Disclaimer: I still don't own Gilmore Girls... (if only...)
A/N: so I am sorry for the delay in writing, but life got in the way...
Just wanted to do my usual thanks to who reads and review, taking time out of their day.
I have to point out something: due to my lack of knowledge to every episode of the second half of the sixth season, and the complete ignorance (IT DIDN'T EXIST FOR ME!) of the seventh SEASON I took some liberties... I hope you will enjoy...
so here goes...
Lorelai POV
When I received the phone call from my mom, I thought something very wrong had happened, like an accident, or something. So I run out of the inn, got into the car, and arrived at my parent's house in record time. Ringing the doorbell, and opening the door was a very agitated dad, who ushered me into the living room, where I saw my mom stare into space. Nothing would have prepared me, for what I was about to discover. - Nothing would have prepared me, for the rage that I felt afterward.
- Lorelai we have some information regarding, the motivation of Vivi into Hartford... - dad says while he looks at his drink...
- I know she's staying at the inn, right now! - I answer and that seems to fire mom into reality again...
- what? She staying there? The nerve of the woman! how could she do this... - she say standing up and now pacing. The confusion in me must be evident from my face because my dad, gets up, to sit next to me ( next to me! He never did that!), while mom continue muttering something under her breath, dad continue... - Lorelai what do you know of Luke's family? - why the heck is she asking about this...
- his mother died when he was a young boy, and his dad died, barely after Luke's birthday... why?
- Lorelai, his mother was Vivienne Anderson' s sister! - my mom almost yelled
- What? - I think I can't breath
- Vivienne is Luke's direct aunt! - my mom said. I don't really feel well as I feel me leaning backwards, onto the sofa.
- He lied to me, he did - ...and now who is Luke Danes. As mom prepares herself another drink, I know that she trusted hers, into my hand, to drink, because I was completely incoherent. After a sip, I seemed to regain myself somewhat, and it's than, that dad give me the offending piece of paper. The numbers were incredible. I was sure that a little nation had that same budget, but the name, in the upper section, gave me the chills, as I, for the first time read the complete name of whom I thought I knew: Lucas William Berger Danes.
I know that I sat there, in my parents living room for a long time. I barely remember having something for dinner. Than I hopped into my car to go back home, but the sudden anger and rage, made me go all the way to Luke's diner.
I didn't even think what was I gonna say to him. I just knew that I wanted to yell at him, NOW!
As I saw him load the truck, that OLD truck, and I make my way to him. I suppose that at some point he sensed my presence there, because he turned around, surprised at me being there. He calls out on me me, but the only thing that I do is ask him...
- Do you mind explaining to me what is the meaning of this? - he looks at me like I am crazy than he leans forward to take a look at the paper...
- how did you get this?
- How did I get this? Is that the only thing that you want to know?
- No, I also want to know who gave this to you, it's private, against the law, it's a felony!
- A felony? you lied to ME! that's the felony Luke...
- I LIED TO YOU? When did I lied to you, ah?
- April, doesn't ring any bell for you?
- Again, really, you're going to bring her up?
- No, I am not going to bring HER up, but, I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU LYING TO ME ABOUT HER VERY EXISTENCE! - Oh God, how it hurts to talk about it now!
- again with this, I told you that I was sorry, that it did shocked me too you know, and you were just back on terms with Rory that I didn't want to spoil things for you...
- I know this but...
- you forgave me, you told me straight to my face that we were OK!
- I know this, but this paper, you lied to me again... you are...
- what? I am what? Rich? Wealthy, is that what I lied to you about?
- YES...- I am yelling...
- you are right I did! - and now he looks at me defeated..he is trying to calm himself, but he's not done yet. I see the veins swelling, and I know that a rent is coming, but his eyes all of a sudden turns darker if possible, I know that now he is angry...- I lied, because I didn't tell you that I had money... are you happy, I admit it I am a bad person, now are you done?
- Done? Do you really think that this is not bad, that is not worthy me being angry with you?
- Why, why are you angry with me? I lied, OK? So what? What does it matter to you now? Ah? You are with golden boy Chris, so why now? What does it matter to you now, what my full name is, who my family was or is? It's still me Lorelai. I have always hated it, all the things surrounding it, the hypocrisy is what I hate the most, and you know what? I am tired of it...so tired, Lorelai, because, you hate those things too, but the hypocrisy is always there, you are the hypocrite Lorelai here, not me!
- I am the hypocrite?
- Yes, standing here, like the queen of England, when you... you don't understand, do you, you lied to me for three months, you deemed me like nothing, not only our relationship but also our friendship, all gone in one night... Lorelai... and not THAT night... tell me did you had fun on Lane's wedding Lorelai?I suppose that's where everything got so bad...
- what? - how does he know about that?
- You even went around town, and pleaded with people not to tell anything to me... you lied to my face every time I asked you if it was okay Lorelai, and I asked you over and over again Lorelai. Bringing HIM, opening the door for HIM? Lorelai do you really think that the only factor present here it's the cheating? I have been cheated on before. I know how to survive it, for me it's a piece of cake, Lorelai! but when I had put trust in you, and you...That's betraying Lorelai! my trust in you, our friendship! Did I made mistakes? of course I did, I am not perfect, I didn't know what to do Lorelai, I had a daughter suddenly, there is no book that teaches you how to deal with this, or how tell you fiance that a daughter, that you never knew about, come into your life... after thirteen years. And I lost every little moments that a father should have had with a child, you know this better than I do, you had those moments with Rory, you know how it is, the first time you saw Rory's eyes, the first step, I lost all that, and I owed to April to be there for her no matter what, to make her my priority and I needed you to be understanding, just like I did with all the Rory debacle... I asked you to wait for me! Only three days Lorelai, three! that day I was out of town to talk with the lawyer... that night I was coming home to you to tell you, but God you couldn't wait...could you... I was just shocked that you knew me so little that you had….
- you didn't include me, YOU shut me out, like I was nothing an... - I know that the tears are near...
- so DID YOU! Rember, I tried to help you with Rory, but you told me to stay out of it, and I stayed out of it because I respected you as the parent! Me being a Berger, me having a trust found, or a house... does not change who I am Lorelai, it doesn't make any difference... and maybe the only one that it does make is that maybe we would have had your parents approval from the beginning... Hypocrisy like I said. Your family is impregnated with it...I love the diner, I like who I am, I will certainly continue on serving food and coffee...and despite, my growing desire of hating you, and believe me I tried, I really can't, Lorelai, I really can't. Unfortunately for me love can't be turned on and off, like a switch. I love you and nothing could ever change that, but after all this, there is only so much left to say, aside the fact, that I really am sorry, I hurt you, I lied to you and you had every reason to be mad, but now you any right to stand here, you moved on... remember? at this point I really don't know what is that it's left to say... - he looks at me, defeated, and than, without another word he makes his way to the truck, I know, that he is truly tired from our conversation.
- ah Lu.. – I tried to call him, to stop him, but now, he is driving away. The irony of it, it's not lost on me.
So this is this heartache. Is this the true burning heartache? I never felt this way before. What he said... oh God...his eyes, the hurt in them, betrayal... what the hell did I do? I am speechless. This was not how I envisioned the conversation to go... and he's so mad. I thought he was going to have an heart attack. As tears are now running across my face, I go back to the car, and look at what is left of the diner, and suddenly, it hit me: we are the diner, me and Luke, wrecked walls, waiting to be fixed... I WANT to be fixed!
As I approach home, I feel exhausted. I only want to sleep, nothing else matter. I sit on my new couch, when the phone began to ring. A part of me hope is Luke... but I now better...
- hello – I answer tiredly...
- mom, I tried to call you on the cell, you didn't answer! - Rory my only light beam...
- I think I left it at my parent' s house...
- what were you doing there? - she sounds surprised
- Now that's very long to explain... but to make it short and shocking, Vivienne Anderson is Luke's aunt, you were right... Jess is her nephew ..
- oh my god
- I know, dad draws the information, and than called me to tell me...
- wow
- and you don't even know where Mrs. Anderson is staying at...
- don't tell me..
- Yes in my Inn - when i say this I some noise from the other side of my conversation...
- Rory? Are you okay?
- Ah? yes I just, I mean... aha hah
- Are you laughing? This is serious!
- No really mom I am sorry but aha hah, now, I am you daughter, so the last of the Gilmore prominent family, plus the Hayden's, if I want it or not, and my father figure is a Berger... oh my God... - I don't feel the irony right now...
- I know... I am in shock. Emily went completely ballistic about it...- almost catatonic...
- I imagine. So we know now why Mrs. Anderson is there! For Luke, mom, so grandma has nothing to worry!
- Yes, I guess, it's just that...
- mom, Luke loves you, he has been madly in love with you for years, that doesn't get canceled in two mere weeks...
- I know, it's just, he knows about Lane's wedding, the speech, I can't believe how stupid I was...
- he knows?
- Yep, my guess is Kirk. Yours?
- Also mine. I take you did talk to him?
- More like I tried to yell at him, instead I was yelled at. He told me that he wanted to hateme, but despite that, he couldn't, and the he still loves me...
- that's good, what did you tell him?
- …
- mom what did you tell him? Mom are you there?
- Yes I am here... nothing and...oh God! - I can't believe I forgot to tell him. I was so focused on the piece of paper in my hand, that I didn't think of telling him...
- What? - she ask somewhat alarmed..
- He thinks I am still with your father! - I am a idiot
- MOM! -
- I know I was just shocked, I mean... why aren't you upset about the lies that he told me, regarding his family...
- mom, he didn't lie, he just didn't talk about it, you know how he is, he probably would have told you before the wedding, I am sure, plus it doesn't change anything!
- He told me also that he was seeing a lawyer for April custody that day, you know, the...
- ultimatum?
- Yes...it' over..
- mom no, it's not over, he is just angry, and hurt, about the whole thing and rightly so, and you are upset right now. Don't make any decision, mom, go to sleep, and tomorrow morning you'll feel fine, I am sure, and better rested you can think of what are you going to do, OK...
- OK, thanks Rory...hey when did you became so level headed?
- I took after my grandpa, you instead, all grandma!
- And on this, oh so not happy note, I am hanging up, I'll talk to you tomorrow. Bye!
- Bye! - I hear her answer, and than the dial tone. She's right, I gotta go to sleep.
Maybe rest will do me and even Luke good. Why the hell didn't I told him, about Christopher being out of my life?
When I put head to pillow, I feel exhaustion take over me, and my last thought before sleeping, is of Luke.
NARRATOR POV
NEW HEAVEN
LOGAN'S APT
As Rory hung up, the phone she draws a deep breath. Hoping to resolve things between her mom and Luke would be difficult. If Lorelai talked to him, than he was in town. Rory decided that a called was due. She missed him after all. All those thoughts were interrupted by Logan's entrance, in the bedroom.
- hey Ace...
- Logan hey, you're home early!
- Not really. Tonight was a pretty slow. Is something wrong?
- No not really... hey do you know Vivienne Anderson?
- The one that owns the B group? . He yells from the bathroom
- Yes – Rory answered
- why?
- Apparently, she's in town...- she said casually
- really?
- yes, and guess who is her nephew?
- Who?
- Luke, mom's fiance...
- you are kidding... - he says as he returned to bad
- no
- oh my god
- I know
- you want to know something crazy about the one and only Vivi Berger...
- yep
- she was set to marry my dad, he proposed to her, but she refused him, officially, during one of grandpa' s parties...
- what?
A/N: I am at a loss about Rory, so I desperately need your feedback to me your preference about Rory and: Logan, Jess, New guy?
Was I too harsh to Lorelai? LIKE IT? HATED IT? Please review...