A/N I know it's been a while since I've updated. I'm sorry!! But I've been really busy lately. Anyway, here's chapter four!!

Priestess and Warrior

Chapter 4- Desperation

It's been a week since the soldiers left. The last battalion left yesterday. I've sat on my balcony ever since the day Suboshi left, watching the castle gates, hoping that by some wonderful way, the war was never really happening. But I know that this is not true and I'm only imagining it. I've seen and heard the explosions already. A village not too far from this city was just attacked two days ago. I remember seeing all the bodies that were wheeled here in carts. That sight was nauseating.

I haven't really done much but mope around the palace for the last week, almost always crying. I had no idea that Suboshi being gone would affect me like this. I always have this terrible feeling that he won't come back.

There's a knock on my door followed by Nakago's voice. "Your eminence? A word please," he says. Nakago? How is he even here?

I open the door and I see he is dressed in nothing but his garment that he wears under his armor. I can't help but blush, I've never seen him in anything but his armor before. "Y-yes?" I stammer.

"May I come in?" he asks. Not even waiting for a reply, he strides past me and sits down on my bed. What is he doing?

"Nakago, why are you even here at the palace?" I ask. "Shouldn't you be off fighting with the troops?"

He smirks, "I felt the same way but the emperor has kept me here as his personal body guard. Not that I'm complaining…"

"What are you talking about?" I ask but he grabs my wrist and pulls me down on the bed. Somehow he switches our positions and I'm underneath him. He moves his hands up and down my sides and then the pain comes again.

I'm right back to the day where those men raped me. "N-no!" I cry out but he stifles my scream with a bittersweet kiss. His hands move to the buttons of my blouse. Stop! I don't want this!! "Get away from me!!" I scream. I try to get him off of me but my efforts are futile. He's too strong.

He kisses me again and then trails kisses down my jaw and neck. Where his lips touch me, my skin burns with disgust and fear. Why is he doing this? "Nakago, get off of me!!!" But he does not listen.

He has managed to unbutton my vest and it is now discarded on the floor somewhere. At one last attempt to free myself, I kick him as hard as I can in between his legs and it works. He cringes in pain and that gives me enough time to wriggle myself free from his grasp.

Not even looking for my vest, I bolt out of the room and don't look back.

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I hide in the kitchens, trying to act like nothing has happened. What the hell was that all about? I find myself crying from my terrible memories. Now I have a new one to add to my collection.

I sit down against a cabinet and begin to sob. I can't stay here anymore. I need Suboshi…I-I…love him. How could I not have seen this before? I have to get out of here. I need to find him.

I leave the kitchen and quietly sneak back to my room. Thank Seiryu that Nakago is no longer here. My vest is right by the window. I put it back on again and grab and small bag. I throw a few clothes in it and a blanket and then quickly sneak out again.

Come to think of it, we are in a war so I'll need a weapon to protect me. All of the storerooms are empty except for a dagger and a bow and some arrows. I have no skill with either of these weapons but I'll have to learn some time.

It's raining now…a very cold, icy rain. I grab a cloak from one of the prison guards and set off from the palace. Hopefully no one saw me. I'm actually surprised that I can still function like I am. But I'm thankful.

There's a tree just in front of the castle walls. I climb up it and go over the wall. Once I'm certain that I'm free, I slip off into the night.

A/N Well, yeah I know really short. But oh well. You know what to do.