author's note: thank you for reading. this is my first fanfiction so i hope you like it. please review. i'll try to put chapter three online by next week.
Seeing Jake reminded me of what happened about two months ago. It was a rough time, for me ànd for Jake. My life seems to follow the same pattern over and over, just when I think life is great, everything falls apart.
Me and Jake had a great time together. I'd go over to see him every day. We'd take walks on the beach, I'd sit with him while he'd work on his car, … I felt alive again. Charlie was right, I should learn to love what's good for me. Ofcourse I already loved Jake wholeheartedly, but I would never love him like I loved Edward. The thought sickened me. I couldn't do that to Jake, he deserved a girl who loved him as much as he loved me. Maybe he'd imprint, he'd be happy. The thought of jake with another made me crumble to the ground. I couldn't give him what he deserved, but I couldn't let another girl have him. My Jake. My personal sun.
Jake had asked me to see a movie together. I really liked the thought, so I dressed up nicely. As long as Jake wanted to be close to me, and gave his heart to me, the least I could do is look good and give him all the love I could. But I wasn't ready for a romantic movie, somehow Jake seemed relieved. Maybe he wasn't the guy for romantic movies. So we decided on an action movie with quite a bit of blood. Jake held out his hand while watching, I hesitated, but I ended up giving in. I put my hand in his and I gave him a quick look, there was my favourite smile.He felt even warmer than usual. I resisted the urge to put my other hand on his forehead. I turned my eyes back to the screen.
Jacob seemed unable to sit still. This wasn't the jake I was used to. "Jake?" I whispered. "Are you ok? You're really hot." "I know I'm hot Bells, but let's save that for after the movie." He winked at me. "Jake, i'm serious. I'm worried about you." But he didn't reply anymore. The sweat dripped of his face. "Let's go out Jake, please." He didn't answer, he stood up and followed me. We sat on the stairs next to the ticket counter. "Thanks bells, fresh air feels good." We sat there for a while, when suddenly he jerked up. "Bells, I'm not feeling too good. I'm sorry, but could we go?" "Ofcourse Jake" I hooked my arm into his, trying to support him. Not that I would be able to hold him in case that he'd go down.
I put him in the passenger's seat and I hurried to take place behind the steering wheel. I drove off as fast as I could."Hold on Jake, we're almost there." "I'm so sorry, this was our first real date." He looked apologetic. "It's not your fault you're sick, Jake." I took one hand of the steering wheel and went through his hair. He tried to smile, I saw him getting worse by the minute. I got really worried, I realised I had never seen Jacob sick before. I parked in front of his house. I helped Jake out of the car and he hugged me really tight.
"Bells, I'll call you as soon as I feel better. We still have to finish our date properly." It took him some effort, but he winked at me and showed me a mini version of my favourite smile. I walked him to the front porch, when the door opened. Billy took a glimpse of Jacob and said he should come inside. "Bye, Bella. Give my regards to Charlie." He said. Billy slammed the door shut. "Well that was nice." I thought to myself. I couldn't help but feel disappointed.
I had no idea our lives would really start to change from that point on. I heard Charlie's car on the driveway, that brought me back to the present. I took my stuff and headed inside. "Hi Bells. What's for dinner?" "Hi dad. Fish I guess, it's only been like.. two days?" He grinned. Charlie headed out to fish nearly every weekend and if he didn't Billy would bring some fish that Sue had cooked. So we ate fish almost every day. It was still better than eating steak every day at the diner.I cooked dinner and we ate in silence. When I got up to clear the table, Charlie stopped me. "I'll do the dishes tonight, Bells. You look tired. You should go to bed early today." "Thanks dad." I really was grateful. I went to the bathroom and took a shower.
Yes, I was very disappointed. Jake was ill and I would have to find a way to spend time by myself. I threw myself on schoolwork and chores around the house. It was strange how fast I was done with these things. Time ran so slowly without jake. Days passed, and no phone call from Jake. "He must be really sick" I thought to myself.
After a week I decided to call him. I knew he said he'd call, but I was so worried and I had to hear his voice. Billy answered the Phone: "Hello" "Hi, Billy? It's Bella .. Swan. Can I talk to Jacob?" " He's not feeling good, he'll call you later." "ok".. He had hung up before I could say goodbye. Another week passed and no word from Jake. This was getting weird.
I decided to go and see Jake myself. He could stay in bed if he wanted, I only wanted to se him for a little while. I needed him. I wasn't feeling too good myself lately. Since he was sick already, I probably got it from him. I got in my truck and drove to La Push.
There he was, in the pouring rain, without even a shirt on. He looked huge. His beautiful long hair was cut short and he had a tattoo. I was confused. I got out and marched towards him. "Jake! … Jake!" He slowly turned around to look at me, then I saw where he had been going. Three huge guys stood near the edge of the forest. They could've been brothers by the look of them. They where enormous, black short hair, rusty skin tone and they all had the same tattoo. The same tattoo as Jake now had. Jacob now walked towards me.
" Bella, why are you here?" "I needed to see you Jake, I missed you. I was worried!" There was no life in his eyes, the cheerful Jake had been hidden somewhere deep down. "Jake, i thought you were sick!?" "Bella, go away" He said in a monotonous voice. "Jake?" "We can't be friends anymore, Bella." I noticed he hadn't called me Bells since the time I got here, what happened to my Jacob?" "We can't be.. friends?" "No, Bella. It's over." I panicked, you could hear it in my voice. "You're breaking up with me?!" My voice broke. "Bella, I'm not good for you." "What do you mean Jacob? You are good!" "No, not anymore. I used to be good, a good kid, but everything is different now." I couldn't believe my ears. "What's changed? Talk to me Jake!" I urged. " I'm sorry Bella. It's my fault, not yours." "It's not you, it's me, huh?" I felt dizzy, the world seemed to be spinning. "Go home Bella." He turned around. I lost my composure, I was falling. Everything turned black.
When I opened my eyes. Everything was white. I realised soon enough where I was, I had been here numerous times. The hospital. " How did I get here? " I asked. "A dark guy brought you in." "Jake?" I called hopefully. "He already left sweety, as soon as he brought you in he was gone." It felt like a dagger to my heart. Jake, I've lost him. First the love of my life and now Jake, my best friend.. no he was more than that.
"Now let's take care of you dear." The nurse said. She drew my blood and let me fill in some paper with too many questions. "The doctor will be here shortly." I immediately thought of Carlisle, but no that wasn't possible. After a while of lying there and thinking about Jacob, the doctor showed up.
" Bella Swan?" "Yes?" "So I have your results here." Nothing could have prepared me for what was coming. "Ms. Swan, from the results of the blood work we concluded that you are pregnant. Congratulations!" If I could I've fainted again.
"Pregnant?" Fear overwhelmed me. "Yes, you're having a baby" I started crying inconsolably. What could I do? I was pregnant. I was having Jacob's baby, we were too young for this. How could this have happened? Then it hit me: we hadn't used a condom, and I wasn't on birth control. No matter how many times I ran over what happened that one time, I couldn't remember Jacob taking a condom. In the heat of things, we simply forgot.
Then something else came to me. It had been over two months ago! "How far am I?" My voice was trembling. "We need to do an ultrasound to confirm." While doing the ultrasound, the doctor said: "It's as I had expected, you're about thirteen weeks pregnant." It couldn't be.
When I got home I crashed. I broke down in tears and couldn't stop for hours. Thank god Charlie wasn't home yet. The doctor assured me he was bound to patient confidentiality and no one would find out. I had so many questions and no answers. Even if I couldn't tell Jake, he wasn't here so I couldn't cry in his arms.
That night I dreamt Jake was in my room. I missed him so much. He didn't do anything, he just stood there.A few days later I heard something at my window. Jake was throwing peddles at it. "Can I come in?" he asked. I nodded. "Move aside." I didn't get what he was going at, until he climbed the tree next to my window. "Jake, that's crazy!" But it was to late.
He jumped and landed in an unusual elegant manner next to me. "Hi Bells." He said with a faint smile, it wasn't my smile. What had happened to my Jacob? What could've hurt him like this? "Bella, I wànt to tell you what's going on, but i literally can't." "You can't?" He sighed. "No, but you can find out." I got hope. "Do you remember the day at the beach, with the quilleute legends?" I didn't have to think twice. "Ofcourse I do." "Do you remember all the stories?" I tought a second about it. "Well, there was one about the cold-ones." He looked disappointed. "Right. But the other stories? The one about the history of our tribe." I couldn't remember, no matter how hard I tried I couldn't recall what he had said about the tribe. "Please remember Bella, I can't tell it. But you can find out. Things would be so much easier if you did." And he was gone.
That night I dreamt of Jake, I often did lately. But this time it was different. Jake ws next to me on the beach telling stories, the next second a giant russet wolf stood beside me. I remembered. I jumped out of bed, not caring about the time. I had to see Jacob. When I got there Jacob had already heard my car. He already stood outside.
" Jake I remembered." He let out a sigh of relief. "You did?" "Yes! The story about the wolves! The tribe members who turned into wolves to protect the others from the cold-ones." He smiled, it was my smile. "Bella, please brace yourself for what's going to happen next." "what's going to .." I couldn't finish my sentence. Jake had exploded! There was a giant russet wolf at the spot where Jake stood just one moment ago." Jake was a werewolf?