulty into understanding the question that I asked, and answering it, like any other normal person? - I am talking to her like she was five years old, and frankly her reaction amuses me to no end: she's looking at me like that time when she was five years old, and I caught her jumping from the last two steps of the staircase.
- wh...why do you want to know, mother? - she's stuttering... bullseye
- Can I not ask a question of my choosing into my own house, Lorelai... I am simply asking because I met that woman the other day at the mall, and we began talking, and she told me what happened with the diner, that's all – I tell her, and I almost see relief, as to what my motivation for my question is, but I do know better than that.
- What...what woman? - again with the stuttering
- that miss Patricia, she told me everything, what a shame, such A LONG TIME ESTABLISHED BUSINESS, over 20 years you know, and than this happens.- as I say this, I turn over to Christopher, who now is avoiding looking back, but i can still see the shame, in him and in what happened over the last 20 years of his life, but frankly I couldn't care less now so I continue pushing the question with Lorelai - It' not normal that a car actually enters a diner and crash into a wall. I merely wanted to know how Luke was doing, that's all. Is that a crime, Lorelai?-
- no, mom it's not a crime. He's fine, it was only a wall, nothing for you to worry about...- she says it in such a definitive tone that I know that maybe I went a little bit too far. But as I am thinking this I see Rory gripping hard the fork in her hand and than she puts it on the table, making a laud noise.
- like you would know, would you? - she asks her mother in such a hateful tone that Richard is staring at her like she just grow a second head, and I remained shocked trough the all thing.
- Rory, do not use that tone with your mother, apologize immediately! – Richard scolds her, as I am definitely frozen to my spot. The resemblance between mother and daughter bring me back not so happy memories.
- why should I, this is all her own fault... - now I know that something really bad happened with that man, and it is not only Christopher fault.
- Rory...- Lorelai is trying to calm Rory down, but I know just looking at her that she's not gonna stop until she's finished. Lorelai used to get like this with me.
- no, mother, we are sitting here like this is the normality, but it is not, and frankly I am really disgusted by all this!
- Rory – Lorelai try to interrupt her daughter
- Rory, stop it Now!- Christopher Is now scolding her too, but she's not having any of it.
- How dare you tell me to stop, who are you to tell me what to do, what rights do you have huh?
- I am you father
- ah, biologically of course, the shortest three minutes of my mothers life, I am sure – she throw in sarcastically, as Richard gasps, and now I am speechless. I do not have time to wander as Rory returns her attention to her mother now.
- mom, you did it on purpose, did you? you knew it, asking Luke to choose between you and HIS DAUGHTER, his daughter, mother, you should have know better, of course he choose April like any other father SHOULD do!-
I am looking at my pained granddaughter yelling the last part at Christopher, and than turning again to face her mother
- You knew it and you couldn't bear to be second priority to him, could you? he always held you as first , so why would he choose his own daughter over you? A DAUGHTER mother, that he knew nothing about, because of that woman and you know him, he would want to put April first. You wanted an out, didn't you? Things get difficult and and you run! with you it's always the same story isn't it? you wanted to escape alright, and you did it, and now it's over! do you really think that now your gonna live happily ever after, with dad just because HE is here now?- pointing her finger to Christopher -. What is going to happen when he screw up again, who you are going to turn to, mother? Because you have to be sure as hell, that you will not be turning to me. Nor I believe will Luke be ready to listen to anything of what you have to say. You slept with HIM, you cheated on Luke, while his engagement ring was still on your finger, how low and disgusting is that? -
As she is ranting and yelling I feel the color drain off my face, Lorelai, is not perfect, but sure as hell not a cheater, or so I thought.
- at the end of the day you are no better than Nicole, or even Rachel, and you are certainly not the mother that I love and respect –
I have no idea who this women are but I am truly shocked, as I look at Rory turning to Christopher. Richard look at me and I know that he want to intervene, but I shake my head, because obviously Rory had this in her for quite sometime, and I want for her to finish .
- as for you, I don't even know where to begin, you knew that Luke, is a very important person in my life, my father figure, when you were not there, which I have to tell you was almost my all life...
- I am your father...
- and you are not even capable to buy a stupid book for me, not capable to be there for me when I need it, not once, because you only do things for me, to impress mom. Do you see this necklace, this is Luke's gift for my birthday and it was his mother's, and I am not even is daughter...
- I pay for Yale...
- because your father left you money, you didn't have to work for it, you never were committed, you never did ANYTHING for me, for my sake did you? No, you always failed. All the ventures that you were in, were all a failure, DAD, a waste of time, but you know whom was always there for me, independently from mom, no matter what ah? LUKE and now you've ruined EVERYTHING, just like you always do...
As I look at my granddaughter, I see a girl who is defeated by the events, things that she could have no control over. I rethink to the events that lead up to this moment, and with Rory's pained face on my mind, I realize the errors of my ways, if nothing else, for Rory's sake.
As she is standing, behind her chair, she apologize profusely to me and Richard, and then she shock the hell out of me..
- I am sorry for this outburst grandma and grandpa, I am tired can I go up to my room, and sleep here tonight?
As she asked us this I am speechless, and find myself incapable of answering her.
Luckily Richard nods to her with a little smile, she nods back and exit the dining room silently.
As I look at Lorelai, I see shame on her face, pain in her eyes, and regret, of what was. She excuses herself without waiting for an answer, probably going into the powder room. As I look at Richard, whose face is now red with anger, all of a sudden I am thrown back to the day that Lorelai told us of the pregnancy, when Richard bared the same expression towards Christopher.
- Christopher, I really would like for you to live now, I assure you, that I am quite capable to take care of my daughter and granddaughter, if necessary I'll drive Lorelai home– as Richard is talking, I hear that GILMORE TONE, the one that his mother used to have with me, condescending, and disapproving, and full of coldness.
- Richard I... – he's attempting an excuse but now that I find myself calm I intervene.
- Christopher I believe, that although this is not all of your fault, I do think, that Rory needs time with her own mother now, if nothing else to clear this up, and as for Yale, if Rory wants I am sure, that Richard and I are quite capable of taking care of the tuition from now on. If you'll excuse us, it is quite late.
Christopher gets up and goes into the foyer, and than to the door, and as I hear it closing, I see Richard standing and going into the living room fixing himself a drink. I stand up and make my way towards the powder room to make sure that Lorelai is alright. As I am ready to knock on the door, the most heartbreaking, desperate crying sounds ring into my ears, and to my shock I feel my own eyes begin to water.