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A/N: First, this is not a chapter of Messages for you, for me. Guys I didn't have the heart to start a new fic without finish this one. So I will try to do something new. If you guys let me…this is a world apart, I will upload chapters of this story depending much on my time. I star class this week so it will be a bit difficult to me write but I will do my best. I was slightly inspired to do this for Canadino and her fic kiss me through the phone. That was awesome. Hope you guys don't hate me!. I promise the next upload will be another one shot :) for now all your reviews are very appreciated! Sorry for the long note!
Masochist Desire
The first time I heard about "Masochist Desire" was while I was at a party. Not a normal party. For me it meant more that day. I remember it well because it was that night I slept with the most beautiful and hot girl I've ever met. In fact she was the popular and ardent girl who made me crazy from months ago. Months of desire and longing to touch her, to feel her.
Happened that on that day, that we did it all night, I fell in love with her. For her piercing black eyes, her shiny black hair, her delicate arms around my shoulders, her slender figure all over me. Her breathing.
This same day something more happened. Something happened that I was not expecting. That was not scheduled in my agenda. Something I would have preferred to ignore definitely. I heard this voice. That electric and whispering voice coming from the radio. Insinuating shades of voice that turned on all my senses. Blurred my mind making me forget with whom I was. Who I was. Making love personal, only and solely to me.
That night I knew. I just knew. I fell in love again. As absurd as it can be heard. I fell in love again for the lead singer of Masochist Desire. For the lust that he caused on me.
XOX
"Aomine! Aomine wake up!"
Her sweet voice brought me back, she knew that I already was awake but I delayed in opening my eyes just to continue listening to her. To continue overwhelmed by the little paradise that she was giving me by waking with me all the mornings. It was after I let pass a few minutes that I reluctantly opened my eyes to her. Because I knew that she would be watching me on top of me, watching me until I woke up. I smiled somnolent. How could she be so beautiful since the first hour of the morning?. I raised my hand to her hair, caressing in my own personal way, saying I want to kiss you, she didn't have to make me beg much, in one smooth motion she closed her lips to mine waking me up completely.
"Happy dreams?" She asked slowly.
"A bit. You were in all torturing me" I replied resting my forehead to hers.
"Oh yeah? I'm sure it was awful .How would it sound if I really begin to torture you to get you up?"
I smile inevitably "That doesn't sound bad, maybe I should stay here a little while"
She grins "Evil, we have to go to university, get up quickly!" She left me palming my butt.
I sigh. She is wonderful.
I make my path to the bathroom and admire her while she is changing into new clothes. A pinch of desire runs down my spine to see her changing. And she knows me. She's doing it on purpose. At the end Who is the evil one?
"Want a shower with me?" I yet asked hopefully.
She looked at me smiling "You already know that I have my shower early"
I smirk "I had to ask"
Naked I go into the bathroom letting the cold water run down my body, cooling my senses, feeling ready to go into a new day.
I hear her talking on the phone and feel her putting some made up and put that pink lipstick I like so much. Those mature eyes looking in the mirror.
"Aomine" She call me.
"Mm?" I answered from the shower.
"Don't be late! This is a new semester ... try a little ... Would you want?"
"Yeah, I know, I promise" I answer peeping through the curtains to receive her kiss.
She's right. She's always right.
Last week we started a new semester. Second. To be clearer. New brats start with us. Some morons and idiots. Nothing to care for. I'm fine. Better with her.
I close the shower and go outside for some jeans and a black shirt. Brush my teeth and look for my bag ready to go.
XOX
At the train station to my regret I notice, I may not be able to fulfill the promise I made to her this morning. At least not today. The subway delay involves people crazy and upset, sweaty, who wants to reach -like me- early to their destination.
Pushing as I can I achieve to enter in the train. With my back against the door and pulled by people everywhere. It is uncomfortable, you never get used to it. I lay my head on the door breathing fresh air as I can. After all I'm taller than the rest around me. I have one or two heads more. Advantages of being tall.
Then it happened again. I don't know which is first. I can not distinguish that line. I don't know if I listen first and my body feels it. I don't know if I feel first that current of electricity through my chest and then recognize his voice. Or if I recognize his voice first and then run through me that current of electricity for my body. I'm honest, I don't know.
His hungry voice singing by the train's speakers. Singing a song of love. It's ironic. Lust and sweet love not combine well in my mind.
I close my eyes feeling comfortable, listening his voice in my ears, in my mind, sending me to another world where life may be more good of what already is for me now. I really don't want to wake up.
I feel when the train stops abruptly causing half of the people precipitate forward or to the side. I look to the front making sure that I didn't accidentally stumbled with someone. I notice something more than that. The world is really ironic. I'm not the only one who feel aroused for the suggestive music. The guy next to me and the girls in front of me are completely flushed. Their faces and their eyes are lost flying into another world. Perhaps similar to mine. Maybe. I smile to myself. I'm sure if I look carefully everyone's faces I will get more surprises.
The guy and the girls are close to my age. Nineteen. Twenty maybe. I close my eyes to avoid embarrassing with my gaze of recognition the girls that are starting to see me more flushed. I sigh inside me thinking if I do look the same way. Flushed, Aroused and Hot.
I don't need to know the answer cause I already know.
XOX
I'm such a hopeless guy.
I'm turned on. What a bother. I should have known better. It's not my fault. Not at all.
I barely managed to scape between some of my friends in the Uni greeting fast and perhaps a bit rude. I know I'm late. And that she will be a bit mad at me later. But I need to go to the bathrooms.
I don't know if maybe someone noticed my obvious package. I think no one noticed. Well almost. There is one person who knows me well enough to miss my condition. And when I open the door, done. The first thing I see is his face. Shit.
"Okay. You catch me. Can we pretend that you don't know nothing?" I said washing my hands.
"Mmm we can…but-" He answer teasing me.
"But?"
"Don't touch me for this day" he finished.
I smile "You didn't have to mention it Tetsu"
Tetsu smile back.
"And for the record" Tetsu said walking into the class with me "I wasn't sure that you were jerking off in that time"
I looked at him incredulously "Are you sure?"
"Very sure"
I can't believe him.
XOX
We walked into the class. And when my eyes encounter the clock on the wall I noticed that we are too late. The Professor Ryuka doesn't even look up from her desk to see us. Bad sign. She is a sweet person most of the time. This time we abused of her character.
When I sit in my regular place next to Tetsu, I notice there's something different in the atmosphere. I can smell it in the air. The sudden excitement, tension. Is intriguing. I look into the eyes of Tetsu. I know he has noticed too.
He shrugged but points me the faces of the girls. How they are all incredibly exciting. Then I look to the guys following the example of Tetsu. Man. Creepy aura everywhere!. They might be enjoying a funeral already.
I narrowed my eyes. I'm missing something. What? I don't remember this day it's special or having a party or major celebration in our faculty. Satsuki didn't tell me anything in the morning neither. It's really strange. Suspicious.
XOX
When the class ends and the break comes, I get up with Tetsu towards the area of the food fair. If I'm missing something, I'll know soon. Gossips pass quickly to everyone in this hour.
I meet Satsuki and Kagami. I see them sitting at the table eating and talking distracted. Satsuki turns her head and looks at me with Tetsu to my side. She waves her hand to us.
I sit and close my hand over hers, "How was your first class?
"Good. Nothing new. You? Did you arrive on time?
Her eyes fixed on me, no lies allowed "I try ... to come in time. Ask Tetsu"
She smile and look at Tetsu "He is a good friend. Don't want to hear him sinking you more"
Kagami laughed "True Satsuki. How could you ask help to Tetsu lying? He only says the true"
Kuroko smile a bit at Kagami leading his head fall on Kagami's shoulder "That's why you should care more for me"
Kagami blushed and tensed. Satsuki sigh couldn't avoid to think that they were lovely together. Aomine look to Satsuki, his eyes saying that If only Kagami wasn't so dense, Satsuki's eyes replying They have time, look how lovely they are. At the end Aomine nod surrended. Satsuki was right. They indeed have time.
"By the way" Aomine broke the comfort silence "There is something special today?"
Satsuki was the first to speak "Well, I don't know well but, it seems like someone famous is going to study here in our Uni"
I whistle "I see now, that's the reason why all the guys are so depressive"
"Yeah, in my class too. But I don't give a shit about famous people, so, if they come or not I don't care "Kagami intervened drinking his soda.
Satsuki and I smiles. Kagami it's always like this.
"Well ... I will buy some drink. Wait for me"
I get up to the counter deciding what to take. When I hear two voices squeaking behind me in the queue.
"Kyaaaaa!. You heard it too?!"
"Yeah! I can't believe it! I'm going to die!"
"No, no. I die first than you"
"Want a bet?!"
"Nahh. But is it true?"
"I believe so, a friend of a friend of a friend of mine tells me that he is going to study here!"
"I pray that this gossip will be true!"
"It is. I can asegurate you. His voice it's so Hot!"
"Kyaaaaaaa!"
Aomine couldn't help but rolled his eyes. Some girls could be like this…Only one thing make his mind stop for a moment when he was returning to the table.
His voice it's so Hot!.
"Aomine?" Satsuki asked looking at my eyes.
I blinked "Mm?"
"You seem a bit distracted?"
I clenched her hand and lean my forehead against hers "It's nothing" I whisper "I miss you"
She answer me with a slight sweet kiss "It's our hour to go class"
Before she get up of her seat I retain her with my hand "You know I'm cursing myself for my bad luck?"
"Indeed" She sighed "But you know we can't do nothing" She look at me and then at Kagami and Tetsu who were in his own world "The three of us are in the same class unless you…You know it's your fault for being a sleepy head"
I laugh and whisper playful to her ear so only she heard me "You know it's really your fault for making me sleep barely an hour that night"
She blushed and get up fast "Go to your class now!"
"Even if I'm turned on?" I asked innocent
"Go!" She laughed still blushing, getting away with my two friends.
I'm in love of her. Really.
But matter of factly I wasn't joking. I'm turned on again. What's happening with me? I'm not a kid for God's sake! I asked myself joking. I look to the clock. If I enter in the class a pair of minutes later wouldn't hurt anybody.
So I walk to the baths with my naughty reaction for the second time in the day.
Wasting no time I put my hands around my dick and let myself slowly getting excited. Remembering her lips, her breath, her hair, her breast. All. So after a pair of minutes I almost reaching the point. I control my mouth so of course if someone enter can't notice nothing. I'm not a pervert after all. So, when I heard at mi side some…sounds I froze a bit. Another guy with a problem like mine? I want to laugh but it doesn't matter when I felt the pain for release making me focus again. Something more bothers me.
I'm not only coming for my thoughs of Satsuki. The moans at my side arouse me more of what I think, and by the time I notice it's too late, my mind it's filled with the slight moans who are breathed with delight and pain, with some need impress too. I curse myself when I come. Hard and with an inusual sensation in my hands. Indeed it feel good. I'm totally flushed.
Breathing normally again I put my boxers and jeans up. Take some breath and open the door to go and wash my hands. I still could heard the muffled moans. The guy hasn't come yet, apparently. The moans continue when I end to wash my hands. I look for the mirror to the green close door. A wave of curiosity fills me.
Who is it behind that door?
I want to know.
I have to thank him for his…uh, help.
That's an absurd excuse… I aware of that. I know!.
But I want to know.
I .want .to .know.
The moans.
To whom they belong?
My hand tremble in front of the door.
I open it.
He talk to me.
I moaned.
This couldn't be true.
XOX
"Aomine?!" A flushed yet surprised voice exclaimed in the silence of the bathroom.
I couldn't say anything, in fact I moaned for answer. I moaned for two things. Because. Heck. I definitely should not open this door. What's with me? Where is my sense that tells me, alert me, that when someone is in private issues, people― I —don't have to disturb! It's not like someone put a gun in my head so I didn't have no choice but open the damn door. Granted, my desire was more than me. I have no shame most of the time. So this first thought doesn't count.
But second does. Aomine? What the hell? Why he knows my name? He should not knows my name. If Sat finds out this or if this guy slit out a gossip about me, it will be the dead of me. I don't like gossips. I hate gossips. It will be fucking embarrassing.
"Aomine?"
I looked doubtfully at the two big hazel eyes, so….now what? I'm having a difficult time trying to not look down to his pants. To his hands. Better focus on his face. God, help me.
"S-Sorry, I shouldn't you know, I'm really sorry" My voice tremble, heck. I look away don't waiting an answer, I want to get the hell out of here. Then, my arm it's clenched, slightly but enough to retain me in my way to the exit. I sigh getting frustrated. He doesn't catch my move?.
"Aomine…is it you?"
What's with that voice? I swung my head staring questioningly at his face...he also have questioningly eyes. In fact more surprises than me. I don't intent, don't have the intention to say, to admit, that I'm Aomine. It will be troublesome. And more than that I find this guy doing the same thing I was doing a minute before. He KNOWS what I was doing. I can't just said 'Yeah, I am, what's up' No in my head, no in my world. Perhaps before. Granted I can. I'm excusing myself. I know my limits. But he knows mine?
"I'm sure there are plenty of Aomines here in this place, I don't know you, sorry"
The hazel eyes blinked changing his focus on the wall instead of me. A shade of pain reflected in them, but just for a second before I can make sure of what I see, somehow that press my chest, I don't understand but that…that makes me felt a bit bad. He was expecting another answer from me?. I scratch my hair to distract myself a little, his hand it's still in my arm. Distractedly like someone who don't want the thing, I let...my eyes run down from his face to his body, especifically his pants. God. His zipper is open. God. And I can see half of the packet. Breathe. I need to breathe.
My breathe makes the guy look at me again and let his hand fall so casually...so vulnerable…I hate myself.
"I'm sorry…I don't know who you are" I said less rude more slow.
"But- but…you are Aomine right?"
He has suddenly this hopeless side in his eyes worrying his bottom lip. I...I know this guy? This hazel eyes? I have the sudden feeling that I know those lips...how they taste...It's disturbing... I hope I'm doing the right thing...I hate myself.
"I'm Aomine 'kay? So from where you know me?"
A happy wide smile appear in his lips letting me speechless. Something's wrong?. Without seconds thoughts two pale arms are wrapping around my neck and the feeling of a warmth face it's settled in my shoulder. I don't know what to do. My body it's froze so much as my mind and my arms waving in the air. Pressing his chest against me he got me more.
"I miss you so much! I can't believe we are together again!"
And then I felt another thing pressing in my thighs. No way. That's all what makes me jerk his shoulders and body away from me.
"Who are you?!"
A naughty smile play with his lips, his locks of blond-black hair falling for his forehead while he's thinking "How insensitive of your part doesn't remember about me, perhaps, if I─"
Those big eyes focus in me, I'm waiting. I don't remember knowing anyone like him. He cut the space between us and again I felt like he want to wrap around me but he doesn't. He lean smiling to my ear and whisper. I wait. Nothing comes out of his mouth. The whisper it's tickling me. This is getting ridiculous!
"Perhaps if I kiss you" He still whisper "you will remember"
My eyes flew open. Kiss─me? What's wrong with him?! Quickly I put away my mouth, but my cheek it's captured in a sweet and sonorous peck. I froze.
I'm immobile, in another world.
"Remember now Aominecchi?"
Slowly I demand my eyes to look at that face in front of me. And it's like it's the first time I see him.
His profiled nose, his bright hazel eyes, his childish cheeks, his lips being nibbled for his anxious teeth, blond-black hair, obviously dyed, the earring in his left ear. His features and body tells me that I know him. How I not noticed before? In the end it's his face what attracts me more.
His eyes look at me with insistence and a warmth unexpected for me. He knows that I am overwhelmed, I'm pretty obviously with my inspection. My eyes are running down and up for his body. And when he moves a little away for me I stop instantly. I'm being too rude. But he smiles and exclaim in a relaxed way "Want me to kiss you again Aominecchi?"
"Ne ne Can I kiss you Aominecchi?" I heard the words on my head.
I take deep breaths against the sudden memories that are hitting my mind like a rock...I'm still not convinced...he does and doesn't look like the same person. Perhaps I've to ask. It's my turn.
"Ki…Kise? Is it you?"
Kise gave a pleased smile "I thought you would never guess! Is not this a wonderful coincidence?!"
"Somehow when you say it like that…" A shudder run for my spine "…I thought that you were in some country in Europe"
Kise blink "I was but not for so long…three years, almost four"
"I haven't see you since we were kids...what age? nine? ten?"
Kise's eyes bright kindly "Yeah, we had ten…that were good times, I'm happy to see you"
I smile for the first time "Indeed you are" And then look down straight to his pants "More happy of what you think"
Kise cheek's blushed "Oh God, I forgot that" He covered his zipper fast with his hands blushing more "Sorry"
I clear my troath feeling distracted "You don't have to" I clear my voice again "I mean, I understand the problem, please forgive me, I was the one interrupting you, uh, before"
Kise look up "No! No! Oh no! You don't have to apologize!" Kise waved his hands "If with this "He pounced to his pants "I find you, then it's fine with me!"
He's weird. That's the first thought that cross my neurons. I look at him again "You've changed" Distractedly I rise my fingers to a side of his hair, it's more long now, it feels strangely smooth…I… "Your hair…" I say slowly.
Kise tilted his head leaning to my fingers, closing his eyes for a second "I dyed it with black some time ago…you like it?"
I let my hand fall "It's not bad" You've changed. I couldn't help but stare at him again, rude, I know but…it doesn't feel wrong.
Kise blushed again "I have…you know…I have" He look at my eyes "I have to go inside the bath now"
I open my mouth. Oh!
I look to his troubled face and try to suppress with all my forces to laugh. He should be in pain. Oh!
"It's Ok, I have to go class by the way"
"Wait!"
I rolled my head confused. He has followed me to the door?
"Can- can you wait for me?"
AH? "I'm sorry but I shouldn't-"
He cut me off "Please…It's my first day here, please! I don't know anyone"
His mortified voice and his helpless eyes were —And I want to denied— but there were priceless. —Delete that— He's really weird. I close my eyes, Heck. It's worse!. The music of his moans return in a second!. I open my eyes —Better—.
My conscience it's saying me that: It's his first day and poor thing, he's all alone, more important he still have to release himself and it's in pain fucking waiting for your answer!
Poor thing? I replied to that voice in my head Poor thing? He's an enough grow up person! Alone? We all start in the same way. About the release…well I can't do anything about that!.
"Please…I promise I'll be, eh, fast?"
"Hush" I stroke my forehead "Don't want to hear more" I breathed "I- will wait outside 'kay?"
Kise nodded relaxed "Thanks"
Closing the door I stroke my tense forehead. Oh gosh he didn't wash his hands. Crap.
I try to focus my mind in another things, in Satsuki. My Sat. And that works for a seconds but Crap. Crap, Crap. Why I can hear him if I am outside the damn bath? I step a bit away looking to my sides. Geez, of what material are made the walls this days? Not an expensive one I'm sure.
My heart it's racing and I don't want to realize for what.
XOX
Being honest with me this situation It's uncomfortable…leaning to the limit of being…disgusting.
"I hate to say this but- can you let go of my arm?"
Two hazel eyes look at me "Nop"
I scratch my hair trying to gain some patience and waving away my disappointment. He's planning to stay like this all the way to my class? Oh!
"By the way I didn't ask you before but, what's your section?"
Kise buried his hands in his pockets "Let me see, wait" he brought a small piece of paper, small and sure giving his last minutes with life.
"Geez you didn't have something better than that?"
Kise shrugged "I was in a hurry so…" He read the paper "It's section three"
"No"
"Yes"
"No" I denied again "No!"
"C'mon, I have a pair of splendid eyes! I read section three, I'm sure"
"Kise"
"What? Feeling bad? Oh dear~your face is pale"
I let my head fall. This is bad. Not good I'm sure. First I let my senses go like crazy opening that door and listening to those—whatever—then this…perhaps my punishment for being stupid and planning to be the good guy?
"Aominecchi?"
I open my eyes. In what moment I closed it? "C- Close!" I jerk back my head quickly from Kise's close face hitting my head with the wall "Ouch" I'm freaking out.
Kise grin "You should be more careful, I didn't remember you being so…jumpy"
"I'm not jumpy!" I answer flushed.
"Of course not" Kise grin.
"Can we go class now?" I asked looking away.
"So we are in the same class…?"
I nod. He tight his embrace around my arm like giving me courage to continue. Honestly?...this guy…
Being late it's no good. Less with the witch we have for teacher at this hour. But again, all the Teachers are bitches when someone arrives late and furthermore have the guts to intervine in the middle of the class. Just like us.
"Uh, Sorry, Good Morning"
"Good afternoon to you Aomine Daiki" Rin, the witch, welcomed us. I scratched my hair as a reflex "Sorry I come with this guy…I mean he's a new student here"
Rin let her glasses in the desk and look at my eyes "Are you making fun of me? I don't see anyone Aomine"
"What?" I look to my arm. Empty. Awful word "AH?" I look to everywhere like a fool. Empty! I feel my guts falling "Wait a minute!" I exclaim stepping outside catching a glimpse of blond-black hair losing for the corner. I curse to the air and run behind him. I'm fast so in a moment I'm at his back, I catch his wrist and my breath pinning him to the wall. Kise hit his head against the wall looking at me confused rather angry he waved my hand away.
"Sorry" I force my mind to say clenching my teeth "I just don't understand you" I let out "We have to enter now, you understand?"
"No" Kise answer defiantly.
"Huh?" I try to lock his eyes with mine feeling disoriented "What's wrong? You make me stay like a completely idiot back there, c'mon!" I shake slightly his shoulders hesitant for his so sudden change of mind. He remain stiffen. I still looking at him sensing with my hand how tense he is "I don't understand what's wrong?" Why you don't answer me? I sigh.
"Ok. If you don't want to go. Fine. Great. I will go alone then"
Geez, he didn't even move. I become aware of my hands tight in his shoulders. He makes a muffled sound. I quit my hands fast hiding hers in my pockets. He was perhaps awkward? I resume my walk to the class again.
I hear… some steps…behind me.
Slow and insecure steps. I don't look behind. If it's him, and I'm sure it's him, I will not look. If I look he will become all coward again and there's something more I don't catch well…some other feeling but…
"Please…wait"
Pitiful voice. Silly hand wrapping my shirt from behind. I don't stop to walk. If I remain well, it was like this years before. He will hesitant and grab my shirt from behind. I will not look back and not stop my walk. The two of us will walk until I stop.
It was a little strange back then for the people around us, but I never feel that wrong or bad or awkward. It was sort of a communication for us, perhaps a signal of…help.
I can't help but smile. I thought like this at that age? Incredible. No one would believe me. Me being all friendly and considerate.
Kise's hand stroke strong my shirt a second before we both enter in the class, when I look behind Kise has his two hands in front of him.
"This is some kind of joke Mr. Aomine?"
Uh. She's pissed.
"No, this is not a joke. This is him, the student I talked before. Kise?"
For a moment I think he has run again but no. When I look to my side this time, I found a new face. One of extreme confidence and lack of shame. Well, that's better I think.
Kise nodded and make a step "Hi everyone! I'm Kise…"
"…Ryouta"
Every girl of the class mouthed that name.
"K-K-KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !"
I cover my ears. WTF?. TOO LOUD.
"What the fu—I mean" I cleared my voice looking at the witch "Why is all the loud about?"
Kise started to scratch his hair all grins in his face. Why the fool it's grinning about?.
All the commotion, the loud voices, the screams, comments, faces and looks were like a BAM of hormones in the classroom. I could sensed in the air. Again I have the feeling that I was missing something. What? After all Kise it's not the great thing isn't it?
"Please Silent! Please!" The witch exclaim.
After almost ten minutes of trying to calm down the students, the silent return, a new class of silent if you know what I mean.
"Kise please sit in an empty chair please"
Kise nod and smile. I shrugged. I can't catch exact the words from my companions but clearly it seems like all the girls find Kise attractive.
He's good looking but not to this extent. It's a mystery to me. I sit staring at him. Kise sit at my side directing me a strong smile. This guy…I decide to focus on my book and try to learn something of this class.
XOX
But after two hours. I don't know a word of the class. I find that, hell, it's not easy. It's a lost battle for me try to focus when the entire class it's staring at Kise, and in consequence -cause I'm at his side- at me too.
I scratch my hair, my eyes, my nose, my neck, All!.I send a glance to Kise. He seem relaxed, calm attending the class. I can't act like him. Definitely it's getting on my nerves "Ahhh!" I'm frustrated.
When the class end Kise it's instantly wrapped by all the girls around him. To my eyes he seems still comfortable with that. I sigh and finish to get all my things with me. I step to the door thinking in meet with Satsuki. I look for my cellphone and text her:
"Sat I'm going to the food fair, where are u?
miss u"
I'm about to push the bottom when my arm it's invaded again. I almost drop my cellphone to the floor. I'm not surprised it's Kise.
What I indeed surprised it's to find all the glares of the girls honestly pissed at me. "Hey!"
I try to unlock Kise but he refuses to let me. The bunch of questions and petitions rain on us.
"Give me your autograph!"
"Neee ~have you girlfriend? Or single?"
"You are going to study here from now?"
"Ne, ne it's true that you- "
The vein in my forehead can't support more of this shit "Enough!" I roar.
"Ew, what's with you Aomine?"
"Yeah, are you perhaps with the period?"
"My gosh! I didn't know you were like that!"
"Selfish! You want Kise for you alone!"
"Mean, Selfish Aomine!"
"What?!" I blurt out "Have Kise for-?! What's going on with you people?!"
"EH?" one of the girls exclaims "You are the wrong here! Kise it's a recognized Idol and you want him playing to be the oblivious one!"
"Let Kise in peace!"
"What?!" Idol? "Kise?" I instantly look at him.
Kise give me a shy smile "I still can't believe that you didn't recognize me…"
I open my eyes wide hearing the 'Kyaaaaa' from the girls.
"Is it true?" I demanded.
Kise nodded and lean forward to my ear whispering "Can we talk in private?"
All this people, this girls around me makes me sick. It bothers me to the edge. You know right? You remember?
Kise send me a silent plea with his eyes "I know"
Puppy eyes can defeat me? 'Kyaaaaa' I heard again. Annoying.
"Aomine let him go!"
"Kise, Kise, Kise, Kise!"
"Back off" I muttered
"Eh?"
My glare it's strong and pissed, and tired and sick. Sick of all this crap, so "I said, Back off"
I don't intent to waste more my time. I grip Kise's wrist and walk fast out of corridor before more girls come. Some girls I know follow us, but I'm determinated, I grip with more force Kise's wrist and run to the green areas. Here, are people too, but they are not persons who will be pendant of us. Snooping. That's what I like this place, between the trees and the suited silent I feel calm. Kise it's still catching his breath when he look at me
"Thanks"
I nod and start to walk to the shadow of one of the trees " So, you are an Idol then?" I start.
Kise smile "Not great thing but yeah…I'm kind of that…"
"I didn't know you…"
"I notice" He cut me "I was kinda pleasant and disgusted with that"
"That's contradicting" I sigh leaning my back to the tree, putting my feet on the tree too. Kise run a hand for his hair "You still…don't know who I am?"
I frowned "You are Kise Ryouta, my childhood friend, currently an Idol, still a helpless person sometimes. I'm mistaken?"
Kise bit his lip "You're right, my fault then"
A silence grew between us. It's not like I don't have more questions. I have. But I feel that it's not the time and the right place to put it on the table. Also, it seems to me that we are doing a big deal of this. And it's not. We were years ago childhood friends who play together, eat together, talk together, do all together. That kind of friends, we both have more friends around of course but not with a bond so intimate like us. It feel good have a friend like him. When he go to Europe I miss him more of what I could thought in that time, At first I ask my parents to send my cards to him and for a while we get to communicate like that. He was the one who one day stop to answer me. I didn't know why. I still don't know but it seems like with the time I forgot about him.
Knowing that he's an idol now it was kind of a surprise, I remember him being pretty shy in that time, behind my back, I didn't think he was a coward by that. In fact I always have the feeling that he was covering my back. Maybe he being an idol it's not so out of this world, it's just me and my thoughts of him being a child what still don't let me accustomed with the change.
"Aomine…"
"Huh?" I look down distracted with the memories of my childhood hanging on my mind, I find his eyes and lips close to me. The feeling I've before it's again struggling in my stomach, why the closeness? Why the suggestive voice calling my name? I'm the type of guy who will not blink to take what I want when I want it. Even when I was a kid I was like that. He know. Why the temptation then?
"Kise" I warned him.
Kise swallowed, one of his hands touch my neck caressing me. Is this a game?
"Aomine…"
I take good care of the change in his hazel eyes glazed, the husky voice, the impatient tilting in that face. I look away.
"Please…" He's so cute. I raise my hands to grip his shoulders and stop him to tease my lips.
"What are you doing?"I ask "This is the first day we seen each other after so long…"
Kise it's still biting his lip, I can see that shade of pain again.
"You are not fine at all" I confirm "Something happen?"
Kise look at my lips, eyes lost. I should be the one lost here.
"Please, let me…"
I tense my grip "I would not let you, furthermore I can't"
"Why? I just want a kiss, it means nothing"
I frowned "It means something to me"
"Something it's not much right? So?" Kise shows me a tiny smile.
"No, I said no" My tone doesn't permit more petitions
Kise look down, his fingers trembling a bit in my neck. He try to lean again and I almost buried my nails in his shoulders "Kise" I'm warning him for the second time.
"Hush" he muttered silly "I don't intent to kiss you this time just…" His forehead fall to mine vulnerable and dejected. He just want sometime to re-coordinate himself. Yet I know he is not telling me all. I'm his friend, I can't support him like something more but like a friend I can "You're forehead it's warmth" I really concerned "Maybe it's better if you take some pill to prevent a flu"
Kise shake slightly his head, letting his forehead fall to my shoulder.
"You don't look fine, really" I whisper.
"Don't worry" He muffled against my shoulder "There is plenty of people who will take care for my health"
"Mm. You don't sound convincing"
"No? Perhaps if you kiss me my fever will go"
I smile "I said no"
"Before we used…"
"I know" I replied softly "But we were kids" I raise my hand and caress his cheek for a pair of seconds "That time pass, and you have to admit that that was strange"
Kise smile against my neck .A shiver run for my chin "You have to admit that that felt good"
"Moron" I intent to get him away "It's no good for you if someone take a photo or something of us" Kise sigh and inhaled happily against my neck. He's such a brat.
"C'mon Kise" I caress his shoulders again more decided.
"Aominecchi"
"Uh-uh I will not surrender by that"
"Fool" Kise chuckle.
I smile loudly. We find recently three, four hours ago and I felt like the time hasn't stop for us, even if we both have changed.
"Aomine?!"
I froze in the spot and in seconds throw Kise away from me.
"Sat?"
She frowned "What are you doing here?"
I straight my body and walk to her closing her body between my arms "Sorry I didn't text you"
"It's Ok…" She said relaxing "But what are you doing here?"
She tries to see behind me but I didn't let her. Shit what I was thinking before? "I come here to talk with a friend"
She tries again to rise his head and see but that's…well, impossible. I'm very tall.
She sigh getting frustrated "Let me see Aomine!"
I see her black sweet eyes staring at me. She's right. Why I should not let her see him? I let her then walk to my side with my arm around her waist.
"Satsuki this is Kise"
Kise was in front of us recomposed with that smile of self-confidence.
"Kise this is my girlfriend Satsuki"
Sat open her mouth and close it. "What? Kise? OMG you look so much like him…you can't be? You are the same Kise Ryouta?
Kise gave a nod. She smile enthusiastically "You are just like the pictures…like an angel"
Kise laugh and she smile sweetly "Oh sorry! I-" She flushed "I didn't mean to sound like an stupid!" she look at me and caress my palm "Of course the only angel for me is Aomine"
"Gosh" I smile kissing her hand. Then we both look at Kise. I find another glimpse of pain in those eyes before he look at us. I stop to smile and caress with a bit of more force Sat's hand.
She was still smiling "My cousin will love to have an autograph of you in one of her CD's"
"CD's?" I blurt out "I didn't know you were a singer?" I exclaimed.
Satsuki and Kise laugh together. "He's really oblivious sometimes" Sat said.
Kise look to the grama "He is indeed"
"Well, sorry if I didn't know. It didn't pass for my mind ask"
"Huh" Sat look again at me "But you must have know or hear about him, he really it's popular and well, when he sings…he have a kind of sexy voice" Sat blushed.
Oh she was so sweet. I stare at her smile, his pink gracious lips. Distracted I repeat "Sexy voice?"
Kise answer "Yeah, well, that's…after all I'm the lead singer of Masochist Desire, I have to sing like that, I really enjoy sing"
I still looking at Sat when my mind have a shock. Ma-so-chist Desire?
I froze "What?!"
I was affected by an expression much more touching, a look of the deepest sympathy and of the softest pity.
Why was I afraid to throw myself at her feet?
Why did I not dare to take her in my arms, and answer her by a thousand kisses?
She had recourse to her piano for relief, and in a low and sweet voice accompanied the music with delicious sounds.
Her lips never appeared so lovely: they seemed but just to open, that they might imbibe the sweet tones which issued from the instrument, and return the heavenly vibration from her lovely mouth.
Oh! Who can express my sensations?
I was quite overcome, and, bending down, pronounced this vow: "Beautiful lips, which the angels guard, never will I seek to profane your purity with a kiss."
And yet I wish—but my heart is darkened by doubt and indecision—
¡It has raised a wall in my soul! You see?
Could I but taste felicity, and then die to expiate the sin… What sin?
Another thing. This last words are from the book: The sorrows of the young Werther. Let's said that some of the songs of Masochist Desire are inspired by that book. Don't sue me!