Chapter Eight

I Screwed Up

I was still sort of shocked from what happened at the party. I wasn't really mad at Tyler I was just kind of freaked out. I couldn't believe he kissed me, which was the most surprising part. And some of the stuff he had said, I mean drunken words are sober thoughts. So did he actually mean those things?

I had been spending a lot of time with Matt. He was so funny, he was nice, and I think I liked him. He called me almost every night and we aren't even dating. He would call me just to make sure I was okay, or to just hear my voice. He said some of the sweetest things in the world to me. He said things that no other guy had ever said to me.

Tyler stopped by my house three days after the party. I hadn't seen, heard from, or talked to him since then. He knocked on my door loudly and I rushed to the door. I was hoping that it would be Matt since we were hanging out today. I opened the door with a wide smile on my face ready to let him in. But the person at the door surprised me. It was Tyler standing with a piece of paper in his hand and a sad look on his face. I started to shut the door but he put his hand on it to stop me from closing it.

"Look, I'm sorry, about all those things that happened at the party." He looked at me with a desperate look. He sighed and continued. "I was drunk and I really didn't mean to offend you, or hurt you, or make you feel uncomfortable."

"Its fine Tyler," I lied. He caught on to my lie and looked me straight in the eyes.

"No its not," he said looking away from my gaze. "It was inappropriate and I shouldn't have done it." I just looked at him not really knowing what to say. He inhaled deeply.

"You know, I've got plans today and-"I started but he cut me off.

"With Matt?" He had a touch of jealousy in his voice. He pointed towards the street. "Actually I've got to go." His tone was almost harsh, and his face was tinged red. I knew it upset him that I was paying so much attention to anybody but him. He wasn't the only guy in my life and really all he was to me was my best guy friend that I grew up with.