I stare down into the swirling water below me.
"Do it", says a voice in my head, "everyone will be better off without you." I try not to believe it but I know that it's true. If it wasn't for me, none of this would have happened. My parents, Will, Marlene, Lynn, Fernando, they would all still be alive. It is my entire fault that Shauna is going to be in a wheelchair for the rest of her life and that Hector will grow up without his sister. Uriah and Christina will always hate me a little bit for not saving Will and Marlene.
I made decisions that weren't mine to make. Why should I deserve to live? Why am I still alive? I should have died in the attack, or at the Erudite compound. But I didn't. What do I have to live for anyway? My parents are dead, because of me, and my brother is a traitor who was happy to watch me die. I still have Tobias at least, but I don't deserve him. He is too good for me and I am too bad for him. His mother hates me anyway, why shouldn't I give her what she wants? Everyone will be much happier if I am dead.
I look down at the churning mass of black and blue below me. I can't believe how much of a coward I am being. I am Dauntless, I am brave. I should just do it and make everyone happier.
I climb over the railing and I do it.
I jump.