A word from the Author: Hey, hey, hey, everybody, this is jediclonecowgirl, but this clearly not my fiction. It's the great work of Got the Jitters. We're working together on this. And this is my first chapter of "What Am I" or "Feel the Force".
Ahsoka's eyes shot open and she let out a scream before she realized that everything had been a nightmare.
"Everything was just a nightmare… whew!" she thought. She would have expected any Jedi to fall, but NOT her Master!
"Everyone… but not Anakin. Not my Skyguy," Ahsoka thought as she sat up.
She remembered the talk she had with Yoda today. She didn't know what to believe anymore. Who was the REAL "Chosen One"? Why was she sensing REX in the Force all of a sudden? And what was up with all of this anyway? This was one of those times where she just wanted someone for advice. At the moment Ahsoka would have been happy with anyone she knew from the Jedi Temple. Master Plo, Master Kenobi, Master Luminara… anyone, but she clearly couldn't tell her Master. He would probably get mad at her, or worse.
"Who am I supposed to ask about this?" she mentally asked herself.
Just then, she remembered another thing: a secret that Cody had told her and Rex long before he had died. He had told them that the medics had just found out that he was a Force-sensitive. They had promised not to tell Master Kenobi. Ahsoka had no idea why Cody wanted that these days. Then the door opened, ripping her out of her thoughts. Anakin was standing in front of it.
"Hey, Snips. Still awake?" he asked and looked worried.
"Had a nightmare," Ahsoka mumbled.
"Do you want to tell me about it?" Anakin asked. To Ahsoka, he looked even more worried than before.
"No, no! It's nothing bad," Ahsoka replied.
"If something bothers you, you know you can always talk to me," Anakin just said.
"Yes," Ahsoka answered and nodded.
"Okay…" Anakin replied with a sigh and closed the door again.
"No I can't. I can't talk to you about everything. Not about this. I can't tell you that the Captain of the 501st legion is probably FORCE-SENSITIVE!" Ahsoka thought as soon as she was sure that Anakin was far enough away.
She slid off her bunk, knelt down in front of it and pulled out her personal holo-journal. She kept all her secrets, emotions and things, and things that weren't supposed to be seen by others in it. She also had a list in it that she had named: "Things that I can never talk about with my master!" The first thing was that she had kissed a clone once, that she had never heard from again, since she and Anakin never were the ones to command that battalion. She regretted it deeply, because she now knew how foolish it had been.
Her Master had never found out about it and it was good like that. He probably would've sent her back, if he hadn't been in the healing wing in the Temple that day. Ahsoka looked at the second thing. She hated it more than the first. It was that she accidently dropped a detonator in the middle of a battle once.
"It was an accident and none of my men got hurt. It's just that my Master can't know about this. He wouldn't trust me anymore, when it comes to leading my men on my own," she thought before she added a third thing.
Number 3: That I'm the only one who knows about the fact, that CAPTAIN REX IS PROBABLY FORCE-SENSITIVE!
Ahsoka turned her journal off again and pushed it back under her bunk. She tried to sleep again, but she couldn't. There was just waaaay to much going through her head.
Ending Word: I hope that this fits a little and that I didn't fail completely. Well… There's nothing left to say so I'll just say bye-bye and may the Force be with you.