Hello everyone!

I deeply apologize for this delay. The chapter was ready at the beginning of the month but since one of my beta is still moving and settling and with no internet I had to wait more than I expected. For the rest, I thank every reader who left a review here, I seriously, deeply appreciated it!

Now there is a WARNING before you start reading.
This chapter contains spoilers about the end of the latest Kyou Kara Maou Novel plus some memories of scenes that happened ONLY in the novels. So please be aware while you read it, that everything Yuuri will talk about in this chapter happened really in the novels, I'm not inventing anything.
So I repeat, all Yuuri's memories are true, nothing is invented for the fanfic as for the ending of the novel, I'll point it to you.

From next chapter we'll switch to Wolfram's POV, probably not for much but I thought you wanted to know it. This chapter is still all in Yuuri's POV.

I tried to keep him IC as much as possible, my beta said I succeded in doing it...I hopw you'll like it too.

Usual disclaimers apply.

Here we go!

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It was a gloomy day. The sky was grey, and the scent of rain was all around.

Yuuri was doing nothing; over the past two days, he just sat there, looking at the forest, hoping to see that familiar blond head coming out from the darkness of the trees. Not even Marie, who both Yuuri and Wolfram liked so much, had been able to cheer him up.

Yuuri's heart was heavy. He couldn't tear his eyes from the same place where, only few days ago, he saw Wolfram leaving in a desperate search to look for Yuuri, not knowing that he had always been there, at his side.

It was all his fault, and Yuuri knew it. He wanted to fix things; he wanted to talk to Wolfram and beg him for forgiveness.

It started to rain and Yuuri stood up, resolved to go to the others and help, hoping to forget for at least one hour or two that his conscience was screaming at him. As he started to move, he heard the noise of a horse and suddenly turned.

There, in the exact same place he last saw it, stood Wolfram's horse, and its owner.

Not caring at all about the rain, Yuuri ran as if he had ten feet, approaching the horse with a smile in his eyes. He got there just in time to see Wolfram, who was covered in dirt, smile at him weakly before falling from the horse.

Yuuri acted fast enough to keep the blond from falling to the ground, but when he found Wolfram on him, he realized that his clothes were wet.

And it was not rain.

Yuuri panicked. Wolfram was breathing hard, and blood seemed to be coming out of his shoulder and part of his chest.

"Wolf…what?" asked Yuuri, trying to support him and at the same time trying not to hurt him.

"A wild beast...I couldn't see it..." Wolfram panted, finding it hard to get the words out. "It came out and attacked me..."

Wolfram's face was pale and he looked so weak, the only thing Yuuri could do was panic. "Someone, please! Help me! Please!" He felt his eyes burn from tears that were threatening to fall.

"Don't…worry...it'll be...ok.." Those were the last words Wolfram said before falling unconscious.

Yuuri couldn't believe it. His mind froze and he found himself again in that damned place, the same feeling, the same blood on his clothes. That time too, Wolfram had reassured him before collapsing, saying that it was not his fault. Desperation came into his heart, bringing back the worst memory of all: that fateful day when he stabbed Wolfram(°), and even though he was blind at that time and couldn't see the damage he made, the chilling feeling in his heart came back in full force.

In the end, in one way or another, it was always Wolfram the one who got hurt. The first time it was to protect him; the second time it was by him, and this time it was because Wolfram was looking for him.

Then, Yuuri screamed. He screamed as much as he could, hoping to wake up in his bed at the castle with Wolfram snoring beside him and realize that it was all a dream. He screamed for someone to heal Wolfram, because his maryoku wasn't working again, and he wasn't sure that he could stay sane this time. He screamed for someone to some and save them, both of them.

People came running from the village. Damien came, too, his face was a mask of shock at seeing all that blood. Before Yuuri could protest, two men took Wolfram from Yuuri's arms. Slowly, in order not to hurt him, the men moved Wolfram into his house. The doctor came quickly and examined the wound for a long time, trying to stop the blood and bandaging it as much as he could.

Yuuri was sitting there, looking at nothing, his body not able to stop trembling. He only looked up when the doctor coughed a little. The man's face was dark.

"The wound is quite deep, and at least half a day old." He paused and then continued, "sadly it's infected. I gave him some medical herbs and I'll bring you something he'll have to drink, to try to fight the infection in his body."

Damien's voice mirrored his face; he was incredibly worried. "Mr. Kreuk, is he going to..." he couldn't finish the sentence, because Yuuri interrupted him.

"Don't ever say that! Don't even think about it! Wolfram is strong and faced a lot of other things before; he is going to survive and…and…" With that said, Yuuri punched the table. He didn't want to cry, not in front of Damien and the doctor; he wanted to be strong...

"He has a fever, as a result of the infection," Mr. Kreuk said. "I can say that, if the fever goes down, it means that the infection is gone and I'm almost sure he will be able to heal," he finished, putting a hand on Yuuri's shoulder.

"Just make sure to give him the herbal drink, it'll help the process." He attempted to smile and then left, followed by Damien who offered to go and get the herbs personally.

When the door closed, Yuuri went to sit on the side of the bed and took Wolfram's hand in his own. Seeing the blond so vulnerable made him feel lost, he had never thought of the possibility of losing Wolfram It was so obvious to him now: Wolfram had always been at his side, comforting him, supporting him, scolding him, encouraging him. Only now was Yuuri able to see how much Wolfram had protected him, all this time, even if he didn't show it openly.

It was weird, in a way. Yuuri wasn't able to see it at the castle because he was too scared…scared of the engagement thing, of giving in too much, afraid of misunderstandings. But when they were traveling or if there was some danger, it was always Wolfram's shoulder he would see in front of him, shielding him. It was Wolfram's hand who saved him, the same hand who slapped him when he lost his mind and offended Murata. It was on that chest, now bandaged, that he had cried on more than once. And now, thinking that he could lose all of that…

It was impossible.

I'm so stupid, you were right Wolf, I'm the wimpiest of the wimps.

Without realizing it, he started to talk, hoping for Wolfram to listen to him. "I'm sorry Wolf," he said, holding his hand, "you were always there for me, and I got you in this. You always helped me and I never thanked you, not even once. You saved my life…and the only thing I was able to do was to make you leave.

Tears were once again threatening to fall, but Yuuri just ignored them. "Please, come back. Please, do it for Greta who is missing you so much, do it for your family that is waiting for you, and...how can I become a good King if I don't have you scolding me for being a wimp every time I don't know what to do?"

Wolfram moved slightly...and the wet cloth that the doctor put on his head fell. Yuuri took it and put it back on the blond's forehead.

For the first time, he said out loud the thing that he's been thinking from the first day he found him in his bed.(°°) "You really look like an angel when you're sleeping, you know?" he whispered near Wolfram's ear, and was surprised to see the Wolfram's emerald eyes open a little.

"Yu...Yuuri...?"

Yuuri's heart was pounding so fast he was afraid the Wolfram could hear it and, without thinking too much, he answered.

"Wolfram? Wolf? Can you hear me? Can you see me?"

But apparently, the blond was delirious and that was all he said before closing his eyes again.

Regret filled Yuuri's heart once again. It was his fault if his friend was in this state; it was all his fault. In the past, if Yuuri would have done things differently, Wolfram might not have been in this situation. Yuuri had always been nice to everybody but he knew that, when it came to his fiancé, the only thing he did was dismiss him…and then continue on as if nothing had happened. If he had only paid more attention to Wolfram's feelings, none of this would have happened.

During the months Conrad was in Dai Shimaron, he was so worried about his Godfather that he didn't realize how much Wolfram had helped him.

Wherever he went, Wolfram was always by his side. How come he never realized that? Wolfram was always so loud in scolding Yuuri for being a cheater, but never once reminded Yuuri how much he actually did for him.

The only thing Yuuri could do for Wolfram now, was to use his maryoku to heal him. That was another strange thing…no matter how much he tried, this month he wasn't able to use his maryoku and had not transformed into the Maou even once. It was as if his power was gone, but he knew he had to find it again…this time it was for Wolfram's life and he would try as much as he could to heal him.

So, closing his eyes, he concentrated trying to transform all his feelings and desperation into power, and slowly he felt his maryoku coming back. Sadly, after some minutes, he realized that there was not much power and that the more he tried to use it, the more he became weak. His head was spinning and his body was refusing to keep steady, but there was no way he could stop trying to heal Wolfram.

He got on the bed slowly, careful not to disrupt the blond as he lied next to him, keeping contact with his hands as he continued to heal him. Though Yuuri's head was spinning and he felt incredibly weak, it was a small sacrifice compared to what Wolfram had done. Without realizing it, he fell asleep.

When Yuuri woke up, he was feeling so weak he couldn't even turn his head. Instead, his eyes roamed over the blond sleeping next to him, hoping to see any change. Sadly, he was still sleeping and Yuuri sighed soundly.

"He seems to be better, you know," a voice said in a reassuring way.

"Damien..." Yuuri didn't really feel up to talk to him now...he felt nauseous and so weak, his maryoku was still slightly flowing into Wolfram.

"You must love him a lot too..." Damien observed without really being angry.

"You're wrong, I...I don't love him in that way…"Yuuri said, closing his eyes.

"I think you are quite confused Chris. But it's not up to me to judge you or to show you the truth," Damien replied while putting an empty cup on the table.

"But I wanted to ask you something in any case," he continued, and Yuuri knew even without opening his eyes that he was looking at him. "It was not a coincidence to have you here... was it? As much as I would like to trust you, there seems to be something off about you…"

Yuri thought that now it didn't matter anymore who knew the truth first. And frankly, he felt as if he really needed to say out loud what he had been trying to tell Wolfram without success.

"No, I came here looking for Wolfram," he answered calmly.

"How did you know about him? I mean, he didn't know you so I guess you were the one who knew about him in some way..." Damien's voice was not accusatory. They were really in the same boat, both hoping for Wolfram to recover; that might have been why Yuuri felt he could talk openly.

"He knows me very well..." Yuuri paused, trying to find the best way to explain the situation fully, "it's just that this...body is not my real one, I'm disguised at the moment...and…" Yuuri's words came out almost like a whisper, "it was me, I...I was the person he went to look for in the forest..." And then closed his eyes as regret came at him full force one more time.

Opening his eyes, he saw Damien's shocked face looking at their linked hands. "You...you are a mazoku aren't you?"

"I'm half mazoku, yes and...Wolfram and me, we have known each other for the past 2 years...at least in your world it's 2 years," he answered a little shyly, not daring to look at Damien. "I came here to look for him and ask him why he left...and then he got the letter saying that I disappeared and went looking for me in the forest."

"Then why the hell you didn't tell him before he left!" Damien's voice roared so much that even Wolfram, in his deep sleep, flinched.

"I tried!" Yuuri answered, trying to find a little bit of his strength. "But then YOU were always interrupting! I tried twice and you always came and interrupted us!"

"Bullshit! It's been one month, one full month and you never told him the truth, Chris!" And then Damien looked at him with narrowed eyes and said, "or maybe Chris isn't even your real name, am I wrong?"

Yuuri, who was trying to remain conscious because the strength he used to answer Damien took away even more of his energy, looked at Wolfram regretfully.

"No, you're right, my name is not Chris." Then, after briefly pausing, he continued, "but I want to tell Wolfram first, the truth about me...then I'll explain to everyone the real situation." Yuuri felt weak again, and saw Damien getting near the bed and sitting on the other side of it.

"You don't look good Chris...you should lie down again, and stop healing him too." Yuuri looked at him, a little shocked, but saw a light smile on Damien's lips.

Yuuri's face was surprised. "How do you know what..." he didn't finish the question, he just looked at his hand, which was linked with Wolfram's.

Damien smiled. "It's not so hard to understand it after seeing Wolfram healing people for two months, but you're risking too much.." Then, the man looked at the blond's sleeping face. "He is better, his infection seems to be improving, it's been already 2 days..."

"Two days? I was asleep two days?" Yuuri asked, shocked.

"Yes, and I'm really surprised because a normal mazoku would have already died if he spent the last two days healing someone...you must be really powerful or really lucky." The young man's hand came onto Yuuri's and broke the contact between him and Wolfram.

"Eh? What are you doing?" Yuuri asked, disappointed.

"Possessive, are we? Seriously, you want to talk to Wolfram, don't you? If you continue to heal him you might die before he wakes up." Then, Damien brought his hand to the blond's cheek and caressed it. "He is strong, I'm sure he'll be able to recover alone now."

Yuuri looked at that gesture with a slight bitterness. He knew that Damien was a really good guy, but that way he managed to touch Wolfram and show his affection for him always got on Yuuri's nerves.

But this doesn't mean I'm possessive! It's just that I don't see why he should be caressing his cheek in that way!

Damien probably noticed his stare because he stopped, embarrassed. "Let me tell you something Chris," he continued, "I don't know Wolfram's past and I don't want to know it until he is ready to talk about it." His eyes, that previously were resting on Wolfram, now were on Yuuri, and the stare became a little harder. "But I know the person I met two months ago and he...he was hurting. If there is something I do well, it is to understand people at first sight, and he was running from something that hurt him a lot. So, honestly speaking, if you are the one he left, I don't know how he could react knowing you've been here for the past month lying to him..."

Yuuri knew that even without Damien saying it out loud. "But I want to try," Yuuri said, "I want to talk about the reason he left; I want for him to come back with me..."

Damien kept his eyes closed with a resigned expression on his face and sighed. "Ok boy, but..."he said, opening his eyes and looking at Yuuri again, "If he doesn't want to come back with you, let him be."

He stood up and went to wash the last empty cup that had been full of medicine. Damien had probably also been there, never leaving, for the last two days.

The wave of uneasinesss in thinking that Wolfram might decide to never come back home with him scared Yuuri a lot. He never thought of the chance for Wolfram to refuse even after their talk. Yuuri wasn't able to continue his thoughts because Damien interrupted them.

"I might have been rejected now, but I want to have my chance, and you..." Now he was looking at Yuuri with a determined face, "you had him for two years, if he doesn't want to come back, leave him here." But Damien was not pleading, it was more of a statement.

"I'm going to try to make him fall in love with me, I know I can do it..."

"I told you already that I don't love him that way!" Yuuri replied, now a little more annoyed, even if he was uncertain about the reason.

"Ok, I know, but you want him back don't you?"

Yuuri couldn't reply, he just looked at the blond, who was soundly sleeping at his side.

"If he doesn't want to come back, leave him be...chances are that the reason he was hurting and that made him decide to leave is still there, in the place where you came from..."

Yuuri couldn't answer that, he didn't know the real reason that Wolfram had left, after all. He knew that it might have been his fault, but what was it exactly? Was it because he forgot that anniversary? But he didn't seem so sad for that... he even broke the engagement!

A wave of dizziness came on Yuuri again, mixed with something else he might have been too weak to identify. Or maybe it was the fact that, exactly in that moment, the blond they were talking about began to move.

Both Yuuri and Damien looked at him with wide eyes, especially when he moaned and they realized it was not the fever but it was him waking up...

"Wolfram!" They both said at the same time.

Emerald eyes opened, slowly trying to focus. "Ouch...where I am?" he asked, trying to sit up.

"Don't move!" said Damien in a little more relieved voice, "you're still badly hurt, you know?"

Wolfram looked around, and then at the two men at his sides. "Eh? Damien, Chris, what am I doing here? What's happened?" he said in a little more awake voice.

"You got attacked by a wild beast and your horse brought you here..." Damien explained. Yuuri couldn't say a word, partly because he couldn't find any words, but for the most part the feeling of relief was so big that he felt overwhelmed.

"Ah...yeah...I was looking for..." Emerald eyes went wide. "I can't stay here, I have to go back and look for him!" Wolfram said, while trying to stand up completely.

Yuuri, at that moment found his voice. "No you don't have to!" he said, almost screaming.

Wolfram gave him a hard stare. "Chris, I don't have time for this, please mind your own business. I have to go, now!"

Wolfram was stubborn as always. It was incredible how Damien was not successful at trying to stop him, although Yuuri thought that he might have been holding back so as not to hurt Wolfram. "I said you don't, what the hell, you are seriously the most selfish prince I know!" he screamed, as loud as he could, paralyzing both the men.

Wolfram turned around, and to say he was shocked was an understatement. He approached the bed again, Yuuri thought it was incredible he was able to reach the door in his condition. However, if he was to tell him the truth he wanted to face him, so he tried to stand up.

"What...did you call me?" the blond asked with a threatening voice.

Giving himself a big push Yuuri finally managed to stand up but in the process the little bottle with candies fell on the floor across the room, ending up beside Wolfram's feet.

As he looked down at the candies, Wolfram's eyes went wide. He tried to get them, but apparently the wound was hurting a lot, so Damien, understanding what he wanted, picked up the bottle and give it to Wolfram, who examined it for about five seconds.

"Where did you find these Chris..." Now his voice was a mixture between scared and shocked.

"...Murata gave them to me..." Yuuri answered weakly.

"How do you know that person?" Emerald eyes were piercing as they looked at Yuuri.

With a strength which Yuuri thought was abnormal for someone who just 2 days before was on his death bed, he felt Wolfram grab his shirt. "Answer me!" he screamed furiously.

Just at that moment, Yuuri realized that the feeling of before was the one he got when the transformation was taking place. Feeling too weak from a couple days of healing Wolfram, he allowed the transformation to happen, giving Wolfram his answer. In front of the most shocked expression he'd ever seen on Wolfram, his real identity came out.

Nobody dared to speak, and seriously it was better this way, Yuuri thought, because he was now feeling very sick and weak; he wouldn't be able to answer. He felt himself falling in a pool of darkness...but he tried to fight it. He wanted to talk to Wolfram; he couldn't fall asleep at that moment!

Sadly his body didn't listen to him. "I'm sorry, Wolf..." he said, while feeling darkness overcome him.

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Continue...now on the AN

(°) This is what happens at the end of the latest novel, we still don't know what will be of Wolfram in the next one, for now the novel ended with Yuuri who became blind and stabbed Wolfram after becoming Maou because he thought he was an enemy and didn't recognize him. Just when Wolfram fell over him, Yuuri recognized him by his scent (how wonderful is that? More than a ff) and Wolfram reassured him that it was not his fault and then collapsed. This is where the latest novel ends. With Yuuri blaming himself for stabbing Wolfram who collapsed in his arms.

(°°) Yuuri thought it more than once in the cd dramas and in the novels, but never actually said it outloud to Wolfram.

So, how was it? Did you like it? Let me know!

The time for the confrontation is getting really near, but there will be a lot more to come. Everytime I received a notification for a review I felt so bad I couldn't update, please keep sending them, everytime I read them I get more ideas and write faster! And if I don't...well, that means it'll take a while before I can update more. I don't have a lot of confidence in myself actually.

For the ones that asked me, this fanfic will have at least other four or five chapters to go. Up to two weeks ago I didn't even know how I was going to end it XDD

Thank you a lot for the support, this is my first fanfiction in english so it's understandable that if I don't get reviews I'll feel as if what I'm writing is not interesting you anymore.

Thank you from the heart, let me know if you liked this chapter ok?