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Summary: All she wanted was to forget all her memories and forget him. Hatori erases Kagura's memories allowed by Akito for an unknown reason. Will she remember her love for Kyo or fall for someone else? ((SPOILERS))

Losing my One Treasure: Chapter 1

Kagura

It all started on that one day. A day that would change my whole life forever. Of course I had no idea that this day would completely change me since I didn't expect anything out of it. Just a normal day of me chasing Kyo around the house like a cat chases after a mouse. Except I was the cat and he was the mouse…and it was more love than attacking. Well in my view, it was only me showing how much I was in love, but for Kyo it was torture.

So my Friday, began me waking up to chirping birds in the morning which I always loved waking up to. I change into my normal school uniform and eating my breakfast quickly which always gets interrupted by my mom's rude comments on my bad eating habits. What can she expect? I'm the boar after all.

I rush out the door, forgetting to say bye to my mother and Rin. Not like Rin cares either way if I say bye or not. Even though Rin was always annoyed by me, I always kept a smile on my face around her. We are friends even though she's very secretive about her feelings and emotions. I can deal with it.

I ran faster, pushing the Sohma's main front door with all my might. You see today, I was very happy since I was going to go straight to Gure's house after school and that cheered me up since my classes were so boring. All through class, I was daydreaming about Kyo-kun and how I was going to be able to see his smile. Kyo…Kyo…Kyo…Kyo. That's all I thought about in class.

After my college classes, I went to Gure's house before the three teenagers were home from school yet.

I knocked on the front door of Gure's house and waited patiently as he came to the door.

"Ah. Kagura, how nice to see you. The little kids aren't back from school yet, but you can keep me company." I nodded and let myself in the house.

I followed Shigure to the dining table and sat across from him. He seemed to be interested in the newspaper and didn't seem to notice I was there. I stared down at my hands; fingers pressed together, making weird movements.

I soon got distracted and looked up at the clock. I watched as the second hand moved slowly to the numbers…It felt like it was going so slow just for me. Torturing me with its slowness and making me angrier by the second.

My earswent up as I heard giggling and footsteps near the house. I smiled cheerfully and ran to the door to greet my friends.

The first thing I saw was these depressed and dazed lilac eyes that stared straight through me. I stood, frozen. Did I do something to Yuki? He gave me a briefsmile and went upstairs without saying hi. Ok! This is annoying me! Did I do something? Maybe it was something I said or did on my last visit? But I don't remember anything.

Tohru and Kyo soon followed in the door, laughing and smiling at each other. My gaze went to down to their sides where their hands were in each others. It then came to me. Yuki wasn't holding Tohru's hand and why was he distant from them? Something happened.

Tohru let go of Kyo's hand as soon as her eyes met mine. She hid her face from embarrassment and watched as Kyo went to the dining room where Shigure was. She then turned her gaze back to me and smiled sweetly.

"Kagura-chan! I didn't know you were coming so early! Are you staying for dinner?" I nodded giving her a questioning look, but she ignored it.

"Uh…Tohru. What's going on?" I thought about how Yuki's eyes looked and Tohru's and Kyo's weird behavior.

"Oh…yes. I have to tell you something. I'll tell you in my room." She seemed distracted and I followed her up to her room in silence. She seemed overexcited and hurried me in her room.

Tohru started pacing around her room, and I just sat on her bed…waiting…waiting….waiting…waiting…and then finally she decided to say something.

"This is big news and I told Kyo that I would tell you. So…" I looked up at her, raising an eyebrow and she paused for a bit before shrieking the "big" news.

"Kyo and I are in love!" She stood there, giving me that dorky smile of hers and I just stared up at her. I didn't know if my mouth was open or not, or if I was doing anything. I felt like bursting into tears, but I held it in. What was I expecting? Tohru telling me that she was moving out of Shigure's house, or saying Kyo-kun was in love with me? I knew it was coming…but I didn't expect it so soon. I mean it's been a year or maybe longer since Tohru came into our life's and I guess I was waiting till she at least said something after they graduated or something…

But why now? Or another question? Why Kyo-kun? Why couldn't she pick Yuki or maybe even Momiji? Or did she think about how this was going to affect me or even Yuki? But of course she doesn't know about Yuki and his feelings. But she obviously knew about mine since she first met me. But I couldn't ask any of these questions or she'll probably break down and cry. So I did what I thought was right.

I stood up and hugged her. I guess she was surprised that I actually hugged her, but I couldn't think of anything else to do.

"Wow Tohru. I'm so happy for you and Kyo-kun. I mean it finally happened." I stepped back to look at her and give her one of my fake, but most believable smiles.

She seemed relieved that I didn't throw a tantrum or slap her and she smiled back at me.

"I can't wait to tell everyone else. I mean it feels so right. I feel so happy and relieved that you're happy and not angry at me. Well your not angry with me…are you Kagura-chan?" Tohru looked at me with those light-up eyes and I shook my head.

"No way!" I paused for a bit and started up again. "I guess I'll go." I started walking to the door, but Tohru's miserable voice struck me.

"Why are you going so soon? I thought you were staying for dinner and telling me about your exciting week." I turned to her puppy eyes and I nibbled on my lower lip.

"Mom's coming back home early from work and I promised that I would come home early. Mom's and all." I smiled back then I felt angry at myself for talking about my mom around Tohru. I frowned at Tohru and looked down.

"I'm sorry, Tohru. I didn't mean to…I mean…" I looked up and she just smiled as if nothing happened.

"It's alright. Mom is still here with me and she's always in my heart. But…there's someone else I love, but I hope she understands that i still love her." Tohru had her hand over her heart and I felt anger coming on. I decided I better leave before I say something I regret.

I reached for the doorknob but Tohru says something to stop me again.

"You're coming to the picnic tomorrow, right? It would mean a lot to me and the others. It wouldn't be as much fun if your not there." I looked down and replied yes before rushing out of the room.

I leaned against the door, controlling my deep breathing. Tohru…why do you have to be so perfect and not have a devil side? Why can't I be like you so that Kyo would at least look at me with respect? But I probably deserve this for what happened in the past. That day I saw Kyo in his third form and I ran away and I didn't think about how alone he was. I know I told him on our date and he accepted my apology. But it probably wasn't enough.

And I remember. He even told me he would never love me like I love him. I'm trying to accept it, but I can't. I'm so selfish and I can't accept that he loves someone else. I'm such a terrible person. I lied to my friend that I felt happy for her…but really inside. I'm screaming and slowing my heart is breaking in two. It feels like my whole world is falling apart now that their together and there's nothing I can do about it…

It's too late. I tried to win his heart over and over again…but I'm not good enough for Kyo. Even if I tried to be like Tohru, he still wouldn't fall in love with me. He has the "real" Tohru and he doesn't need me.

I felt tears running down my cheeks and my whole body was trembling with sadness. Kyo-kun…why couldn't you love me? At least have given me a chance? Am I that monstrous? That terrible? Believe me whatever is wrong with me…you could have told me…and I would have changed just for you.

"Kagura-nee?" I looked over at the dark figure, walking towards me. I didn't reply to my name, but instead I put my hands over my face. No. Please don't see me like this. I'm so weak and angry at myself…

I didn't know what to do…so I followed my first instinct and ran from Yuki and everyone in that house. I ran knowing that it was rude to leave and not talk about my feelings to him. But I couldn't talk anymore about my feelings. I did that my whole life. Telling Kyo that I loved him more than anything…but he just walked away. He walked away from me and my fantasy of being with the one person I ever loved.

My surroundings became visible and I could tell that I was now around the main house. I didn't know where I was going. My mind was dead and only my feet told where to go. I found myself at Hatori's office. I stared at the man who seemed so occupied on work and I finally decided to knock.

He looked up and walked up to me, staring blankly at me. I cleared my throat and started throwing all this stuff about how much I loved Kyo and how I felt about Tohru and Kyo together. It was a huge mess, but he just stood there listening to everything that came out of my mouth.

When I was all done, I caught my breath and waited for him to say something. He sighed and walked over to his desk, massaging his temples. I slowly walked up to his desk, still patiently waiting for an answer.

"I can't do this anymore! I mean when I wake up, it's because I know I'll be able to see Kyo and show him my love. Now that his with someone else, I can't survive without him. I need him and I can't live without him." I can feel tears forming in my eyes, but I held steady.

"So you want your memory erased?" He looked at me, concerned. I nodded confident that I could do anything. He sighed and shook his head.

"No! I won't allow it. It's part of life. You have to accept their love for each other and hopefully move on." He stood up from his chair, and angrily looked down on me.

"You don't understand! I'm not like you! I can't just forget about Kyo-kun just like that because I love him." I started crying, but I kept speaking through my sniffles. "That's why I want some help from you. I want you to erase everything about Kyo. That memory where I ran away from him, the reason I became his friend, and why I became to love him. I want you to take my love from Kyo. I can't bare it anymore! I stopped yelling at Hatori and fell to my knees.

Hatori looked straight past me and his eyes seemed went back to their serious, doctor mode.

"I'm sorry, Akito. We'll start your checkup soon after Kagura leaves." He signaled me to leave and I turned to walk out the door.

I stopped when I saw Akito. He looked at me with those threatening eyes and I felt myself shake under his glare.

"Why are you so pathetic?" He flashed me that sadistically smile of his and I looked down to the ground.

"I'm not." I said it bravely and that's because I didn't care anymore. I didn't care if he got angry and slapped me because with Kyo gone…I felt useless.

"Eh. So you think you're better than me? Even though you're the one that one's your memory's erased because of that stupid cat." He insulted me right there and I saw Hatori flinch.

"I'm not better than you. I'm sorry. I'm pathetic as you say I am. I'm not arguing and yes…I want to start over again because I never want to feel anything for that "stupid cat"… I felt terrible saying that I was lower than Akito, but I didn't care anymore. I knew Kyo wasn't a stupid cat, but I really wanted him out of my mind. I finally gave up. I didn't want to become lonely for the rest of my life because the one I love doesn't return my love. I finally wanted to forget about Kyo-kun. The cat. It hurt too much for me now. I could feel my heart breaking now…it was fully broken. All those terrible things he said to me…I wanted it all to disappear…I wanted him to be happy with Tohru…and I couldn't do it alone. The memory of my love for Kyo…had to leave…it had to leave for good. I didn't want to bother their relationship…I wanted myself to be happy…That's why I have to forget it all.

Akito seemed impressed with my words and his words seemed like they were dream.

"Hatori…erase her memory of that cat and do it tonight at midnight." I smiled and nodded as I ran to my house.

Note: I hope all of you guys liked it and be sure to review! Yes! I know it was probably terrible, but I tried. I haven't written a fan fiction in a year or two. So sorry if it was bad, but I'm hoping someone liked it.

Thanks for reading.