Chapter 2; What did we do?

Santana's POV

"There, now I'm even more a failure than I already was in your eyes."

I watch how Leigh ripped her arm out of my grip, almost pushing Brittany to the ground and running up the stairs. I was silent while her words were repeating in my head.

"There, now I'm even more a failure than I already was in your eyes."

"What did just happened?" Brittany asked sitting at the diner table. I mirrored her actions.

"I think Leigh applied to a college without telling us but didn't get in. And she said that she was more of a failure than she was in our eyes." I said, trying to understand.

"But I never thought Leigh was a failure. Why would she think that?" Brittany asked.

Then it all made sense to me.

"Because we never talked college or universities with her, only with Milo. We never asked her what she wanted to do after high school, only Milo. We never ask about her good days at school. We never praise her if she comes home with a B. Oh God, why is this only making sense to me now?" I put my head in my hands.

"She thinks we're putting Milo before her." Brittany said, finishing my thought.

"Isn't Georgetown like in Texas or something? Is that why she wants to go there because she wants to get away from us?" I mumbled to myself.

I suddenly feel like a really bad parent. I should have notice this before. We only praise Milo with good grades.

"Santana? Are you okay?"

"No Britt, I'm not. I feel like a really really bad parent. But I thought she didn't want to go college. Because of her grades and her attitude."

"Neither of us thought she would wanted to go to a college."

"Yeah, but we didn't even asked her if she wanted to go. I'm going to talk to her."

"We're going to talk together with her."

Brittany and I walked out of the kitchen to the stairs. Once we were at Leigh's room, we knocked. No response. I tried to open the door, but it was locked.

"Leigh, please come out. We want to talk to you." Brittany said.

"GO AWAY!" Leigh yelled

"Honey, we just want to talk. Just open the door." I tried.

"I SAID GO AWAY!" Leigh yelled again.

I sighed. The guilt is eating me. Why haven't I talked to her about college? I'm her mother. No matter what I expect from her, I should always believe in her. When the door opened, I looked right in her eyes. They were red from the crying she must been doing.

"I'm sorry. My heart is just broken right now. If there still is a heart." She said, walking out of her room.

Milo's door also opened and he stepped out into the hallway.

"Hey guys, what's going on?" He asked.

I suddenly got a idea.

"Why don't we all go eat breakfast and talk about the future?" I asked.

"I think that's a great idea, Santana. Come on kids, let's go." Brittany said.

Milo and Leigh were already walking down the stairs. I was about to, when Brittany grabbed my wrist and turned me to her. She softly put her lips on me. After all these years, my knees still got weak whenever she kissed me.

"You're a good parent. We're going to talk about it with Leigh and Milo and everything is going to be okay." She said before she put her lips on me again.

She always knew what to say to me. I love her so much.

When I walked into the kitchen, Milo was eating breakfast and Leigh was just staring at her food. I sighed and took a seat next to Leigh while Brittany took a seat next to Milo.

"Okay, so let's talk. Like a family. What do you guys want to be when you're out of high school?" Brittany asked with a smile.

"I want to be a nurse." Leigh muttered.

"I want to do something in theater. I like singing, acting and dancing." Milo said, returning Brittany's smile.

"Gay." I heard Leigh muttering.

I just shook my head. Apparently she was turning into her old self again.

"But we wanted to talk about it with you two because Leigh is still a virgin-" I started saying.

Milo began laughing.

"Yeah right, Leigh isn't a virgin." He said.

I saw how Leigh eyes widen at him. Brittany just had a confused look while I just understood what he said. WAIT, WHAT?

"Oh, you meant at talking about the future. Oh okay. AU!" Milo said, while rubbing his leg.

"Okay, moving on. Leigh, have you found other schools than Georgetown?" Brittany asked, completely ignoring what just happened.

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"I still don't understand Britt. Do you think Milo meant it?" I asked, later that night.

"I don't know. They're twins, they hadn't kept a secret from each other since they were little annoying kids. Well, only Leigh then."

"But why would she have sex? She's too young!"

"No she's not. She's seventeen years old. When we were seventeen, we were hooking up with people and each other."

"Who could it be? How many? Does she do it safe? She doesn't have a boyfriend, not that I know of. Maybe she was-"

"San, just calm down. If you want to know all those things, then go ask her."

"Uhm, no thank you. You know how embarrassing it is when your mother asks you about sex."

"Well if you want to know a answer, you have to ask." Brittany said.

"Fine, i'll go ask her."

I walked out of our room and went to Leigh's room. I heard a John Mayer song playing. Leigh was a huge John Mayer fan, even though he is now old as crap. I knocked loud enough for her to hear.

"Come in!"

I opened the door and saw Leigh on her laptop, looking concentrated. She looked up to me and smiled. All I saw was my little girl at the age of 2 smiling after she got a lollypop for being good a whole week.

"Hi ma. What's up?" Leigh asked turning all her attention to me as I sat on her bed.

"I want to ask you something, but you don't have to answer me if don't feel comfortable." I said.

"Okay ma, you're kind of freaking me out."

"Did Milo tell the truth about you being no…virgin any more?" I asked, having a hard time saying virgin.

Leigh only looked at me. I saw some panic in her eyes. But she remained quiet.

"I don't know when it happened, but I don't remember you having a boyfriend. Or maybe you never said you had a boyfriend. You didn't get pressured to do it, did you? Because I will find that boy and go all Lima Heights on his ass!"

"No, no, god no! No, I didn't get pressured. And I didn't had a boyfriend at the time…"

"Then, why did you do it? It's more nice to do it with someone you're in love with than it's just sex."

"It wasn't just sex. I had feelings for him at the time. After I asked him if he wanted to be my boyfriend. He didn't want to."

"So for him it was just sex."

"I don't think so. I think he regrets that he isn't my boyfriend. He's right now playing with my feelings. Sending lovely texts, giving me gifts and flowers, sending lyrics from love songs."

"Who is it?"

Leigh looked at me for a while.

"I don't want to say."

"Why not? It's not like I'm going to beat him up or something."

"It's just weird. You know him."

"I know him? How the hell do I know a horny 17-year old?"

"I just don't want to say, alright? It would make it weird for us if you knew."

"Okay. I'm just worried about you." I said to her, my voice going soft.

"I know."

"And you guys did it safe?"

"Yeah, he used a condom and I'm on the pill remember?"

"Okay sweetheart. Whenever you have a problem, I want to let you know you can always come talk to me."

"I know ma."

"I love you, Leigh. Don't ever think otherwise."

"I love you too ma."