Chapter 11

Mark and Derek were sitting in the café eating lunch. "Why did you and Addison break up?"

"I cheated on her."

"I know but she said there was another reason as well."

Mark looked hesitant but talked anyway. "She was pregnant."

"Oh my god."

"Yes she had an abortion."

"Addie had an abortion but why?"

"Apparently I'm a pathetic excuse for a human," he said sadly.

Mark had done a lot of bad things but he did not deserve that. "I have to go," said Derek standing up, I'll come round later."

"It's fine you don't have to baby sit me." Mark laughed, "Baby sit, how appropriate."

"I will be round later," Derek said firmly.

He left the café and went to find Izzie. She found him first. "Dr Shepherd I have the CT results. We need to operate."

"Izzie, I need to talk to you, it's important."

"Ok," they went into an empty conference room. "What is it?"

"You have to tell Mark."

"Derek we've been through this."

"No Izzie, Addison got pregnant in New York and she had the baby aborted." Izzie's eyes widened in shock. "He has the right to know."

"If I don't tell him he'll never know, it won't matter."

"It will, don't do this to him Izzie please."

She put her hand to her mouth, pushed past Derek and ran to the toilets. He followed her but waited outside. She came back out, "sorry about that."

"It's fine are you still going ahead."

"With the abortion, yes."

"You don't have to, even if Mark's not here for you, which he will be, you have everyone else, me, Meredith, Christina, Alex, you have everyone here for you, you do not have to do this."

"You have no idea how much that means to me, I just I can't do it."

His pager beeped. "It's Mr Thorn, do you have his results."

"Yeah I left them in the conference room. I'll go get them."

It was a few hours later and the surgery had been a success, "Do you want a lift home?" Derek asked Izzie.

"No, it's fine, I have to do something first." She left him and went to the gallery to watch Mark's surgery. When it had finished she waited until Mark was left alone in the OR and went down to talk to him.

"Mark I need to talk to you."

He looked surprised to see her. "Izzie what, why?"

"I'm…" she stopped and put her hand to her stomach. She bit her lip, obviously in pain.

"What's wrong?" said Mark immediately concerned.

"Nothing, it's nothing; I can't talk to you right now."

She ran out of the room and leant against the wall, breathing slowly. Something was wrong, she could feel it, she had to find Addison. "Stevens are you ok?" It was Bailey.

"No, I need to get Dr Montgomery."

"Are you pregnant?"

"Please Dr Bailey, please can you find her for me."

Bailey stopped a passing nurse. "Find Dr Montgomery immediately, tell its urgent, get her to meet me in room 20."

The nurse nodded and ran away, leaving Izzie and Bailey by themselves. "Come with me." She took Izzie's hand and gently led her to the empty room.

Addison was there a few minutes later. She took one look at Izzie and immediately began checking her and asking her questions. "Has there been any bleeding." Izzie shook her head. "Ok I need you to lie back so I can do an ultrasound." Izzie's pager started beeping.

"Just ignore it," Bailey said taking it away from her.

"Izzie, I'm so sorry," said Addison after she had done the ultrasound.

"I've miscarried." It wasn't a question, it was a statement.

"Is there anyone you would like to be here?" She knew that they meant Mark.

"Please get Meredith."

Bailey nodded and went to find Meredith.

She found Derek first. "Have you seen Meredith?"

"I was talking to her earlier but I've not seen her since, have you seen Stevens because she failed to answer her page which resulted in my patient dying," said Derek angrily.

"I told Stevens not to answer it."

"Why would you do that?"

"She couldn't answer it. That should be enough for you."

"Is the baby ok?"

"You knew," said Bailey, her voice rising. "You knew."

"Yes, well I basically live with her."

"She lost it."

"Oh no, is she ok? Wait don't answer that of course she's not ok, is there anything I can do?"

"She wants Meredith. Was Mark the father?"

"Yes."

"Did he know?"

"No. I'm going to go tell him."

"Does Izzie want him to know?"

"No but I'm going to tell him anyway and don't try and talk me out of it."

"I'm not going to; I think you should tell him."

"Good."

"How attached was she?"

"She said she was going to get an abortion but I don't think she could've gone through with it."

"Ok you go find Mark and I'll find Meredith."

Mark had been searching for Izzie since she had run out of the OR. He couldn't find her anywhere where was she?

"Mark I need to talk to you?"

"I need to find Izzie, she came into the OR and said she had to tell me something but then she ran out, she didn't look well."

"She's not."

"What happened," asked Mark feeling sick at the thought of something bad happening to Izzie.

"You might want to sit down for this."

"Derek please just tell me what's going on."

"Izzie found out she was pregnant about a week ago." Mark sank down into a chair. "She had a miscarriage."

"Why didn't she tell me, why didn't you tell me, how did you even found out?"

"The only people that knew were Meredith, Addison, now Bailey and me. I found the pregnancy test in the bin. She didn't tell you because of how you broke up with her. I didn't tell you because she begged me not to."

"She was coming to tell me, that was why she was looking for me."

"She's with Meredith now."

"I can't believe this. What was she going to do with the baby?"

Derek did not want to tell Mark about the abortion. "I don't know."

"You don't have to lie to me, she was going to have an abortion."

"Yes," said Derek simply.

"I need to be alone right now."

"I don't think that's a good idea."

"Derek please." Mark said with tears in his eyes.

"I'll speak to you after."

Meredith and Izzie were at home sitting in the kitchen. "What do you want for dinner?" asked Meredith.

"I'm not hungry."

"Izzie please you have to eat something, I'm going to order Chinese."

"You hate Chinese food."

"Yeah but you like it."

"Why aren't you out with Derek?"

"Because I want to be here with you."

"I'm fine."

"You say that but you're not. I'm just saying that I'm here for you if you want to talk or to cry," said Meredith remembering when Christina lost her baby.

"I'm not going to have a break down like Christina."

"I didn't say that, I said I'm here for you that's all."

"Thanks."

"No problem."

"So where is Derek anyway?"

"Emm he's with Mark."

"He told Mark. I told him not to."

"I know but he was worried about you and whatever you say it was Mark's baby too."

"I was going to tell him."

"You were?"

"Yes, I went to tell him but then that's when I miscarried."

"What did he do?"

"I don't know, I ran out before he could do or say anything. Do you think it would have been different if he was still here?"

"I think you would be in a lot less pain."

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right

The All-American Rejects – It Ends Tonight

So Izzie lost the baby and now Mark knows! Thanks so much to all the people who reviewed, I live for them lol, keep them coming..x