Chapter 6: Baby Shower

I'm offically 8 months pregnant today, and it sucks! I am still waiting for the good part about all of this! Honestly, being pregnant sucks! Sure it's fun during the 4th to maybe 6th months when your not puking your guts out and you can still see your feet! But before that you can't leave the bathroom, or really eat anything! Than anytime after 6 months your big, your uncomfortable, your big, your hot, your swollen, your big, your hungry, your tired, your big, you waddle, you can't fit any cute clothes, you don't want to fit any cute clothes, oh and did I mention your big! Noone told about these things! All they talk about is the good things, like the 'glow', that glow is bullshit ok! Unless you mean the glow from the sweat because I am so freaking hot! Oh and don't get me wrong, I love knowing Meyson is there when she's moving and all, but at 3 o clock in the morning, it's sleep time, not kick mommy in the bladder over and over and over again time!

But all in all, I can't wait to see her and hold her and love her.

Aria is getting better, she still has a cast but other than that she's back to normal.

Emily is coming to get me now to take me to Hanna's so we can plan a baby shower. I didn't actually want one...but the girls wanted an excuse to have a party.

"I'm outside" Emily texted me.

I waddled outside and she was waiting for me to help me in her big truck.

"Why must you have such a big car!" I complained.

"Sorry!" she said.

"How you feeling mama?" She asked after a few minutes of driving.

"Tired, hot, and fat"

"Not much longer though. Then you'll just be tired"

"That's true!"

"But at least, by the time we go back to school she won't be a little baby" Emily said. The last day of school is june 5th, and my due date is June 18th.

"yea that's the good part" I said.

We got to Hanna's and she helped me out of the truck and we walked in the house.

"Hey guys, come on Aria's in the back" Hanna said. She was wearing one of her white sun dresses...usually she only wears that dress when she's going somewhere nice...somethings up...

"SURPRISE!" everybody yelled. I backed up and hid behind Emily.

"I don't like surprises!" I said laughing.

"Aww honey, we had too!" my mom came up and hugged me. Everybody was there, all of the girls and there moms, my grandma, my mom, and sister, and a few other friends.

"Thanks guys" I said.

"Look at my beautiful granddaughter. Come here" my grandma said hugging me. My grandma lives in Maryland, and she doesn't travel much.

"Gran" I said hugging her back.

"You are the most beautiful mother ever" she said.

"You said that when I was pregnant" my mom said.

"Yes, and now Spencer has taken your space!"

all of us laughed, I went over to sit down and they put this button on me. There was a banner that said We love Baby Meyson.

"Thank you guys...so much" I said.

"Your welcome!" everyone said.

"Ok guys, food is here!" Hanna said bringing out the trays from my favorite restaurant.

"We can eat, than presents, then cake!" Hanna announced. Everybody sat at different tables and ate when we heard the doorbell.

"I'll go get it, I have to use the bathroom anyways" I said. I went to the door and didn't say anyone but a note that said my name.

Spencer,

Good luck and I am sorry.

-E. Lamb

I dropped the letter. My breathing got heavy and I walked out more to see if I saw anyone. Then I saw it...his...truck. Did this mean...oh my god. Is Toby alive?!

"Spencer..." Hanna came up.

"Yea?" I said.

"Who was it?"

"Uh...noone" I lied.

"That's weird...well come on we're going to open your presents now" she said.

"Ok" I said. When she turned around I carefully bent down and picked up the note. Holding it felt like electricity in my hands. If he's alive...that means he's not dead, meaning Meyson could have her dad, meaning he could still be in love with me. But was he ever in love with me? Was this Toby? Or...was it A fucking with me again?

We walked to the backyard again and I sat down.

"Ok here open mine first!" Hanna handed me her present.

It was an animal print outfit and another outfit that was a floral dress.

"I thought I said no animal print Hanna..." I said.

"I know...but look at it! I couldn't resist!" she said. I rolled my eyes and smiled. It was cute though.

My gran got baby sheets, and a shirt that said my great grandma is greater than yours!

My mom got a bath, and other little outfits.

My sister got a stroller and carseat in one.

Aria and her mom got some clothes.

Emily and her mom made a basket with clothes, food, and diapers, and lotions.

"We have one more to give you, this is from all of us" Emily said handing me another box.

"Awww it's personalized onsies!" I said.

"This one says, My auntie Emily is a swimmer, so she can kick your butt!" I said laughing.

"Then this one says I'm Auntie Aria's Model" I said.

The last one was from Hanna. "My Auntie Hanna dressed me! Aww guys these are the cutest..." I said hugging them all at once.

"We saw in a store that they personalize and we just couldn't resist. It took forever to think about what to put on them though" Aria said. I laughed.

"I love them guys" I said.

We ate cake and hung out more, and we also played games. At the end of the night, my Gran drove to her hotel, and Melissa and mom drove all the presents back to the house.

"Thanks again Hanna" I said.

"It's no problem. I was happy that we could do it! Also Caleb said as his baby gift to you, he will come over one day and put everything together" she said.

"Thanks! My dad tried...and failed...miserably..." I said.

I was still thinking about the note in my bag...but I had to play it off.

"Come on i'll drive you home" Emily said.

We got back in her huge truck and she drove me home.

"See you tomorrow" Emily said when she got back in her truck. I walked in the house and noone was home. I guess Mom and Mellissa went to her apartment. But I texted them anyways asking.

When I turned my kitchen light on I saw a perfectly wrapped gift on my counter. I was confused. Was this some kind of trick...

I walked over and slowly started to open it. There was no note or anything.

It was a teddy bear that said Baby Meyson, Iloveyou. No spaces. Why did that look so familiar?

I decided to go upstairs and get out of these maternity pants and into sweats before I analyized these things.

I sat back down at the counter and looked over the bear and the note again. It was something about this handwriting...it didn't look like A's...but it didn't exactly look like Toby's normal handwriting either.

Then I remembered something...our one year anniversary...the same night I found out he was 'E. LAMB' the card he gave me...

Flashback

"Here" he said handing me a card and flowers. I read the card and it said Iloveyou with no spaces.

"No spaces?" I said.

"There's no spaces so there's no room for lies"

"Aww my cornball" I said kissing him.

End Flashback

Yea no lies my ass...

But then I turned the bear over and saw a zipper, but it was open a little bit at the top. As if it was opened before. I opened it and felt around the stuffing and felt it...

"Oh my god" I said again.

It was the key chain I gave Toby when I got his truck...there was also a note.

Spencer,

I'm sorry and Iloveyou. Please, be safe. Both of you. Iloveyou both with all my heart. Even if you don't love me anymore. But Spencer, please be careful...trust me about this, be careful. I did what I did, to get out. I will explain One Day because I will be back One Day! One Day, we will see each other again. One Day. If it is ok with you, I would like to be there when you have her, not there, but there. If yes, then just nod. I'm here Spencer. But we can't see each other tonight. But One Day we will

-T

I read the letter, and then I looked up and all around...one day? Why did he emphasis that? Did I want him to be there? He deserves to see her first breath right? So I nodded. Then I heard the bushes move around.

Toby is alive...my daughter's father is alive. But get out of where? Get out of A team? He had to fake his death, in order to get out of the A team?! How do I know that this isn't actually A.

I wrote a note back.

Prove it to me that this is really you. I wrote and stuck below the window where I saw the bushes move.

I can't believe this. Toby might be alive!