CPOV

Dear Clary,

How have you been? It has seemed like forever since I got a letter from you and vice versa even though it only had to be a few days ago. God, there is so much I want to say, but I guess I'll start with what's on my mind. I have been given a great honor and if it would have come before I met you I wouldn't have to think twice about it. Every time I get a letter my happiness shoots through the roof, I can imagine us together, hell, I can even picture my future with you. I don't know Clary…

Today I got offered to take Lt. Peter's place on the team. He is being honorably discharger soon and someone is needed to take his place. You can't imagine how big this is for me especially with me only being in the Army three years. Usually it takes five or more. I want this I really do, but I also don't want to take it and have to wait even more time to see you. Tell me Clary, what do I do…?

Sometimes it is hard to believe that you are real. I mean, you like the same foods and movies. We have the same interest in music plus you can dress up or dress down which is a major plus! ;) Sometimes I think, "This girl is to amazing to be real." then I get a letter from you and my world slows down because you are! You astound me Clary and I bet you don't even know it.

Ok, now that I have ranted I'll answer some of your questions you left at the bottom and I shall number them by P.S'.! ;)

P.S. Uhhhh… Stuff I need… I do need some more razors, shaving cream, and a couple pairs of boxers wouldn't hurt. If you wouldn't mind I need some shampoo, conditioner, and body wash. I think that is it…

P.P.S. Haha! Well do Clary, well do!

P.P.P.S. Same for the people in the squad minus the boxers. I am NOT about to ask about that. That is just way to much. I can already imagine how that would go…

Me: "Hey Clary wanted to know if you needed for boxers?"

Solider: "Hey man, what you do is your business."

*walks away quickly, palm to forehead*

P.P.P.P.S I'll try Clary to make sure I write back really, really and make sure you do too!

Your Man In Uniform,

Jace

My heart sped up as I read his closing. My man? Was he joking or was he serious? God, how I hoped he was serious. Just the thought sends my stomach doing somersaults. Goodness! If it was this bad just through letters then what happens when the web cam things rolls again and then seeing him in person. I don't think my poor little heart can take that. I folded the letter carefully back into the envelope and set into the box I choose just for Jace's letter and anything that I wanted to give/show him when he got there. Like, if I saw a place that I wanted to visit with him I would write it down on an index card and stick it in the box with the letters. Right now I had five places that I wanted to visit, but I couldn't recall them off the top of my head. I would have to look when I got home.

Aside from his ending the other thing that troubled me was the beginning of the letter. I get what he was saying, but that doesn't stop my selfish side coming out and making him want to come back as soon as possible. I couldn't help but be scared out of my skin for his life and about the fact that if he did die we would never get to meet. As selfish as it is that is just the way I feel. I didn't know what I was going to tell him when I wrote back, but I resolved to think on it later. Right now, I had some serious shopping to do. I skipped all the way to getting my keys, putting on my shoes, grabbing my purse and cell phone, and getting into my car and even then I hummed a tuneless song until I walked through the Wal-Mart automatic doors. If you don't know where to find something go to Wal-Mart. They have everything.

I grabbed a buggy and threw my purse into it. My first stop was the men's clothing. As I was looking at the men's clothes it dawned on me that I never got his size. I bit my lip as I looked at that sizes they had before decided to go with the silk boxers that looked they would fit him and if they didn't , hey, I tried, I really did, but I was pretty sure they would. My next stop was hygiene. I got ten sticks of deodorant, an electric razor for Jace, disposable razors and I think about fifteen, I think, cans of shaving cream. By the time I was done I was really proud of myself.

I had even managed to buy Jace some of the music CD he liked. I picked up a portable CD player for him too so he could listen to it. I made sure to get some extra batteries for it to that way he could always use it. It cost my around fifty dollars, but it was the best fifty dollars I ever spent that's for sure!

When I left Wal-Mart and got home I felt really accomplished. I had a good feeling that the soldiers would really appreciate all the stuff I am sending them. I had already got a package box from the Post Office the day before so right when I got home I packed sealed, addressed, and promised myself I would send it tomorrow along with Jace's letter that I was going to write tonight. I put the package by my desk that way I wouldn't forget to mail the letter with it. Not that I think I would ever do that, but just to be saved. I rubbed my hands together as I walked into the kitchen and searched my cabinet for something to eat.

I finally found some quick meals and the back and decided to cook them: quick, simple, and easy. I gasped as I caught sight of the date that was on the calendar that was hung next to my row of cabinets. The date circled made me freeze: Saturday, September 20, 2012. I dropped the package onto the stove and leaned against it. Had time really flew that fast. It couldn't have already been a month since I started talking to Jace. It seemed like so little compared to that month. I glanced back at the calendar. Yep, still circled and it doesn't look like it moving. I breathed deep and started the noodles before something else dawned on me.

If today was Saturday then that means that in, I counted mentally in my head, three days I will see Jace on web cam. I smiled, squealed, and poured the noodles into the boiling water all in the same movement. I was ridiculous excited. I could barely taste the noodles as I rushed through them that way I could get to writing Jace sooner. When I was finished I threw the bowl in the sink without washing it which is something I rarely do. I am a neat freak to the highest degree.

When I began writing to Jace I could barely hold the pen because I was shaking so much, but I was determined to tell him everything on my mind and everything I thought of the position he had been offered. It took a whole three pages, front and back, to do it and I didn't get it down until almost 10:30, but I was so proud as I carefully sealed it with his package and crawled into bed.

Tuesday would be here before I know it, but I couldn't wait to see my Army man. It didn't dawn on me until the sleep pulled me under that I called him my man when he wasn't mine, but I knew in the deep parts of my mind that was my desire. I wanted him to be all mine. I just hope he wants the same thing for me. God, how I hoped.

-X-X-X-

JPOV

It wasn't a few days after I sent my letter to Clary that I got a response back with a package with it. I smiled and shook my head when I saw how much stuff she bought. I knew the guys' would like everything she got. They liked her already and they didn't even know her. Apparently she made me more "happy". Whatever the hell that means. I mean, really, I don't know when my squad became such pansies. I set the box aside with a promise to give it to the guys later. Right now, I wanted to read her letter. This was the longest one she has ever wrote, almost four pages, and I was excited to read every bit of it.

Dear Jace,

I miss you. That seems weird doesn't it since I haven't even met you, but I do, so, so much. I don't think I could possible explain it. I am so scared Jace. You want to know that worst part? The only one that can qualm this fears is you and you are thousands miles away. Have you ever wanted something so bad that you would go to the ends of the earth to get it? You would walk through war and fire to touch it, feel it, just once, if at all. Even if you can't touch it, even you could just see it, it would all be wroth it Jace.

You're my everything.

I don't even know how that is possible. In a little over month you have managed to consume my thoughts, take over my decisions, and take everything I do relate back to you. Everything I buy, look at, write, every person I look or talk too you're there Jace and, honestly speaking, I don't think you are going away any time soon. I wish I could see your face, to hear your voice, to hold your hands Simple things Jace, I yearn for your presence. God, I sound like such a woman… I don't know how else to explain to you, to let you understand all the emotions running through my head now. I hope you understand Jace, how I hope…

When I read your last letter and got to the part about Lt. Peter I had the most selfish thought. It would so easy to tell you I wanted you to say, 'No, I don't want to do it.', but that would be wrong. Jace you have worked so hard for this and you deserve it. Just please… promise me… you'll come back. I don't know what I would do if I found out you were dead. I don't even know you as a person, but I would never be the same if you were gone. You're a part of me Jace. Such a huge part and that scares me. I have never needed anybody. I mean sure, I have friends and family, but they can't send my heartbeat stuttering every time I see your name signed in the perfectly messy scrawl of yours. How every time I think of your lips on mine my face heats up and my whole body flushes with warmth. They could never have that effect on me Jace and you do. I don't know how, but you do. I want you close Jace, I want you right here beside me, but I know that is impossible.

That is why I am so excited about Tuesday. I bet you are so handsome. You are going to the one that my eyes seek out as soon as the picture comes in and I hope that you can find me. I hope I didn't scare you away and I hope that you choose to keep talking to me because I really love talking to you. Well, I have to go. Write back if you want and if you don't I'll understand, truly I will, but please, for my sake, write back…

Until Tuesday And With Love ,

Clary Fray 3

My hands shook as I folded the letter back up and stashed it in my part. I knew what I had to do, to say to her, but first I need to see Valentine. We had some very important things to talk about and when were done I had some very important things I had to write. This letter could kill me, but for Clary I would lay down my life because now… I think I love her and I think she could feel the same way.

A/N: Leave me some love! Next chapter: The video chat, the talk between Jace and Valentine, and both Clary and Jace's reaction to the letter. Hang onto your seat peoples' because the ride about to go up hill… fast! J Don't forget to review, favorite, and alert. It makes me happy!