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And now back to the story, this chapter might not be as interesting, but I feel Jacob's view is necessary from time to time. Please enjoy!
Update: [1] English version of 'love in the ice' by DBSK. [2] Animal I have become by Three days grace.

Jacob's POV

Me and Bells used to have a great time together. She was my life, my everything, she still is. But we had a rough time. Life seemed perfect, then I turned into a wolf. Who would've ever thought the stories were real? After she found out, things went better for a while. But she became distant. It's like she is avoiding me. I thought she had gotten over the fact that I was a shape shifter. Yes it was a huge shock, but she had handled it quite well. Or so I thought.

My temperature had risen steadily over the last couple of months. I had a constant temperature of about 40°C, but I wasn't feeling sick. To be honest I had never felt better. I saw that Bella was on the mend. She smiled more often and she wanted to see me almost every day. Life was good.

I was so nervous. " Hi bells." I said as she walked towards my house. "Hi Jake, what are we going to do today?" I wanted to ask her out, for real. I was scared, what if she said no? Ofcourse she often wanted to see me and we always had loads of fun. But a real date, I had no idea what she would say to that. She had been such a mess after he left. She had lost so much weight, I doubted it was even healthy anymore. She had always been slim, now she was plain skin and bones. You could still see her beauty, I wanted her to be healthy again though. Her eyes had gotten their sparkle back. I knew it was because of me, she lit up every time she saw me. All that didn't matter though, I was her best friend, she had never seen me as dating material. That hurt. But I would do anything to win her for me. I gathered my courage and showed her my favorite smile. "What are you thinking Jake?" She asked. I went for it.

"Bells, I know it's not something we should do now. What do you think about seeing a movie together?" God, that didn't come out like me. It was so obvious I had been rehearsing this. I wanted to sweep her of her feet, this wouldn't do. To my surprise she started giggling, I had never heard her do so before. I looked at her in awe. "Bells?" I couldn't help but raise an eyebrow. "Sorry Jake. It's just, the way you asked, it was actually kind acute." "CUTE?" I was shocked, she could cal me anything, but cute? I waited for her to say something. I could see the wheels in her head turning. I almost couldn't believe she as actually considering. I let out a smile. That jerked her out of her thoughts. "Ok, let's do this!" "Bells, REALLY?" I must've heard it wrong, I'm imagining things. 'I did ask you out on a DATE. Bells." She smiled at me. "I figured that out. Jake, I think I'm ready. I want to go on a date with you." She smiled again, this time reassuringly. "I'm so happy, what about Saturday? 7 p.m. ?" "sounds good." I thought I could explode from happiness.

I had no idea that my life would make such a drastic turn at the time. Still I don't regret asking Bella to go out with me. My only regret is hurting Bella with what happened afterwards.

We were going to see a movie tonight, just me and Bells. I was never a person to care what I wore. Lately I even felt clothes were becoming unnecessary. It was warm enough without them, I couldn't remember when I started feeling that way. But that night I wanted to look my best. Our first date. This could be the start of the life I always dreamed of, a life with Bella.

Like the stars which don't leave the darkened sky,
Being together forever by the faith of love,
If I could be that person,
I'll embrace your solid heart with eternal warmth
[1]

I arrived at her house. I was early. She said she was going to drive, I wasn't exactly thrilled about that. Bells was a good driver, and the Chevy was a nice car, but it was way to slow. But I wasn't going to complain, I already got what I wanted. The least I could do was let her drive.

When I saw her I was surprised, I had never seen her dressed up like this. Maybe for the prom last year, when she was going with him. I felt angry at te thought. I tried to calm down and focused on her, damn she was gorgeous. We talked the entire way to the movie theater. When we arrived she insisted on an action movie, instead of a romantic one. I had to admit, she was growing on me even more. I really didn't feel like watching romantic stuff, I would live my own romance.

While watching the movie I started to sweat. I wasn't as nervous as I thought I would be. But I felt my temperature rising quickly. This time I really had a fever, I felt terrible. But I had to stay strong, keep up appearances. I couldn't ruin our first date by getting sick. When she finally put her hand in mine I let out her favourite smile. She looked worried. "Jake?" She whispered. "Are you ok? You're really hot." "I know I'm hot Bells, but let's save that for after the movie." I winked at her. "Jake, i'm serious. I'm worried about you." I couldn't say anything after that. Things went from bad to worse. It felt like I was on fire, and not the pleasant way.

The sweat dripped of my face. "Let's go out Jake, please." I didn't answer, I just stood up and followed her. We sat on the stairs next to the ticket counter. "Thanks bells, fresh air feels good." We sat there for a while, when suddenly I jerked up. I couldn't go on like this. I was going crazy. "Bells, I'm not feeling too good. I'm sorry, but could we go?" "Ofcourse Jake" She hooked her arm into mine, trying to support me. She put me in the passenger's seat and hurried to take place behind the steering wheel. She drove off as fast as her Chevy would go.

"Hold on Jake, we're almost there." She said, I had never seen such a worried look on her face. "I'm so sorry, this was our first real date."I looked apologetic. "It's not your fault you're sick, Jake." She took one hand of the steering wheel and went through my hair. I tried to smile,it had never been this hard to smile. She parked in front of my house. She helped me out of the car and I hugged her really tight. "Bells, I'll call you as soon as I feel better. We still have to finish our date properly." It wasn't easy, but I winked at her and gave her something that was supposed to be her favourite smile. While walking to the front porch, the door opened. Dad took a glimpse of me and said I should come inside. "Bye, Bella. Give my regards to Charlie."He said. He slammed the door shut.

I had ruined our date, to say the least. But the worst had yet to come. I shook uncontrollably thinking of how rude he had been to Bella. I felt a shiver down my spine. "Jacob." Dad said to me. I looked at him. "I think you'd better go outside." He said in calm tone. First I had to come inside? Then he kicks me out? What was that old man thinking? I did as he said, while I was walking for the door I felt that I was about to explode. I had no idea why, but I ran for it. The minute I got outside, I really DID explode. Suddenly I was on all fours, I had no idea what had happened.

I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
[2]

"Jake?" I heard. I looked around, there was nobody near me. It confused me. NOW I WAS HEARING VOICES IN MY HEAD? I really must have gone crazy. "Jake, calm down. You're not crazy." The voice said. That's when I recognised it: it was Sam Uley. "Sam.. Sam Uley?" I couldn't say anything else. "I know you're confused. Come to my place I'll explain everything to you." My legs started moving towards Sam's house, I didn't even want to go there, my legs just started to run. When I looked to the ground, I didn't see my hands and feet. Even though I was on all four that was what I had expected. I saw four furry PAWS. I reached Sam's house in no time, was I really that fast?

Sam came out, so did Embry and a guy I recognised as Paul. "Embry? What is this about?" But I didn't hear the words come out of my mouth. All I heard was some strange barking sound. Embry and Paul looked at Sam. I followed their eyes and looked to Sam as well. Was this the moment? Would they perform some kind of ceremony that made me belong to their sect? "Jacob, don't freak out. We're going to phase too, it will be easier to explain." suddenly they exploded as well, three giant wolves stood in front of me. A movie started to play in front of my eyes, it was a bunch of memories. The first time Sam phased, not knowing how to phase back. Him going to the elders, with in the middle MY DAD. They decided that all the legends must have been true. Him finally being able to phase back. Paul and Embry that joined him. And finally me transforming in a giant wolf like them. "How? How do I know these things" I asked myself. But Sam answered. We're a pack of shape shifters. We can hear each others thoughts, when we are in wolf form. Sam explained me everything there was to know about being a shape shifter. He also told me I should stay away from Bella, she was not my imprint. It was dangerous for her and only the imprint could know the tribe secrets. I protested. Sam used his authority and forbid me to tell Bella anything.

I was confused. I wanted to see Bella, I promised her I'd call. She tried to call me numerous times, I couldn't answer. What if I would hurt her? For her sake I had to give up our friendship, no matter what I had promised her. It broke me to pieces, I couldn't care less about an imprint. All I wanted was Bella, my Bells.

I was just on my way to see the pack, we had to go run perimeters. To protect the tribe from vàmpires. Yes, that was also a part of the deal, we had to kill vampires. I had found out that Bella had been dating one of them, that LEECH, Edward Cullen. When I was walking towards Sam and the others, I heard Bella's car on the driveway. "Please no." I thought to myself. "Jake! … Jake!" She called at me. I slowly turned around to look at her. It pained me, but I had to chase her away." Bella, why are you here?"I asked in a vile tone. "I needed to see you Jake, I missed you. I was worried!" She paused for a moment. I wished I could hear what she was thinking at that moment. "Jake, i thought you were sick!?" "Bella, go away" I said in a monotonous voice. "Jake?" She pleaded. "We can't be friends anymore, Bella." It hurt so much to say that, I hoped she'd hear the pain in my voice. I hoped she'd hear I didn't want this ether. "We can't be.. friends?" "No, Bella. It's over." I said the words I thought I'd never say. I wanted to be with her. "You're breaking up with me?!" Her voice broke. "Bella, I'm not good for you." "What do you mean Jacob? You are good!" "No, not anymore. I used to be good, a good kid, but everything is different now."She looked at me in disbelief.. "What's changed? Talk to me Jake!" She urged. " I'm sorry Bella. It's my fault, not yours." "It's not you, it's me, huh?" She just stood there, something wasn't right. "Go home Bella." I turned around and started to walk away. I wanted to look at her one more time. I gave her a glimpse. That's when I saw her falling. I ran towards her as fast as I could and held her before she had reached the ground. "Jacob!" Sam was angry. " I'm sorry, Sam, I'm just going to bring her to a hospital. It's my fault she fainted, I at least have to make sure she'll be ok. I'll leave as soon as she's safe." He just nodded.

I hadn't heard from her since the day that I dropped her off at the hospital. I was worried. I had to see her.

I ran to her house and threw peddles at her window. "Can I come in?" I asked. She nodded. "Move aside." I climbed the tree next to her window. "jake, that's crazy!" But it was to late. I jumped and landed next to her. "Hi Bells." I said with a faint smile. "Bella, I wànt to tell you what's going on, but i literally can't." "You can't?" I sighed. "No, but you can find out." I saw hope in her eyes. "Do you remember the day at the beach, with the quilleute legends?" "Ofcourse I do." She answered immediately. "Do you remember all the stories?" "Well, there was one about the cold-ones." I couldn't help but look disappointed, ofcourse THAT she'd remember. "Right. But the other stories? The one about the history of our tribe." I saw the wheels in her head spin, but no answer. "Please remember Bella, I can't tell it. But you can find out. Things would be so much easier if you did." And so I left.The next day I heard Bella's car stop on the driveway. I went outside in a hurry. " Jake I remembered." I couldn't help but let out a sigh of relief. "You did?" "Yes! The story about the wolves! The tribe members who turned into wolves to protect the others from the cold-ones." I smiled. "Bella, please brace yourself for what's going to happen next." "what's going to .." I didn't let her finish her sentence, I exploded. There was the giant wolf version of me, just where a second ago my human shape had been. Even though she had guessed it, she looked at me in awe.Yes I was a 'werewolf'.