Warnings; Slash, Swearing.

Characters; James Potter, Severus Snape, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, Peter Pettigrew, Lily Evans – Later Draco Malfoy, Harry Potter.

Shows; Harry Potter

Disclaimer; I can safety say I don't own Harry Potter (Even if I wish really, really hard)

Plot; Does Snape really like Lily?

James paced the library numerous times – yes he had to apologize to Lily he knew that but what exactly could he say.

Times like this he really needed Moony, but he preferred not to get the Marauders involved. Especially Sirius, he couldn't handle that right now.

"Just tell her the truth" Came the smooth voice from behind a book about Potions. James spun around and hissed slightly.

"The truth! The bloody truth" Severus nodded

"The longer you wait the worse it'll get"

"Like you know" Severus growled softly.

"Yes I just so happened to have a fall out with Lily and because I had no balls she hates me" James sighed.

"She wouldn't hate me! I'm her boyfriend"

"Yeah and I was her best friend" they stared at each other incredulously for a while. "Just go to her and tell her the truth, she obviously heard what you said – is that actually true?" James shrugged slightly.

"Mostly yeah."

"You're dating Lily Evans because you want to get her in pants" Severus began to sound angry. James rounded on him again.

"Shut up, you called her a Mudblood" Severus scowled "You can't have a go at me for wanting something off my girlfriend"

"You'd better treat her right James Potter" James frowned "Don't even consider using Lily Evans" Severus said standing and pointing at James anger growing instead of him.

"You have no right to comment on my relationship" they glared at each other

"Look the longer you wait the worse it'll get" James nodded slightly then pouted.

"How about we make a deal?" Severus nodded intrigued "You give me advice on Lily – Not that I need it" he added quickly "But if you do that, I'll stop the Marauders annoying you" Severus began considering it.

"No jokes about erections, my studies or anything" James bit his lip groaning inwardly.

"No jokes what-so-ever" he looked at Severus in the eyes.

"And you want – not that you need – my help with Lily" James nodded

"Yeah" he hesitated then put his hand out. Severus looked at him then connected his hand.

"No go backs James Potter"

"What do you take me for Sni- Severus" Severus smiled softly and shook his and James hand.

"Now go and apologize to her" James nodded and ran out the library leaving a slightly giddy Severus to collect his books.

"Lily listen to me babe, I'm sorry" she glared at James as she walked down the hallways. She had her books pressed against her chest and was walking with a purpose.

"Oh Lily"

"NO shut up James. You're just dating me to get into my pants well I'm not having that I'm a person not a object which you can fuck then run and whisper to your friends about it" James sighed then had to run to catch up to her.

"I'm sorry love, I just – sometimes I'm a dick – my brain is in my dick"

"Yeah it is" she stopped and looked at him. "James I thought you liked me, actually liked me. But you're just like all the other boys just wanting a fuck" James went to say something "No, don't argue. I've heard the way you talk to your friends, always like girls are objects. James I was actually beginning to really like you" James sighed

"You've ruined your chance with me" He closed his eyes then nodded as she walked away.

"Lily I love you" she spun around and looked at James.

"Don't say it if you don't mean it James Potter"

"But I do mean it Lily. I love you" he connected their eyes "I always have Lily, you are the smile that I fall asleep and wake up with, you are the sun on a rainy day, you are beautiful and you make me smile. I love you Lily Potter – Evans" he stammered

A little smile flickered on her face then she blushed.

"Do you mean it James" James nodded

"I mean it, and I feel stupid that I've never said it before"

"James don't play me around" James shook his head

"I swear to you I'm not" she smiled and basically pranced on him smoothing him with kisses.

"So did she forgive you?" Severus asked as he finished sealing an envelope, James nodded as he stroked the owl's nose that'd send Severus' letter.

"Yeah, I told her I loved her" he said quietly wanting to see his new acquaintances reaction. Severus looked up shocked then wrote his parents name on the envelope.

"I don't recall me telling you to say that" James shrugged slightly.

"It just came out"

"Do you mean it?" James nodded softly

"I think so" Severus looked at him then stood taking the owl and whispering something to it. He then turned back to James.

"You think so?" James nodded as Severus raised an eyebrow at him. "Why, if you only think so did you tell her that" James frowned.

"Because I do think I love her more than I don't. And anyway, if you love someone shouldn't you tell them" James said connecting his and Severus' eye line, Severus gulped.

"Have you never liked someone so much that you just had to tell them?" Severus gulped again as James looked at him. James softly rested his hand on Severus.

"Isn't there someone who you just love, who you want to grab hold and kiss them whenever you see them?" Severus looked at James and nodded slowly

"Oh do they have a name?" He wasn't just going to presume it was a girl. Severus nodded again absently.

"Are you going to tell me" Severus shook his head, James frowned. "Sorry am I being nosey again? Lily told me I need to work on that" Severus managed a quiet laugh.

"It's not that it's just embarrassing" James raised an eyebrow.

"Guy?" Severus nodded softly "Eh its fine, I'm pretty sure Peter's leaning that way" Severus' eyes widened.

"And you?" he said then instantly regretted it. James frowned

"Well I've never thought about it – if I'm honestly well honest" Severus smiled slightly as James frowned.

"Why do you ask?" Severus shrugged softly.

"Pure curiosity" James raised an eyebrow at him then shrugged slightly.

"Go on, you can trust me right" he then laughed "Well you know what I mean?" Severus nodded softly then laughed

"No, James of all people I can't tell you"

"Is it one of the Marauders?" Severus nodded – it was going to get out at some point so he might as well give up now.

"Oh aye – well it can't be Sirius – I know that for a fact" Severus frowned "Believe me I know it for a fact" Severus laughed softly.

"So it's either Peter or Remus" Severus frowned "What?" Severus shook his head "Well it can't be me – I mean come on" Severus laughed quietly.

"Oh can I have a clue" Severus rolled his eyes resting his head on the table and head butting it

"Christ Potter can't you just leave it?" James laughed.

"No, I'm intrigued now" Severus rolled his eyes – well he asked for it. He pulled James by his tie and kissed him, sighing from the unbelievable amount of relief and finally being able to taste James Potter. James' eyes widened as Severus gulped, he stood and ran out the owlery leaving a gawping James behind.