Ok I feel really bad about not updating. I'm really sorry, I just promised an update by today for some of y'all and I feel terrible that I have none…. Um so I'll show you I guess my… *mutters so no one will hear* poems.
Alone is from West's prospective, I wrote it for him and set it on his grave two weeks ago.
Alone
Sometimes I wonder
why I feel so alone
why I can't be like the others,
just a mindless clone.
I don't like to be different
people just assume
they taunt and make fun
each word, pushing me to my doom
Every word they throw kills me
though everyone else looks entertained
I guess every word that hurts me
Is more of their confidence gained.
They look so prideful
their smiles, so snide
my face shows no evidence
that I'm breaking inside.
No one seems to notice
me under my hood
so no one will notice
when I'm gone for good.
Neglected was just random, a few of my feelings of my parents are in there, but I'm not actually neglected.
Neglected
No one thinks
of the girl in the back
of her bloodshot eyes
or her ripped back pack
She appears to be fine
raising no suspicion
she is such a good actor
considering her condition
Her parents, they fight
and oh, how they drone,
they glare and they shout
for her to leave them alone
She cries everyday
but only when no one's around
she shows no weakness
makes not a single sound.
Her life is a sad one
lonely and bleak,
she misses when her parents
didn't think she was a freak
Abused is not me at all, it's about a boy in my best friend's sister's class (she's in kinder garden) whose dad killed him after a lifetime of abuse
Abuse
There's a bruise on his arm,
his leg, and his face
he cowers in fear
and hopes they give him grace
he's a child
he's only just turned six
he's made it this far,
he's taken all the kicks
scared of his mother,
terrified of his father,
people try to be a friend,
he tells them not to bother
He knows his parents love him
somewhere deep inside;
he hopes that maybe one day
he can just make them realize.
He's never told a soul
he believes he'll be ok
he doesn't even know
that his future is so grey
If only someone told him,
I'm sure he would've fled
if only someone told him
in a week he would be dead.
This one…. I think you'll understand.
Best Friend
My best friend was different
I loved him all the same
My best friend is gone now
we all know who's to blame
He was the funniest guy,
and very kind too,
did it really matter
that he wasn't like you?
you all taunted him,
and you all made fun
but now we all know
that they're the foolish ones
one devastating call
and it all came crashing down
one devastating call
and I'm crying on the ground
because of them my best friend died
because of them he felt the need
I guess dying really was
his only real release.
they pushed him over the edge;
now my best friend is dead
he's gone, never coming back
no matter the amount of tears shed
Their sorrows mean nothing
I want my best friend back
they obviously didn't know
in my heart, there's still a crack
the noose around his neck
finalized his pain
he's in a better place now
he's now sheltered from the rain
Sometimes I feel
like West is still around
like he wants me to move on
though my heart is completely bound.
If only I had known
what he had meant
I would've pounded on his door
until I left a dent
If only I had known
what he was going to do
If only I had known
I would've made a noose, too.
This was about Amanda
Our fault
She pretended to be happy
She didn't want to seem weak
She pretended She was okay
so she didn't want to be a freak
she was an great actress
we said such cruel things.
I guess her smiles and laughter
covered up the words' stings
we don't mean a thing
we don't mean any harm
it was all just a game
why'd I let it go this far?
we saw videos and worksheets
about teen suicide
we never thought those videos
would've stayed in her mind
I could've helped her
I could've stopped her, too
if only I had known
what she was really going through
Her father hit her
he mother did, too
she had finally
had enough of the abuse
We all stand at her grave
all at a halt
because we all know the truth
cause' it's our fault.
That's all I really have to share now. I'd love to hear your reviews and I'm sorry about the lack of updates.