(Kurt's POV)
Being Cori's tutor made me feel a bit better about not spending much time with her. At least now we'd already have plans together on Tuesday and Wednesday nights. I was almost nervous about it actually.
Strange, I used to be nervous around Finn all the time. I noticed at practice today, though, that I was more at ease with him.
Oh well, I decided and got ready for my nighttime moisturizing routine.
The next morning I parked my Navigator in the middle of the school parking lot. As I was doing a quick check in the mirror, I noticed Finn smiling as he got out of his truck, parked two rows back from me, then Cori laughing as she got out of the passenger's side.
What?!
So, that's who's been giving her rides. She's been blowing me off for Finn! I can't believe this! She told me she didn't like him, but she's all over him now that he and Quinn broke up.
That's not true Kurt, My subconscious spoke up. Finn said she was just helping him out. Cori's a nice girl, you know she wouldn't steal your man.
But, was I really jealous of Cori right now? Or… was I jealous of Finn?
I shook my head. I couldn't think about this anymore, or I'd be late for class.
After school, I walked into the auditorium. Finn and I decided to go ahead and meet there. No reason to waste time being around Quinn and Puck.
I'd been thinking, well, fuming about the Cori and Finn situation all day. I saw Finn sitting at the piano, but before I could tell myself to calm down, I exploded.
"I know Cori likes you. She won't admit to it, but it's painfully obvious. Especially since you two have been spending so much time together," I walked down the steps towards him.
"What? Dude, you're wrong." Finn got up, "She doesn't like me."
I now stood right in front of him, "Of course she does Finn. She always smiles at you and laughs when you're around like she's having the time of her life." My voice caught on a snag of jealousy and again, I couldn't pinpoint why.
Finn took a deep breath. "She smiles because she's nice and laughs because she has a good sense of humor. Can't you see that? I know I'm not so bright sometimes, but I can understand people Kurt. I know why Quinn and Puck liked to me, but it turns out my feelings weren't spared after all. And Rachel meant good by telling the truth. Just, the whole situation had no excuse. Quinn and Puck screwed up and Rachel shouldn't have interfered!" Finn slammed his fist against the nearby wall. "So, don't tell me I don't understand, because I do."
"Ok—"
"Why do you always seem to hate her? You guys used to spend a lot of time together, but now, it's like you just don't care anymore."
I took a deep breath. "I don't hate her Finn. I just—I can't explain it to you."
"Well, you should be nicer to her. That girl cares a lot about you."
His words struck me. "Wait. What do you mean?"
"I… I-um, I shouldn't have said that," Finn glanced around and began walking away. "Just, never mind."
I grabbed his arm and turned him towards me. "No, Finn. You're going to tell me what you meant."
"She-she likes you man. Like, really likes you."
"What?" I said shocked.
"She doesn't like me. She likes you. She told me."
"You've got to be kidding. No girl has ever liked me that way. Well, there was Mercedes for a while, but…"
"Cori's different?"
"I…I don't know."
And I truly didn't. I'd never really thought about Cori like that. No, that was a lie. I had, I just denied it every time I did. Just now, all of those times came rushing back to me. They were fresh in my memory.
That time when I had to help her after the slushie incident. I immediately thought she was the prettiest girl I'd seen at McKinley. Then when we were in my room that night she fell asleep on my bed. I didn't have the heart to wake her up; she looked so peaceful. So, I turned on the TV to watch Top Model, but where as I normally take careful note of the advice and tips the judges give the girls, I couldn't stop looking at Cori. In fact, kissing her had briefly passed my mind, but I completely ignored it. The hardest thought to suppress happened when she got into the cheerios. I didn't even think before I hugged her. I hugged Mercedes all the time, but the minute Cori and I touched I didn't want to let go. I had forced myself to pull away from her, but that didn't help either, because we were practically face to face. I think I actually really wanted to kiss her, but I had to shut off my thoughts. So, I came up with going to the mall to get my mind off of it.
I'd pushed all those feelings away. Truth is I was scared to find out I may not be who I thought I was. Could it truly be that I like her? Did I still like Finn? I looked over at him, sitting back at the piano, humming to himself. He was gorgeous, there's no denying that, but the little flutter I usually get in my heart when I see him never came. I thought of Cori, her auburn hair and deep brown eyes, the dark blue floral dress she's wearing today.
I felt my heart give an extra beat.
Crap.
My feelings were real, and tonight, I'd have to face her.
If what Finn said was true, then Cori wasn't kidding when she said she was good at hiding her feelings. Now I was scared she'd find out about my own, just like she had about Finn.
(Cori's POV)
Quinn and I were making really good progress on our song, so we decided to take a break. We sat in two chairs in the spare choir room.
"I'm sorry I've been going on so much about this Finn thing."
"It's fine," I smiled at her. We'd gotten pretty close the past two days. It was astonishing how much we had in common.
"So, what about you?" She nudged me. "Any boy problems I should know about?"
I laughed, "No, no problems."
"Well, I know you and Finn are doing well," She gave me a look and I knew she was joking. "But what about Kurt?"
I shook my head at her. "He's gay Quinn," I said pointedly.
"He hasn't even kissed anyone you know. He has no idea what he wants," She said matter-of-factly.
"You're kidding me."
"Nope, I overheard him talking to Finn the other day."
"Wow." Kurt hadn't told me that.
"You might have a chance with the boy after all."
"How'd you even know I like him?"
"Oh, please. You look at him like a love sick puppy."
"Am I really that obvious?"
"No, but I can tell those things."
"Okay," I laughed. "Because Finn had no clue when I told him."
Her eyes got big. "You told Finn? What'd he do?"
I laughed again. "Exactly what you did just now."
She joined in on my laughter. After a moment she sighed, "It feels good to just relax again."
"Yeah, you've seemed pretty tense since I moved here."
"I just didn't know how to tell Finn about the baby. I felt so bad. Then I had to keep up my reputation for cheerios, and Puck was always there making everything seem suspicious, but now it's all out there and I just have to worry about cheerios like before."
"Maybe that's best for now."
"Yeah," She agreed, but then suddenly looked vulnerable. "Um… this has kind of been bugging me, but I was really mean to you—"
I cut her off, "I know. It's okay."
"Okay, good. I think I was just insecure about you and Finn being friends."
"I'm not a boyfriend stealer."
"I know that now." We shared a laugh. I checked the clock above the door. It was ten past four.
"What do you say we call it a day?"
"Yeah, you have tutoring with Kurt tonight, right?"
I nodded, aware that blush was probably grazing my cheeks.
"Well, put on that charm and go get him."
"Thanks Quinn."
"Anytime," She said and we parted ways.
Kurt and I had decided to go back to his house for the tutoring, so I walked to the auditorium where I knew he would be with Finn.
Before I could open the door, Kurt came out looking frustrated.
"Hey. Everything okay?"
"Uh-um…" He cleared his throat. "Y-yeah, everything's fine."
"Tough day with Finn? You look stressed."
"No, he seemed better." We began walking to his car.
"That's good."
"Uh, how's Quinn?"
"She's better too, we're actually pretty good friends now. She told me she thought I'd steal Finn away from her before."
He laughed dryly, but didn't say anything. I figured he would have made a comment about me liking Finn. Maybe I finally got it through his head it's not true.
Author's Note:
I am sorry that for the second week I have said on my profile that this story would be updated on a Thursday and was instead updated Friday.
With that being said the next chapters will be updated on Friday's because they seem to work for me better.
Thanks for reading!
