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"Ed! Wake up man" Emmett yelled shaking me.

I opened my eyes dreading having to tell Emmett what was going on. I haven't had that dream in a long time and the fact that the dreams are starting again makes me stiff with terror

"Ed you were yelling in your sleep" Emmett said looking at me with sad eyes, "Are you ok?" he asked sitting on the side of the bed

"Yeah I'll be ok" I said softly, "Is dinner almost done?" I asked, changing the subject

Emmett smiled, said yes and we walked down the stairs and ate in silence. After an awkward dinner we made our way to the couch and started watching TV

"Hey Ed, I don't want to pry but what was your mom talking about?" he said slowly, probably apprehending me to be mad about his curiosity towards an uneasy subject

I looked down "What do you mean?" I said lightly

He sighed loudly before answering me, "Edward you know what I mean"

And I did. I knew exactly what he was asking. "Mike" that's all I needed to say. Mike might have been my best friend before Jasper, but Emmett was my 'rock' and he understood completely what I meant, he knew me inside and out

"I'm going to kill him" he whispered "Tell me what happened"

And I told him everything, he was the first person I told everything to and he seemed to sense that and comforted me. Two hours later and a million tears shed and I was done telling him about Mike and what happened and I could practically see the smoke coming off of him

Emmett's jaw tightened and he let out a long breath that he had been holding in, "I don't know what to say other than wow"

I chuckled a little and closed my eyes tight "Emmett"

"Yeah" he said softly

"I don't think they should have let me out" I whimpered, my eyes still clamped shut

"Why do you say that?" he said sounding confused

"I still have that feeling" I whispered, trembling

"What feeling?" he asked

"That feeling you have when you give up, that constant self- hate. Emmett I wish I would have died" I opened my eyes to see that I'm shaking violently

"Don't say that man" he said on the verge of crying "Y-you can't think that way"

"You don't understand Emmett… when I tried to kill myself It wasn't a cry for help, I didn't want someone to save me. I wanted to die. I was done. I gave up." I yelled at him, tears glistening my face "Em can you drive me to Jaspers?" I suddenly asked

Emmett seemed taken back by my request at first but then nodded and we soon walked out the door

"I'll call you later?" I said to Emmett, getting out of his car

"Yeah I'll be waiting" he said then drove away into the night

I walked up to Jaspers door and knocked. Hearing feet shuffling towards the door made me smile because I couldn't wait to see me boy

"Edward? What are you doing here so late?" Rose said, popping her head out the door

"I uh… just came to see Jasper" I said, avoiding eye contact

"Alright" she said, hearing her footsteps I walk in side. "You know where his room is" she yelled from the stairs

I walk up the stairs and turn to the left to see his door closed. The house looks the same although his sister wasn't around as much as she is now, I thought, knocking on the door

"Come in" Jasper said from the other side of the door

I walked in his room the see the back of a shirtless Jasper, typing away on his computer

"Yes Rose?" he said without turning around

I smirked and kissed the top of his head

"Ro-" he started wail turning around and flashed me his pearly whites, "You're not Rose" he stated with a grin

"Disappointed?" I smirked

"Quite the contrary actually" he said standing up, putting his hands on my waist

"Hmmm" I hummed, giving his a peck on the lips

"Hmmm indeed" he said, his eyes glowing, "You don't know how much I've missed you Edward" he whispered, pulling me into his arms, "I never thought…" his voice cracked, "Edward I love you so much"

I pulled away a little to look at his face, tears were painting his beautiful cheeks. I wiped them away with my hand and then kissed his cheeks, "I love you too baby… I missed you more then you could ever imagine, but were here now together and it'll be ok" I said, tears gathering in my eyes

"Will you stay here Edward? Tonight with me? Just…." He paused looking down, "Just let me hold you?" he said biting his lip

"I'd love to" I said, and we got into his bed, slipping into sleep

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