The whole ride to his house was quiet and awkward, but neither one of us made an effort to turn on the radio. Once we arrived, I led the way downstairs and flopped onto his bed. He sat next to me looking a little flushed.

"Let's get started," he said quietly and pulled out his Spanish book.

I took out mine as well, but didn't fail to notice something about Kurt was off. He wouldn't even look at me. This whole study session was going to be awkward, so I had to say something.

"Kurt, you're acting really strange. Is everything okay?"

That made him look at me. "W-what? What would make you think that something's wrong?"

I raised an eyebrow at him. "You're stuttering all over the place, acting extremely nervous and you're blush—" Immediately I realized it. This is how he acts around Finn. Could he actually possess feelings for me?

He's gay, My conscious reminded me.

Disappointment fell over me, consequently coming out in my voice, "Sorry, you don't have to tell me."

He didn't argue and we started studying. I watched the words fall from his lips. I thought of him muttering off 'amour' and leaning into kiss me. His lips would be just as soft as they looked… I felt someone shaking my shoulder.

"Hey, you dazed off."

"Sorry."

"This must be why you're failing Spanish," He chuckled.

He had no idea. I would have laughed too, but I was too wound up in what I'd just been thinking of and how it would never come true.

"I knew Finn was lying," I heard him whisper to himself.

"What?" I asked, but he didn't repeat it.

"You know, you always seem to enjoy your time with Finn."

"Kurt, wha—" I tried to cut in, but he continued.

"But, you never seem to enjoy yourself when you're around me." He looked at me, nervous again, but almost… angry?

"What are you talking about? I always have fun with you, Kurt."

He stood up. "You know, I don't really believe that. Maybe we shouldn't even be friends."

My throat tightened and my voice began to shake. What the heck did Finn say? "How can you say that? What is going on?"

He plopped back down on the bed, holding his sides like a little kid. "I-I don't know," He said quietly.

I packed my things and got up. "Well, maybe you should figure that out." I didn't mean to sound snappy, but my heart was breaking even more.

"I-I can drive you home."

I tried to sound less sharp, "No, I'll walk."

He didn't say anything, so I let myself out. The idea of walking seven miles didn't really bother me. My brain was too busy trying to make sense of what happened. Before I knew it, I was crying. Five minutes later, I was curled up on the sidewalk. I watched an ant climb the tree to my right. He was carrying a little piece of food. I wondered if he was taking it home to his lovely wife and kids. Soon, he disappeared in a little hole. I watched it, waiting to see if he would come back out. When I heard a horn, I jumped and looked up.

Finn?!

He reached across the seat and unlatched to door, pushing it open as far as his arm would allow him. "C'mon, hop in."

I did what he said, too upset to argue. He put the truck in drive.

"Crap, dude," He said now that he saw me up close. "What happened?"

I just shook my head.

"Uh, okay. Do you want to get something? Coffee?"

I nodded and he drove to the Starbuck's in town. After a couple sips of my mocha, I spoke. "Kurt and I, uh, had a fight."

His eyebrows furrowed. So, I explained. "He'd been acting nervous ever since we met up for the tutoring session. All of a sudden he made some comment about you lying to him and then completely exploded. He said 'Maybe we shouldn't even be friends.'"

"Oh, no." Finn looked at me bug-eyed and shocked.

"What?"

"Well, when we were practicing today, I kinda slipped up."

"Kinda?"

"He was going on about you liking me and that you don't like being around him. He seemed kinda jealous. And, well, I wanted to get him off my back. I said you cared about him and he made me tell him what I meant."

Everything fell into place. "So, Kurt's jealous I'm spending so much time with you?"

"Beyond jealous. It was written all over his face. He acted like I stole his cake."

"Finn. Kurt rarely eats cake," I chuckled.

"You know what I mean," He smiled. "So, you're not mad I told him?"

"No." I really wasn't. I was tired of hiding it anyway.

"Cool," Finn said and took a huge bite out of his cookie.

"How'd you know where I was?

"I didn't really. I was driving home from the gas station and saw you. Luck, I guess."

"Well, thanks for stopping." I looked at him. He looked back at me and smiled. It was then I noticed I could never see Finn as more than a friend. He was like a brother to me. As much as Kurt wanted to believe something was going on between me and Finn; he was dead wrong, and he was going to have to accept it.

At school the next day I expected Kurt to avoid me. I guess I didn't have his personality pegged yet, because the minute we caught each other's eye in the hall he walked right up to me.

"I believe we need to talk," He said.

"After school?"

"Yes."

"Okay," I confirmed. Briefly remembering we both had cheerios practice tonight. I decided, though, that talking to Kurt was more important.

"I'll meet you by the front doors," He said before turning and walking off. I went to class as well, curious as to the conversation Kurt and I would hold this afternoon.

Finn caught up to me at lunch and urged me to get something out with him. I said yes, just because I didn't want to sit through an awkward lunch with Kurt.

We wound up at a mom and pop shop in the downtown part of Lima. We both knew we'd be late for our next class, but neither of us really cared.

"What can I get for you two today?" The waitress smiled at us. Pen and paper ready.

"I'll have a plain cheeseburger with fries and water to drink," I said.

"I'll have a cheeseburger too, everything on it and add bacon. Fries too, and a coke."

She vigorously wrote down our orders then left with our menus.

"Quinn talked to me today," Finn blurted.

I'd seen Quinn in Spanish this morning, but she didn't mention talking to Finn. She must've just done it before we left.

"What'd she say?"

"She apologized and thanked me for actually hearing her out."

I nodded for him to continue.

"She said she still loves me."

I smiled in response.

"Wait. Did you two talk about this?

"Not specifically, but she does feel that way Finn."

He looked genuinely happy, but it quickly faded. "I don't know if I'm ready to be with her again."

"That's fine Finn." I placed my hand on his arm reassuringly. "Things like that take a long time to get over."

A few more minutes passed before our food was served. The burgers were huge. I didn't know if I was going to be able to eat it all.

"How are you and Kurt?" He asked and took a bite.

"I'm not sure yet. He wants to talk after school."

"Well, we don't have glee tonight."

"Yeah, but I do have cheer practice," I said, disappointed. "I guess I'll have to miss it."

"Cori, she'll kick you off and you've only been on a week."

"Kurt's more important."

"But doesn't he have practice too?"

"Yeah, I guess I just, I don't know." I looked down at my plate a little more than half of my burger was left and I felt like my stomach was going to burst. "Do you want this?" I pushed my plate towards Finn. He gladly accepted. How in the world he could eat that much completely baffled me.

"Well, if he's going to miss practice it must be important for him too." Finn said with a mouthful of food.

I looked away out of thought rather than disgust. Anxiety was welling up inside me and I wanted the end of the day to be here already.

"We should probably head back to class," Finn said pulling out his wallet and flagging down our waitress.

Our total came to a little over $20. I assured Finn I'd pay for half, but he insisted he pay for the whole bill.

"That was really good." He said as we walked out. I nodded and got in the truck.

Back at McKinley I walked in the bathroom for the bell to ring before heading to my last class.

The minute school was out I rushed straight to the front doors leading to the parking lot. Not three seconds after I showed up Kurt appeared next to me. "We'll talk at my house," He stated. I didn't argue and silently walked with him to his car. My heart pounded the entire drive there. I didn't even try talking because I knew I'd just stumble over my words.

Once we were downstairs I sat on the edge of Kurt's bed while he stood in the middle of the room.

(Kurt's POV)

"I just, I need a minute," I told her.

I had to do this. I had to tell her. But telling her how I feel was more than just that. It was admitting to not truly being gay. It was coming out of that secure shell I built for myself and it was tearing me to shreds. Almost everyone at our school is a homophobe. They hate the gay guy, and now what? I'll have spent all of my life getting teased and bullied only to find in the last two days I'm not completely gay all because of this magnificent girl that's sitting on my bed. Could I really let all those years go like that?

I had to. My life may have been hell so far, but I deserve to be happy.

I turned towards Cori.

"Before you say anything I just want to tell you I don't like Finn. Really. I know we hang out a lot, but we're not going to date or anything. In fact, I'm trying to—"

"I think I might not be gay," I interrupted.

"Wait. You-you, what?!" She looked up at me, shocked. "When did this come about?"

I walked closer to her and sat on the bed. "Yesterday. Apparently some girl likes me and I realized I feel the same way."

She was quiet for a long time so I asked, "Do you want to know who it is?"

She looked up at me, her eyes boring into mine, drawing me in. I felt myself moving closer to her until we were inches apart.

"It's you," I whispered before placing my lips on hers. Fireworks went off in my head and I knew I'd made the right choice. I moved my lips against hers, letting out all of my suppressed feelings. She ran a hand through my hair, pulling me closer. I placed a hand on her cheek. When I felt something moist and pulled back. She was crying.

"A-are you okay?"

She nodded so I pulled her into my lap. "I'm just so happy you feel the same." She wrapped her arms around me.

I smiled and held her.

Author's Note:

Well folks, there's only one chapter left.

I thank you all for reading and I will have the last chapter up in a week!