Sakura wandered through the streets of Konoha ignoring the shivers of her body as the rain swept over her. She looked up shocked to see herself staring at a familiar door way and wondered why she had chosen to go there of all places. Sakura waited desperately for something to happen her body numb from the cold and her mind wandered. She shook herself quelling the butterflies in her stomach and turned to leave when she heard the door creak open. Kakashi gave her a slight nod before retreating back into his apartment leaving the door open for her.
Sakura waited until he was out of sight and stepped carefully past the threshold of his door closing it softly behind her. She had met him many times at his place, but never before had seen inside it. She kicked off her sopping wet shoes feeling the cool hardwood beneath her feet and walked slowly into the middle of the living room. She had always pictured him as kind of a messy guy with books littering the floor, but to her shock there was nothing. A single leather chair sat in his living room facing the roaring fire and the walls were completely bare. The apartment was smaller than hers and a lone room stood off to the left with it's door shut tightly. To her right she could see Kakashi's bedroom and was startled from her thoughts when Kakashi finally spoke from in the kitchen.
"Drink?" He asked and she snapped her head to see him holding a bottle of whiskey in his hands. Sakura nodded her head slowly and turned walking over to the fire. She sat down curtly shivering slightly from her sopping wet clothes and brought her hands close to the flames feeling the warmth tickle her fingers.
Kakashi handed her the small glass before sitting down in front of her folding his legs underneath him and sipping from his glass. Sakura studied the amber liquid and noted how he had given her so little compared to him and was lost in her thoughts again.
"It helps with the pain." Kakashi mumbled softly to her and Sakura looked at him. She could see a trace of pain and regret in his eye and shivered again. He usually hid it so well, but today was different. She turned her attention back to the glass swirling the liquid gently drowning in her thoughts. Her heart ached for Sasuke and she had devoted everything to him, but now he was dead and she had nothing left. Sakura felt her heart tighten as she remembered the last time she spoke with him. He wanted me, but because I weak he couldn't... She stopped not allowing herself to finish her thought knowing how much grief it would cause her.
Sakura looked at Kakashi and something ached inside of her. She gently put the glass down beside her, butterflies flickering deep within her stomach and crawled to him stopping when the material of his pants brushed against her fingers. She sat back on her knees shuffling a little closer to him. Sakura outstretched her hands and paused slightly when she saw Kakashi tense, but continued pulling the glass from his hand and set it down beside him. She drew her face closer to his, breath quickening in pace while her fingers reached the edge of his mask. She hesitated slightly letting her fingers curl around the black material and began to slip it down his face. Kakashi's fingers wrapped around hers and she stopped. Sakura dropped her gaze withdrawing her hands to place them on her lap and felt empty.
"Please." She whispered quietly to him while untying the black cloth from around her arm. She placed it over her eyes tying a secure knot and continued. "I just want to feel loved." Her hands trembled slightly as she found the zipper to his green vest and slowly began to pull it down. She slipped it over his shoulders and slowly lifted herself to straddle his lap and heard his sharp intake of breath as she settled herself down. Sakura's hands found his face and she traced the outline of his clothed lips and gently pressed her lips to his. She pulled back slightly feeling his warmth radiate from him."Kakashi" She whispered, but didn't have the chance to continue when she felt his naked lips pressing against hers. Sakura let out a slight moan when she felt his tongue flicker against her bottom lip and she opened her mouth allowing him to deepen the kiss. Kakashi's arms wrapped tightly around her body pulling her against his chest and she felt a warmth pool in her lower belly. She worked feverishly at pulling off his shirt and broke the kiss to find him nipping at her neck with his tongue darting out to taste her. Her fingers trailed over the hard planes of his chest and she gasped slightly only to have it stifled by another passionate kiss from Kakashi. Sakura could feel a certain hunger in his kisses as he began to peel off her wet clothes. He stood up abruptly and Sakura wrapped her legs tight around his waist, but drew back apprehensively as he made his way towards the bedroom. She clutched him tight in her arms feeling her face flush as she spoke."I've never done this before." She stuttered with embarrassment and felt him stop."Please don't stop." She whispered her hot breath curling in his ear with a certain desire for him to ease the ache between her legs. Sakura pulled him into another deep kiss and moaned when he continued to the bedroom.
Sakura awoke to the smell of coffee and could hear something sizzling on the stove. She sat up clutching the white sheet around her body while pulling the cloth down from her eyes and squinted from the bright sunlight. She searched for her clothes only to blush slightly when she remembered they were still scattered in Kakashi's living room and wrapped the sheet tightly around her before leaving his bedroom. She gave the living room a quick scan and was surprised when she couldn't find them and continued on to the kitchen. Kakashi paused running his gaze alone her body and Sakura could feel her face go hot under his gaze, but he diverted his attention back to the eggs. She studied his face noticing that he didn't cover the Sharingan today and his hair was mussed giving him a sleepy look. She leaned against one of the counters while he poured a cup of coffee and handed it to her. She accepted it gratefully sipping the hot brew letting her mind wander.
"Umm do you know where my clothes are?" She asked sheepishly unconsciously wrapping the sheet tighter around her.
"In the bathroom drying." His voice was casual as he poured some eggs onto a plate and handed it to her. "Forks are behind you in that drawer." He said pointing to one behind her. She pulled out two forks giving him one and began to pick at her food trying to distract herself from her thoughts. Her mind whispered of Sasuke and her heart ached.
"Why don't you have more furniture?" Sakura asked desperately trying to pull her thoughts away from Sasuke. She gaped at Kakashi seeing that his plate was empty and wondered how she could have missed seeing his face while he ate. Kakashi gave her a slight shrug.
"I'm rarely ever here." Sakura gave him a small nod in understanding.
"I'm sorry about last night. I needed to numb the pain and you were the first person I turned to." She averted her gaze back down to her plate picking at the eggs once more. "Don't worry I'm not one of those annoying girls who would try to make something more out of last night than what it really was." Her voice was small and she ventured a look at Kakashi only to see his usual blank expression on his face.
"You're going to be late for work and you know how Tsunade gets when people are late." His voice chuckled and Sakura found it soothing to her.
"She gave me three days off." She paused putting the plate of eggs down on the counter beside her. "Could I stay here for awhile?" Sakura asked hesitantly studying his face for any sign of apprehension. Kakashi gave her a slight nod and she sighed in relief, but still felt grief gnawing at her heart. She crossed the tiny kitchen slowly and pulled Kakashi to face her as she sat herself up on the counter. Sakura pulled him close between her thighs giving him a seductive look with her emerald eyes as she slipped the black cloth over her eyes. She tangled her hands in his hair expecting Kakashi to kiss her, but he nibbled on her neck causing her to moan in pleasure. They spent the rest of the day and night tangled in each others arms sleeping when exhaustion over took them and surfacing only for the need of food and water.
Sakura awoke the second day to find her heart didn't ache as bad. She borrowed any necessities from Kakashi and spent the day lounging around in his clothes. The room with the closed door constantly fluttered to her thoughts and she plucked up the courage to ask him what was in it. She envisioned kinky sex toys or blow up dolls and he chuckled showing her. Sakura gasped slightly when she saw bookcase upon bookcase full of books and a special designated area for Kakashi's Icha Icha books.
"Why do you read these things?" Sakura asked slightly turning her nose up at them. Kakashi gave her a chuckle and his eye narrowed dangerously.
"Why don't you read one and find out." He said slyly before leaving her alone in the room causing Sakura to give him a miffed look. She let out a slight huff before turning her attention to the novels and began to read to the titles on the spine. Paradise Island; sounds way to cheesy for my tastes. Bubblelicious Birthday; sounds way to perverted. Ninja Love...hmmm lets see what good old Jiraiya has to say about us ninjas. Sakura thought hazily to herself slipping the book from the shelf.
Kakashi was seated against the wall legs outstretched lazily reading while Sakura settled herself into the large leather chair propping the book against her knee. Hmm simple plot line. She thought to herself reading the first few pages. Ugh god what a cheesy line. Please don't tell me she falls for that. Oh she does...he does what to her?? Sakura tore her gaze from the book when she heard Kakashi chuckle.
"Sakura I do believe you are blushing." And began to laugh when Sakura's blush deepened. She gave him a venomous look and returned her attention back to the novel trying to stifle the reddening of her cheeks. She finished the short novel a few hours later noting some things she would definitely have to try and closed the book with a sharp tap.
"How can you read those all the time?" Sakura blurted out loud ignoring her current aroused state. Kakashi's eyes crinkled at her statement.
"Why? Have some itch that needs to be scratched now?" He asked mischievously and Sakura felt herself blushing again. She took the book throwing it forcefully at his head and Kakashi only had to slide a little to miss the impact while laughing loudly. She stood up abruptly coming to stand in front of him and dropped down to straddle his hips.
"Maybe I do." She whispered into his ear rolling her hips seductively surprised at her own audacity. Kakashi immediately picked her up as a little squeak escaped from her throat and retired to the bedroom for the rest of the day and night.
She could hear the shower running and lazily rolled over pulling down the black cloth. Sakura noticed the pain in her heart had subsided a little more today as well only to be replaced by another pain, but she ignored it dismissing it's existence. She looked to see Kakashi standing in the doorway of the bathroom, towel tucked firmly around his hips and hair hiding the Sharingan. His skin glistened as beads of water ran down his muscular body. Sakura blushed and averted her eyes pulling the sheet to cover herself. Sure she had felt and probably licked every inch of his body, but she had done that all blindfolded and was still bashful. She quickly slipped past him taking her turn in the shower and sighed when she realized tomorrow she would have to go back to reality.
Sakura quietly munched on her toast but her throat was dry making it hard for her to swallow.
"Oh baka." Kakashi said loudly stretching in front of the fridge. "Looks like I'm out of food tomorrow. Guess I have to go shopping." He sighed loudly and closed the fridge door. Sakura let out a small giggle and Kakashi gave her a quizzical look.
"Sorry" She muttered quietly to him. "It's just I know you have to shop for food, but for someone reason I can't see you doing it. It's what normal people do." Sakura giggled again when a mental image formed in her mind of Kakashi having a puzzled expression on his face while scratching his head looking at all the different vegetables in a grocery store. She put her toast down to the plate and her expression quickly changed. "The ANBU tests are three days from now." She mumbled quietly counting the number of raisins on her toast.
"I know." Kakashi's voice was softer than usual.
"I need to pass this. I swore to get revenge for Sasuke and become the strong person he needed by his side." Her voice was quiet and she could feel grief setting in again. Sakura pushed herself off the counter and kept her eyes downcast as she crossed the small space between them stopping abruptly in front of Kakashi. She wrapped her arms around his waist and pulled herself to his chest closing her eyes and listening to sound of his heart beat. They spent the rest of the day in comfortable silences with each other unless they were doing other more strenuous activities.
Sakura could feel Kakashi's hot breaths on her neck as she stirred from her sleep feeling his arms tucked tightly around her. She pulled the cloth to peek from under it surprised to see the sun had all ready risen. Her grief had lessened this morning as well but something else tugged at her heart. Sakura questioned how this was going to end between them and wondered if she really wanted it to, but quickly shook those thoughts from her head as guilt seeped into her mind. Sakura slipped from Kakashi's grasp not daring to look at his face. She didn't know if he had his mask on and even though she burned with the desire to see his face, she couldn't violate his trust like that. I'm using him for my own selfish needs and he knows that. I'm sure he doesn't want every woman he's slept with to see his face. Sakura thought to herself.She gave the apartment one last look seeing Kakashi still sleeping peacefully and left closing the door quietly.
Kakashi had felt Sakura twitch under his grasp and he continued to study her face knowing she would be awake any moment. He relished in the feeling of her smooth creamy skin against his own and watched her chest rise and fall with each breath. He returned his gaze back to her face and was mesmerized by how the light caught in her pink mussed hair, but itched to take off the blindfold and see all of her. She stirred and he quickly closed his eyes feigning sleep as she rose from the bed. He slit an eye open getting a perfect view of her luscious behind while she slipped on her clothes and he let a devilish grin escape from his lips. Kakashi had watched her leave his bedroom and when he heard the door close he rolled over groaning. And now it's over. He told himself dejectedly.
I've moved up the rating to be safe and I'm not going to go into explicit details becuase I know there are probably younger eyes that shouldn't be reading this. Hope you like it.
Cance