A/N: Hey Everyone, how are my favorite readers? Good I hope. So who was bored as hell this past Tuesday with our ladies not being on TV? I know I sure as hell was. Oh well at least I can say it gave me a little more time to work on my schooling. Well here is this week's chapter so I hope you enjoy and I hope to hear from you. Thank you everyone for reading. And as always I gotta give props to artgrrl1989 for all her help in this adventure. Hope you enjoy =o)
By the time Jane, Frost, and Korsak had made it back from Merch it was already late in the afternoon. Jane was hungry and she thought she would try to make amends with the ME by asking Maura if she would like to join her for a late lunch.
"I'm gonna head out and get some lunch. Do you guys want anything?" Jane asked before heading for the elevator.
"Nah. Me and Korsak are just gonna pick up something from the café." Frost was now rubbing his temples frustrated by having no leads in the case yet.
"You go get yourself some fresh air Janie and when you get back we'll get started on the security footage." Korsak said while sitting at his desk.
Jane headed for the elevator hitting the down button. The elevator dinged its arrival. Jane stepped in the elevator, calmed herself and hit the button to the basement nervous that Maura was going to give her more of the cold shoulder.
Maura had just finished up an autopsy on a case unrelated to the one Jane, Frost, and Korsak were working on. Sitting at her desk Maura flipped the top of her computer up to start typing up the report of her findings.
Maybe I was too harsh on Jane this morning. I don't want to scare her away, not after that amazing kiss. Maybe I can turn up the flirtations a little more so she knows I'm okay with everything.
Maura was brought out of her thoughts by a light knocking on the door. "Come in."
Jane slowly peeked her head around the door that she slowly cracked open, wondering if she was safe to come in.
"It's okay to come in Jane," Jane slowly walked in careful to not break any eggshells she felt like she was walking on. "I'm sorry about earlier. I didn't mean to snap like I did. I've just had a lot on my mind lately," which wasn't a lie.
Jane went over and stood in front of Maura's desk. "I know we had a bit of an icy morning but I was wondering if you would like to go and get some late lunch with me?"
"I would like that very much Jane," Maura gave Jane a reassuring smile.
"Would the Dirty Robber be okay with you?"
"Yes, that sounds good to me."
"I just have a quick question before we go." Jane stopped and turned back towards Maura.
Maura's heart started fluttering at the thought of Jane finally asking about Saturday night.
"Did you say our killer is becoming more aggressive?"
Maura felt as if her heart was going to drop into her stomach. Maybe she really doesn't want to talk about it. "Yes, I did."
"So this victim had two more stab wounds than our previous victim?"
"Yes." Maura decided now would be a good time to test her boundaries with Jane and she very much wanted to be able to touch the skittish detective. She took two steps forward so she and Jane were less than a foot apart. Maura could feel the heat coming off of Jane's body and she willed her mind to try not to take her back to Saturday not because it would not be appropriate at the current time.
Jane almost jumped when she felt Maura's hand touching her lower than she needed to be at the time being.
Maura used her hand to touch Jane where the victim was stabbed. Touching a couple inches inward from Jane's right hip, "here," then touched a couple inches inward from her left hip, "and here. This is where the ovaries are. These types of wounds are very personal. Our victims have been attacked more aggressively each time. The next victim will have worse wounds than the current victim."
"I hope this bastard slips up so we can get him already." Jane was barely able to squeak out, the areas on her body where Maura touched were still on fire. Even with a clothing barrier between her and the ME. "Well lets go get some grub cause I'm hungry." Jane opened the door to Maura's office and held it open for Maura to walk through. As Maura walked by Jane and even though there was enough room, Maura brushed against Jane which sent a shiver down Jane's spine. Maura Isles, you are not making this easy on me.
Jane opened the door into the Dirty Robber and allowed Maura to walk in first. Maura immediately headed for their usual booth and sat down. Jane was right behind her and sat on the other side of the booth facing Maura. The waitress came over and both Jane and Maura ordered a burger, fries, and water seeing as how both were still on duty and needed to head back to the station after they ate.
While they were waiting on their food the girls were silent. Jane decided she finally had to say something about their kiss on Saturday. "Maura?"
"Yes Jane, is something bothering you?"
"Actually yes, something has been bothering me since Saturday when we went to the club."
Finally!
"I wanted to let you know that I have not been able to stop thinking about our kiss because I really liked it."
"Neither have I Jane. I liked it so much too but became very confused when you shut down and didn't want to talk about it."
"Well I have been thinking about it a lot and I think it may be better to just forget that it ever happened."
For the second time in thirty minutes Maura felt her heart drop into her stomach. "Why would you say that Jane? You just told me that you liked it."
Jane was now more nervous than anything, she started rubbing the scars on her palm. The action was not unnoticed by Maura.
"Why are you rubbing your scars like you do when you're nervous?"
Jane looked down at her hands and noticed she was subconsciously rubbing her scars. As soon as she realized what she was doing she snapped her hands away and laid them palms down on the table. "Because Maura, I just think that it is better we forget about the kiss. You are the best friend I have ever had and I don't want the kiss to ruin what we already have."
Maura could only stare at Jane not believing what she was saying yet the words she didn't want to hear were coming out of Jane's mouth. She reached her hand across the table and took Jane's in her own. "But why can't we be best friends and pursue what we both want?"
As much as Jane was enjoying Maura's hand on her own she removed her hand from under Maura's slowly. "Well Maura, what I really want is for us to just be friends. I..I don't want this kiss to come between us. You are my best friend and...I don't want to lose you as my best friend."
Maura was now starting to tear up because this conversation was not playing out how she imagined it would. "But Jane, I could tell that you wanted that kiss as much as I did. I could see it in your eyes and now you're telling me you want us to act like it never happened?"
"Yes." Jane could only do the thing she knew how to do the best which was flee. "I'm sorry Maur, please don't be mad at me. I just think this is for the best." Suddenly losing her appetite Jane stood up from the table and walked out of the doors and away from the Dirty Robber.
Maura could only stare at the empty side of the booth in complete shock. I was sure she wanted the kiss as much as I did. I felt the spark and so did she. Now she told me she wants to act as if it never had happened? Maura started crying and headed out of the doors quickly separating herself from the place that now held one of the worst memories she'll ever have. Maura headed to the morgue, grabbed her things, and headed home still with tears in her eyes.
"How was lunch Janie?" Korsak asked as Jane came in the bull-pen with her shoulders hanging in defeat.
"It sucked. Where's the footage so I can get started?"
Frost handed Jane a flash drive with the footage she would be looking over. Jane pulled up the security footage and started her long evening of watching the footage. Please just let this get my mind off of Maura and the way I left her at the Robber. Dammit. I'm a fuckin' idiot. Way to mess another one up Rizzoli. Now you've probably pushed her away for good. If it wasn't for Jane having to go over security footage she would have been at home tackling a six-pack.
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