A/N: Whoa, sorry this took me so much longer than the others to get up! My computer was having issues. –kicks computer- Anyways, thank you to all my reviewers and readers. :)

Disclaimer: I WISH I owned Ouran High School Host Club...ehh, but I don't.

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CHAPTER 4: WITHOUT YOU

The door burst open behind Kaoru and the sound of that annoying nurse's voice filled his ears.

"Mr. Hitachiin! Finally…I've been looking everywhere…for you…!" Kaoru turned around to look at her, and he noted that she was out of breath and leaning against the door frame for support. "Now come on." When this got no response from Kaoru besides a steady glare, the woman began to frown slightly out of exasperation and slightly out of uncertainty. She knew the Hitachiin's could be a troublesome pair, but had no idea how they acted when they were apart. "Mr. Hitachiin, please…!"

Kaoru ignored her and turned his back on her to face Hikaru again. Why couldn't everyone just leave him alone? Couldn't they see he just wanted to be with Hikaru? Kaoru could hear the nurse walking closer, slowly. He continued to ignore her. Now that he was here, nothing and no one could make him leave Hikaru. The nurse touched his arm, tentatively.

"Come on -"

Kaoru cut her off, pushing her away from him in a sudden, violent rage that was very unlike him. "Go away!" He yelled, moving away from her towards his brother in a seemingly protective gesture. He was breathing heavily. The nurse's eyes widened in shock and fear.

"Mr…Hitachiin…?" She backed away from him slowly, her eyes fixed on him the entire time. When she reached the doorway, she turned around and fled down the corridor. Kaoru could hear her footsteps receding down the hallway.

Kaoru frowned slightly. He doubted he was free yet; he was certain that nurse would go and get someone…a doctor, a security guard, someone. Really, why couldn't they just let him see his brother? Kaoru sighed, going over to the door and locking it. That would give him a little more time…to think. About everything. So much…had happened….

For one, he wasn't acting like himself. What was with these sudden, violent rages he found himself in more and more lately? It was only expected to be upset after all of this, but that just wasn't Kaoru. It was so unlike him that even he didn't understand.

Kaoru was gripped by sudden grief and longing; if he had Hikaru with him right now, everything would be better. But he was alone. If Kaoru had never been so utterly stupid, maybe none of this would have happened and they would both be at home right now, together. Even if Hikaru decided to be with Haruhi, at least Kaoru would know he was safe. Now…no one knew what was going to happen.

Kaoru caressed Hikaru's cheek gently. "Hikaru…I'm sorry, I'm so sorry…" He whispered into his twin's ear. "…please…come back…" Tears poured down Kaoru's cheeks, splashing onto Hikaru's hair and face.

Kaoru wasn't sure how long he stood there like that: hunched over Hikaru's bed and crying his heart out. Finally, he was able to stop; he didn't think he had any tears left in him anyway. His vision was still blurry from the tears and he wiped at his eyes, stood up straight, and turned away from Hikaru. He had heard somewhere that coma patients could hear when people around them talked to them and that it sometimes helped. Kaoru wasn't sure if he believed that, but decided it couldn't hurt to talk to Hikaru. "Hikaru…this is all my fault. I'm so sorry…this wasn't supposed to happen. Damnit, this wasn't supposed to happen!" Kaoru sighed and took a deep breath. "Hikaru…can you ever forgive me? What I did…" Kaoru paused. "…I can't even…I'm so sorry."

Kaoru glanced towards the door, and then back down at the floor. He felt stupid, standing there talking to his unconscious twin; it's not like Hikaru could even hear his apology. But at the same time, Kaoru felt just a little better. "I was being selfish. And I was being…jealous," He mumbled the last part, sighing. "I was being an idiot. I'm sorry, Hikaru. I'm so sorry, and I don't know what to do!" Kaoru felt the tears rise and threaten to escape and blur his vision again and he just couldn't look at Hikaru. He felt so helpless, so useless. He walked over to the large, inviting chair next to the window and collapsed into it.

It was dark and stormy, so the landscape didn't help much to improve his mood. Not only was he in a hospital, not only did he have a broken arm and possibly a concussion, not only was the person he cared about most in this world in a coma, but it was raining too.

It made him think of Hikaru. Kaoru remembered once when they were around five, Kaoru had been scared of the thunder and lightning. He had ran and hid under their bed, terrified. Hikaru had been looking and calling for him, but Kaoru wasn't able to answer because he was shaking so badly. Finally Hikaru found him, and he crawled under the bed with Kaoru. He didn't say anything, just held Kaoru close, letting him cry silently until they both fell asleep in each others arms. One of the servants had found them like that the next morning.

Kaoru smiled slightly at the memory, but it also filled his heart with despair to think that might never again be able to…

"Stop it." He told himself loudly, shaking his head vigorously. No, he wouldn't think like that. "No." Hikaru was going to be fine.

"Kah…ruu?" Kaoru turned around so fast he got whiplash. Hikaru. Had Hikaru just…spoken? Although the voice had been barely a whisper, Kaoru was certain it had been Hikaru.

"Hikaru!" Kaoru rushed over to his twin's side. "I'm here, Hika-chan. I'm here." He took hold of Hikaru's hand and repeated those two words over and over again. He hoped that maybe this was a sign that Hikaru was going to wake up soon; but nothing happened afterwards to indicate that Hikaru had even spoken, let alone would wake up soon.

Eventually, Kaoru gave up hoping. Instead, he was filled with that unexpected intense, burning anger and hatred towards that person who had done this to Hikaru. Through his sadness and longing for Hikaru, he had forgotten all about Yuu Tadao.

Suddenly, there was a loud pounding on the locked door and the sound of a slightly frightened, slightly angered woman, "Kaoru! Open this door, open it right now!" Mrs. Hitachiin.

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A/N: Hnn, sorry this is kinda short. I thought it was a good ending point for this chapter.

I hope everyone enjoyed it, and next chapter should be up sooner hopefully. As always, reviews would be wonderful. :)