Emily's Diary
9/7/10
Dear Diary,
How could this have happened? Girls like Alison just don't go missing in Rosewood. Especially on a regular night in the Hastings's barn. All of yesterday I had a strange feeling, like something wasn't right. Part of the reason was probably that I felt guilty about the note I sent Alison. As soon as I sent it I knew it was a mistake. In case you didn't know, I'm in love with Alison Dilaurentis. That's right, me Emily Fields, the sweet girl that can do no wrong. The only person who knows about these feeling is Alison herself. She found out when I kissed her in the library. She was totally leading me on, and no matter how hard I try, I can't resist her. Ever since then she has been teasing me about my crush on her. She makes me feel terrible about myself sometimes, which is why I wrote the note telling her how angry she makes me. All of last night I was worried she would say something to me about it,but she never did. This leads me to believe she never read the note, and she probably never will. Even though Alison upsets me so much, she has this power over me. I feel obligated to do whatever she says, even when I don't want to. Allie knows how I feel about her, and she continues to use me because of it. Alison also always makes jokes in front of other people, hinting at my biggest secret. We were all siting in the Hasting's barn drinking the tequila Hanna stole when Alison said something that really upset me.
" Allie, have you downloaded the new Beyonce?" Hanna asked Alison.
" No, not yet." She answered.
" I'm loving her new video." I said.
" Maybe a little to much Em." Allie teased.
I giggled nervously even though Alison's words stung.
" You okay Em?" Aria asked.
" I'm fine." I replied.
That has been happening a lot lately. Alison says something about one of our secrets that only one of us understands. That person looks hurt, while everyone else just looks confused. I tried to shake Allie's teasing off and enjoy the rest of the evening. Later that night Allie disappeared from the sleepover. The other girls acted as if nothing was wrong. I tried to come across the same way, but deep inside I knew something was wrong. Everyone's behavior continued when Alison didn't return the next morning.
" What are we going to do? Allie still isn't home, and her mom keeps calling me." Spencer said.
" Isn't it obvious girls? We cover for her." Hanna replied.
" I'm not so sure that's such a good idea." I said nervously.
" What do you mean?" Aria asked.
" What if something's actually wrong." I explained.
" Nothing's wrong. Allie told me herself, she went to hang out with people way cooler then us." Spencer said rolling her eyes.
" Emily may be right Spence. Alison hasn't answered any of our texts or calls." Aria jumped in.
" I don't see why you're all so worried about Alison when she could care less about any of us." Spencer said.
" That's not true." I say trying to stand up for Allie.
Next door the Dilaurentis's new gazeebo was being built. All of the sudden I felt sick.
" Allie is going to love that gazeebo." I said.
Before I could stop myself, tears started to stream down my face.
" Are you seriously crying right now Emily." Spencer said, making me cry more.
" Lay off of her." Aria said angrily.
" Shut up Aria." Hanna snapped.
All of us stormed off in the direction of our houses. Now I know that the other girls were only acting bitchy because they were worried about Alison, just like me. When nobody had heard from Alison by noon, police were called. The police questioned each of us individually. I was nervous that if they found my note, I would look guilty. I wonder if I'll ever see Allie again. Wherever she went, she took a piece of me with her. Alison is my first love, and I know I'll never be completely over her. I wish with all of my heart that she is safe.
Sincerely,
Emily Fields.