~Explode~
~Chapter 6: I won't let you fall apart~
"Your eyes are so curious." Hanna whispers with a sly tone to Emily.
Emily returns with just a smug look on her face, both of her hands resting on her kneecaps. Her back tense with nervousness. Every couple of minutes her fingers twitch, and she takes a deep breath. It actually just feels like she isn't breathing at all. Like she cant absorb any air, the only thing her body absorbs is Hanna's precious gaze, and her honey scent. She closes her eyes to make the image vanish long enough to actually let her think. Her thoughts capture her previous sight, and now Hanna is in her head, she is spreading throughout her, and she can't stop it.
"I...I can't do this, don't look at me." Emily blurts out, her eyes still squeezed shut.
Hanna's eyes go wide and dilate to the presence of this insane but cute Emily. She smiles and nods though she knows Emily isn't looking.
"Can I at least still talk to you?" Hanna asks with no sharp edge in her voice, all is smooth and it makes Emily shake.
"Ye...yes, but please..."
"Please what?"
"Don't talk so calmly."
"Why?"
"I AM TRYING TO RESIST YOU!"
"Oh" "I'm sorry"
"Don't be I need to tell you this anyway."
"What is it?"
"I am with Spence now so I can't be in love with you anymore."
"When did that happen?"
"Last night."
"I don't know what to say."
"Say you understand and that you won't love me anymore either."
"How can I?"
"I don't know just figure it out. I don't want to hurt Spence."
"I understand and respect that but I can't fall out of love with you."
"Why, why can't you? I need you to."
"It can't happen. I can't just out of thin space make my heart get rid of you. Me and you have something rather you want to admit it or not, it's here. Here with us in this very room, in the very space between us."
"But I feel that way for Spence."
"You feel it for me too, before her. Now you are going to replace me."
"You have Caleb, I have felt replaced for as long as I can. I want someone I can call mine too."
"IS THAT WHAT THIS IS ABOUT! YOU KNOW IN A HEARTBEAT I WOULD DROP HIM FOR YOU!"
"I DON'T WAN'T YOU TO HANNA!" "HE, he deserves you he is a nice guy and he loves you with every bit that he has. Don't hurt him for me."
"Do you really want to leave me?"
"I will still be here, just not in the same sense."
"Ok, but I still will never stop loving you."
"I wonder how you have so much love. You love three people that must be so exhausting. Because even though you have one the other two are still there in the corner of your heart. Me and Mona."
"Yeah and every moment I recognize myself as selfish for that."
"You aren't selfish, just full of love that you need to express."
"Am I betraying them and you."
"No, they understand, I understand."
Hanna hugs Emily, it's painful and at the same time full of relief for the both of them.
"You need to tell Mona that you still care about what you two had. I am sure she already forgives you. She is just waiting for you to say something."
Hanna nods and whispers back
"I really do miss Mona"
"I know Hanna I know, I feel it."
The embrace slowly breaks apart but the emotions don't. Their emotions still deep beneath the both of them. In total silence Emily walks out through the front door, with no expression on her face. But Hanna can tell that everything is hidden. She doesn't bother to follow behind, it will only make things worst.
While Emily walks home Hanna is still in her living room, gripping the edge of her couch. As she falls apart.
"Then I know you feel this." Hanna whispers to an Emily that isn't there.
Emily's legs give out on her and she falls to her knees, her hands splay across the concrete. The ground soaks up her tears. She manages to whimper out a weak cry to herself.
"Yes I do, I do feel this."