Chapter 11: First of school for Spencer and Meyson

I was running around all morning trying to get everything ready for Meyson and I to go to school. There's a daycare center in the school. It's ran by the child growth and development classes. Thankfully I was able to get Meyson in so now I can go and see her throughout the day.

The school year started about 2 weeks ago, but Meyson was sick so I couldn't go. But today the girls are going with me and Meyson. They have to make sure I actually leave her classroom and go to my classes. Meyson is 4 months old already, I can't believe how much she's grown. She's smiling and laughing and showing her personality. She's got blue eyes and blond hair like Toby.

I haven't heard anymore from him since the hospital. Maybe...i was wrong about him again. But I can't dwell over that. Sure, i'm heartbroken and I miss him, but Meyson needs me to be strong. I have to stay focused on everything, I can't let Toby ruin things for us.

"Spencer come on! We're going to be late!" Hanna called for me. They were downstairs with Meyson while I was getting ready.

"Ok, I packed her bottles, diapers, extra clothes, toys, and her blanket and paci" I said going through my list.

"Good now lets go!" Aria said. Aria and Ezra broke up a month ago...and we found out that he's going to be subbing at Rosewood so this is going to be awkward at some point.

Hanna, Aria, and Emily have all stepped up, even Caleb and Paige also. Caleb put her entire nursery together while we were still in the hospital. He and Hanna came over one night and I was actually able to sleep for more than 3 hours.

"Want me to carry that?" He asked when we got there reaching for her carseat.

"Yea thanks" I said. He carried that and I took all the other things.

"Oh no..." Hanna said. We looked ahead and saw Ezra. I linked arms with Aria.

"it's going to be ok" I said. Aria looked hurt when she saw him. She had to break up with him, because she didn't want to take time away from Malcolm. She didn't want to break up with him though, she still loves him...and that's why she's been broken.

"Guys...i don't think I can do this...i'll be at the locker" she said. She leaned into the carseat and kissed Meyson. She turned and walked the other way.

"Oh Spencer...is that Meyson?" he said.

"Yea" I said.

"She's so much bigger since the last time I saw her..." he said. It was weird talking to him.

"Yea...she's growing fast."

"Hows...um..." he started.

"Aria?" Hanna finished for him.

"Yea..." he said.

You could see it in his eyes that he was also hurting, he was also broken.

"Look ezra..." I began.

"It's fine...you know what...I don't need to know. As long as she's happy that's all that matters. I just want her happy" he said.

"You think she's happy?" I said. He looked shocked.

"Ezra she's just as broken as you are. She didn't want you guys to break up. But she didn't want to get between you and Malcolm and your baby momma drama. She ended things because she cared about your and Malcolm's relationship, and she could see that she was getting in the way. She's not happy at all about this. She walked away because she knew that if she saw you she would break down. Maybe if you want her back, you should do something drastic to show her that you can make time for the both of you. You two need each other" Emily said. I was shocked, usually Emily likes to stay out of things like this.

Ezra also looked shocked.

"When your ready, then come talk to us" I said. We walked to the child growth room.

"Hi Spencer" the teacher said.

"hey, i'm dropping off Meyson"

"Ok, just sign in here, and did you make bottles and everything?" she asked.

"Yes I measured the formula and everything, and the water is also in there. She needs to be alternated" I said.

"Ok, i'll make sure I do it then" she said.

"I can come see her right..."

"Of course, whenever you have free time go ahead and come in." she assured me.

"What about us?" Hanna said.

"As long as Spencer has your names on the list"

I nodded. "Yay! Auntie's gonna visit you at lunch" she said. I rolled my eyes.

"Ok bye baby" I said kissing her cheeks.

"Don't worry Spencer, we will call you out of class for anything that is wrong" she said.

"I know...i'll be fine" I said. I handed Meyson to her and the bag of stuff.

We walked to the locker and Aria was there fixing her makeup.

"Hey..." I said.

"Hey...How did dropping off Meyson go?" she asked.

"Good, I didn't cry." I said.

"Damn it...here Caleb" she said handing Caleb a 5.

"You guys betted!?"

"what?! I thought you were gonna cry!" Aria defended. I rolled my eyes at them.

"Come on we all have English together" I said.

We went into English and long behold...there is Ezra.

"Of course. How effing predictable is that!" Aria said.

We walked into the classroom and sat down in our seats. I was thinking about Meyson...i miss her and I miss being at home with her.

"Hey class..." he said trying not to make eye contact with Aria.

He gave us our worksheet and told us what pages. I was pretty lucky coming on a day we have a subsitute I guess.

"You ok?" I mouthed to Aria. She just nodded and continued drawing.

"Hanna, don't you think you could do more of your worksheet and less of shopping on your phone?"

"But Mr. Fitz...I have to shop for my niece!" she said. I looked back at her.

"Hanna no more clothes can fit in her closet" I said.

"Oh good! I'll buy her a display rack!"

I slapped my forehead.

"Hanna, Meyson can't get any cuter, now please put the phone away and do your work before I have to take it" Ezra said.

Aria got up to give him her paper. She didn't look at him, but when she turned around I saw her take a deep breath.

"Uh Aria..." Ezra called her back over. Aria bit her lip and turned around.

"You forgot the back" he said. .

She grabbed the paper and walked back to her seat did the back of the paper in two seconds and took it back up there and then went and ran out of the classroom.

All of us exchanged looks with Ezra.

"Spencer go check on her" he said. I looked at the others who didn't finsh there work.

I walked out and saw Aria go into the bathroom.

"hey what happened?" I said.

"I cant...i can't do this..." she started to cry and I took her into my arms and hugged her.

"I know...it's ok"

Every since I had Meyson, my entire attitude has changed. I used to never be one to show emotion, or affection. But now i'm not that Spencer, i'm mommy Spencer now.

"No it's not Spencer. I can't sit in that class and look at him! Ironically the same class we started our freaking relationship in! I can't...let go of him...of us."

"Then maybe your not supposed to"

"But you and Toby weren't supposed to either and you let go of him"

"But you don't have a baby to look after and be there for. Plus...Toby isn't at my finger tips...Ezra is at yours so you need to get him back"

"i can't Spence...I have to think about Malcolm"

I hugged her again and we stayed in there until class was over. After the bell had rang I went to get my bag.

"Hey Ezra." I said when I walked in.

"Hey...is she um..."

"No she's not ok" I admitted.

"Do you think that plan will work?"

"Yea I do..."

"Then lets do it"

Later on that night Hanna, Emily, Ezra, and I were at Hanna's house.

"Ok so you go and get a hotel room, and you like decorate it all romantically and dim the lights make it all sexy" Hanna suggested.

"That's good" I said holding Meyson and feeding her a bottle.

"Ohh and Spencer makes them dinner!" Emily said. I looked over at her.

"Uhh"

"Oo yes you can make us all dinner!" Hanna said.

"Um...i...ok" I surrendered.

Hanna and Emily celebrated a little.

"When do we do this?" Ezra said.

"Friday" I said.

"How are we going to get her there though?" Hanna asked.

"Just drive her there. She can't jump out of a moving car" I said.

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Friday night

"Ok everything is ready and set..." I said taking a one last look over. Tonight is the night Ezra and Aria are going to get back together.

"You really think this is going to work?" he said.

"of course it is. She loves you. Just make sure you tell her that you are willing to work whatever you have to out in order to have time for the both of you. Then you, Maggie, and Aria can all three talk and work things out" I said.

"Thanks Spencer...i really owe you one" he said.

"No you don't...just keep her happy" I said.

It was bitter sweet. I loved to be able to see Aria happy. But I also wish this was me...that I had this...had someone at least.

But it's not times like these that I really miss Toby...it's in the middle of the night, when i'm awake with Meyson, and I look over at the window...and I see nothing I have noone to stay up with me, to alternate with or to just overall be with. Who knows though, maybe one day will still be here. But i'm not keeping my hopes up.

"Ok she's here. Good luck" I said sneaking out of the room.

Hanna drove Aria up here and led her to the room. She thinks it's a hotel party and Hanna needed her to go to spy on Caleb.

I snuck past them and got in the car. Hanna pushed her into the room and closed the door and ran to the car.

"Lets wait for a while...just in case" I said when she got into the car.

"I hope this works" I said.

"me too" she said.

I let out a little sigh.

"It's going to happen for you one day Spence..." she said holding my hand for support.

"I hope so"