Insanewelshangel: I'm so late! Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry! I love you all. Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry!

Anyway, boy I am lucky to be on…well I can't say the internet because it kind of isn't O.o I am missing my Cherub so much I think I'm going emo over her XD Oh great, and if I'm not depressed enough as it is a song that never ever fails to make me cry has just come on. Wah cherrruuuuubbbbb…. anyway back to the topic, my sister has gone out clubbing so I was able to finish off this chapter. I am very lucky to be able to do so, so I'm taking my chance to update now!

Oh man this song always kills me. I need a hug so bad.

Disclaimer: D! Anyway Beyblade © Aoki Takao. I FAIL AT LIFE! Um, I mean, please read on : D!

His eyes stared fixedly onto that one boring spot on his ceiling, his blanket writhed and wrapped around his lower body as he skilfully suppressed a yawn. Rei's head was swimming-drowning- in thoughts of Kai. At first he felt sick, disgusted by the idea of a relative condemning a relative. Then, he felt pity and sorrow for the tainted man in his house. Now he didn't know what to think. He did know one thing though, and that was whenever he thought of those wings, so real it looked like they might take flight, he felt bile rising in his throat. The soundless screams and agonisingly racking sobs that surrounded those tattoos was enough to make Rei want to run away.

His fatigued eyes travelled to his window, slightly amused at how when the curtains were drawn shut across the window, it looked like something out of a sci-fi movie due to the street light trying to pool in from outside. The mysteries, the sins, the truths from the lies; everything became so much more deeper. He hated to admit it but the more he learnt about Kai, the more he became confused. Kai. Even the name sounded surreal at the moment. Rei thought it either sounded like redemption, or losing faith.

Rei also thought he was looking into it too much and should get some damn sleep.

It was strange living with the bluenette, everything Rei had ever thought or even known before was being questioned, all because of that one person. No, he was much better then a simple mortal, Rei contemplated. Kai was like the god that had made mortals', so while his creation lived in false hope, he never could. He knew what would happen; distrust, arguments, wars and too much pride. He knew it all; Rei was just one of the unintelligent pawns on the giant chessboard the world was. Kai was the king of the game, but he didn't like it. It was almost as though he took punishment willingly just to take away some of the guilt--what guilt, Rei didn't know.

Is it worth it?

…

Is he worth it?

…

Stop; Rewind.

Killer. That's the one that stuck in their heads. The ones that made them run.

"Figured me out yet?"

Perfect; Play.

"Just who are you exactly?" Rei sighed, his brows furrowing in contemplation, the dark thoughts consuming him at the equally dark hour. 'And what is it about you I can't stop thinking about?'

Oh, you honestly don't know yet?

It's because he's not normal. It's because he's different and cursed. It's because those lips with splashes of red and a tint of corruption haunt your mind because you want to feel them against your own.

It's because he is a possession, and you can claim him.

Rei quickly turned his lamp on, as the shadows seemed to grow. They retreated quickly and hid away, dancing in the frozen moonlight that only the dead could ever walk in.

It's because he is a monster.

XOXOXO

It's funny how the simplest and most innocently started conversations are the ones you'll always remember. What you hold your breath and wish with all your might to just be a friendly talk without awkwardness suddenly turns into a downward spiral of confusion and you're searching for a way out. Just one normal question, asked every day all around the world, could have the worst answer pass imagination.

"Didn't you get much sleep last night?"

Kai shook his head negatively.

"How come?" Rei took a sip of his orange juice and sat down at the breakfast bar beside Kai.

"I was busy"

"Oh, well at least you did something productive then, eh? Would you like to go anywhere today?"

Rei asked it everyday, he didn't know why he bothered but he always did. Kai would always just respond with a risen eyebrow though, meaning no.

"Yes"

The younger one smiled and nodded enthusiastically "Well, where to? Do you want to go on your own?" He added as an afterthought, he felt suddenly sad once he finished his sentence. Kai wasn't a baby, he didn't need Rei with him but that didn't mean the neko-jin didn't want to get to know him better.

Kai shifted his contemplating scarlet gaze from the patch of bright sunlight onto him and looked into the golden orbs, "Never mind, I don't really want to go now"

"Oh" Rei stared down at the linoleum countertop of the bar, absentmindedly tracing the patterns. Maybe it was because he came across to strong?

"It's just that…"

He looked up; a glimmer of hope in his eyes "Just that…?"

Kai didn't answer. Rei sighed, he should have known better then to push the bluenette into answering. He got up, taking a semi-wet cloth and wiped the counter's down with it, sweeping any crumbs onto his hand before placing them in the bin.

"I…"

Rei turned around and walked back to him, laying a gentle hand on his shoulder with a calm smile, letting him know he didn't have to carry on but he could if he wanted to.

"I… it's not a good idea"

Rei kept his smile in place but mentally he was frowning 'Why the sudden change?' "Oh ok, it's probably for the best it's supposed to be raining later" He added with a scrunched up face.

Kai spoke up "For someone who tries understand the misunderstood, you are hypocritical" Rei didn't miss the sarcasm on that 'tries' bit. He frowned.

"Eh?"

"The rain" Kai explained "Is misunderstood" He pushed back his chair and stood from the table, avoiding that patch of light he was inspecting as though he didn't want to taint it, he didn't want to blemish something so amazing. Rei quickly caught up to the strange male and looked for something to say. To his surprise, Kai beat him to it "Tell me, do you like spiders?"

Rei did his best to hide his grimace but obviously failed "Ok, no, I don't"

"Why?"

"They're creepy…their legs and the way they crawl so fast across the room when you least expect it. And they feast on blood! Even if they are annoying flies, but still-"

"Have you ever seen a spider making a web?"

Rei blinked at the quietly spoken question, shaking his head. "No, on TV but not in real life"

"If you did?" Silence. "Well next time you see a spider building a web, just watch it"

"I don't understand"

"When you watch, and don't talk, you will"

Rei moved his hand down, across Kai's shoulder blade and down his spine, where those cursed wings were. The bluenette tensed up and stared dead ahead. "Don't touch me" Don't touch them

Rei felt a slice of pain shooting through his chest at the angry voice "I'm sorry"

Kai said nothing and walked ahead, looking as though he knew where he wanted to go even though he just wanted to get away. Rei clenched his fist by his side, pushing away the numb pain and calling out to the retreating figure.

"Kai! Wait, I really am sorry"

He looked behind and shrugged "Are you going to stand there all day?" Rei continued peering at the ground as though it would give him all he ever wanted. Kai grunted and ran a hand through his two toned hair "Are you in love with the floor or something?"

"Not the floor, no" He answered before his brain caught up with his words. As soon as he heard the heavy silence, Rei snapped a hand over his mouth, blushing and turned, pausing before walking away. Kai stared after him.

"Rei?" The boy in question stopped uncertainly "Love…" Rei bit his bottom lip, continuing even as he felt the metallic taste of blood "Isn't real. It's a lie; I've given up on it. Don't mention that word again."

He couldn't even manage a nod before fleeing to the safety of the kitchen.

XOXOXO

Rei curled up under his blankets, feeling oddly cold. 'He doesn't believe in it…he doesn't believe in it…he doesn't believe in it!' He frowned, scrunching up his eyes to stop any tears that might spill. He hated crying, it was worse than rain. 'There's nothing I can do…is there? There has to be something, I can't just let it slip by without a fight!'

What could he exactly do? The person he had fallen in love with didn't love him back, but he still had to act like nothing was wrong. He decided to stay optimistic and keep working at making Kai a more trusting person. That was the plan. Of course, plans don't always go to plan.

Kai sighed, snapping his book shut across the hall to Rei's bedroom. He had picked up on some of the muffled sobs radiating from there and felt an uneasy twisting in his stomach because of it. All he really knew was that Rei was happy, not sincerely 24/7 happy, but in general. A fire of protection swelled up in his chest as he wondered what hurt the neko-jin, then decided it was none of his business anyway. He was relieved the crying had stopped at least. The blanket was pooled in his lap as he rested against the headboard of his bed; the curtains open so the streetlights would share some of their luminosity with him. Wondering just what the hell he was doing, he stepped out of his bed and out of his room, only looking back to glare at the sky. Pausing outside Rei's door, standing still as he listened for any sounds from within the room. He lowered his cerise orbs to the door handle, reaching his hand out for it. He heard a cough from within the room and sharply withdrew his hand like it had touched the fire of hell.

He scowled to himself, spinning around on his heel and making to march back into his own room. He was too quick to trust the Chinese youth, that's what his mind told him. Yet Kai felt like he shouldn't agree, maybe if he tried a test to see whether he really could trust the boy? Yes, that's what he would do. He stopped, not far from Rei's door and pondered on what he could possibly tell him.

"Kai?"

The bluenette stepped back, snapping out of his daydreaming quickly. Looking up he saw a shocked Rei quickly rubbing his eyes.

"Sorry, uh you can't sleep either?"

Kai went to shake his head but stopped himself, he was tired, he wanted to go back to bed but that look Rei gave him was clearly begging the answer would be 'No I can't sleep either' The sunny orbs were red and sore, and his stomach twisted uncomfortably again.

"Kai?"

"Kai? Help me! Kai!" The bluenette's eyes widened and his head seared with pain "Kai? Kai please!" With a gasp he felt himself bumping into the wall, placing a hand on his forehead the red-eyed boy closed his orbs, lowering his head and gritting his teeth. Not now, why now?

"Kai!" Rei shook his shoulders, crouching before him with a confused and scared look "Are you alright?"

"H-hn" He replied, pushing himself off the floor "Just vertigo" He explained. Rei nodded but didn't seem too sure.

"Want to get a hot drink?" Rei questioned, flicking some ebony hair from his eyes and bouncing uncertainly on the balls of his feet "Look like you need it"

Not giving an answer as usual, he just followed the tanned youth down the stairs, his slim silhouette leading the way. Kai found his eyes tracing the neko-jin once more, he really was good looking. He frowned at his thoughts and sighed, watching as Rei flicked the kitchen lights on and dimmed them to a softer light. He started singing lowly to a not-so-well known song, and filled the kettle. Kai took his seat and closed his blood red depths, wondering why those memories were starting to flood his brain again. Of course he knew the answer deep down, but he didn't want to accept it.

The neko-jin nodded slightly to his song, fingers tapping gently on the work surface. He wondered how bad he looked then, hair all over the place and it must have been obvious he was crying, yet Kai said nothing about it and for that he was grateful.

"Rei"

The younger jumped at the sudden voice and spun around with a smile "Yeah?"

"I want to tell you something"

"Ok" Rei padded over to the breakfast bar and sat down, clasping his hands on the table before him and tilting his head to the side

"You wanted to know why I'm running away from where I 'live'?"

Rei nodded slowly, he couldn't appear too curious otherwise it would throw the elder off. The slight rustling of his pyjama bottoms and shirt was the only sound to fill the intense atmosphere he tried so vainly to ignore, moving to sit and settle himself comfortably.

Kai was pointlessly drawing something with his finger on the table surface; Rei noticed the stiffness of the elder's shoulders and how it appeared that he was summoning up the best way to tell Rei something without saying too much. "It's all because of one being," He broke off quickly, sighing and leaning back in his chair. Rei felt filthy as soon as Kai's eyes locked with his own and nervously bit his sleeve "One being who can make an infinite amount of others see disgrace and error. He tells them of someone who deserves everything he got, in the worst way"

"I don't understand"

Kai's lips curled just the faintest, into some sort of bitter smirk "It's possible to die of guilt"

Rei stared at the person opposite him, head starting to hurt from the riddles that not even his arbiter mind could fathom. He felt as though he needed a pause button, so he could step back and breath, and to stop the increasing thud and pleas of 'give up' from his heart. Kai was on constant play, he wouldn't stop, fast forward or rewind, he just carried on. Regardless of who was trying to keep up with him, no matter who shot back up as soon as they fell even though their knees were scraped to catch up with him or who called his name, no one mattered when he had forever.

"Kai, I-"

"Don't understand. I know" He reached forward and took hold of Rei's hand. The neko-jin's eyes widened, a warmth tingling though his skin at the contact, was it a dream, it must be? Kai ignored Rei's reactions and flipped the hand over so the palm faced the heavens.

"Eh? Are you reading my palm?"

"Yes, you're going to have three and a half children and a pet chicken" Kai remarked. Rei gasped and looked quickly at his hand, looking up from his search when he felt Kai's calm gaze on him once again. "Idiot" He said loftily in an almost fond voice, an eyebrow poised in what Rei hoped to be amusement. "I'm not reading your palm" He continued, his voice lower and soft. The hair on the back of Rei's neck stood on end.

"No?" Rei cleared his throat, sure it hadn't always been that high "Ah, what…what are you doing then?"

Kai's fingers slid against Rei's palm, inspecting, touching, and demanding and all with silence. Rei's breath caught in his throat, cold sweat starting to build on his back and making his flimsy shirt stick to his skin, he hastily wetted his lips following Kai's movements with his eyes. "Nothing"

"E-eh?"

"I'm not doing anything, do you want me to?" His voice came out husky.

Rei could have fallen over at that question asked in that voice. He swallowed hard, mind frantically searching for something to say but it was to busy running around in circles going 'Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god' at the moment. "W-want you to?"

Kai smirked when Rei's voice raised several notches higher again; he stopped his movements, leaving his hand on top of Rei's and looking intently at him. The Chinese boy noticed the lack of distance between them all of a sudden, all he would have to do was lurch forward and up and their lips would meet. Then he would certainly die, either from disbelief he had just done that or by Kai, whichever one got him first. So he decided to stay frozen and look like an idiot instead.

"Have you ever regretted something so much you want to forget all about it?"

"Ah, yes..." Rei ducked his head "When I was younger, in school I slipped on the wet floor, it had been raining, and I landed right onto a girl who ended up tumbling into the teacher who fell over and tipped her coffee into the fish bowl" He sighed painfully "The class hated me for killing the fish"

Kai looked like he had a hard time restraining himself from slapping the younger across the head. Instead he moved his hands to cover his face, leaning into the table. When Rei looked up he couldn't help but smile upon seeing the bluenette's exasperation. His sunny eyes twinkled when he noticed Kai's cheek higher than usual, it meant he was smiling; Rei's heartbeat became faster. He moved forward and pulled Kai's hand away from his face, leaning in to grin.

Rei made some weird noise between a sob and a laugh and reached over to pull Kai into a hug, arms wrapping around his neck with Rei's head burrowing into the elder's shoulder. Only one thought was spinning around in his head 'he smiled' a smile was worth a thousand and one words. It could tell and hide a person's feelings and stories. A smile could promise eternity or break the vow of forever. Whatever a smile means to a person, there is one thing that every one agrees on; smiles are important. They confuse people, they make complete strangers become happy, they hurt. For Rei, who had never seen Kai actually smile, it was important. For Rei, a smile means the most sincere reaction for contentment. Kai smiling around Rei meant he liked it when he was with him.

Kai let go of his breath, staring ahead at the wall in front of him. He was getting used to the spontaneity that was Rei, though he shouldn't be. He shouldn't allow himself to become close because he'd only end up destroying the smaller boy in the end. Just like he had destroyed --

"Rei. Off"

Blushing, Rei sat back like he had been burnt, playing with the bottom of his shirt until he remembered the long forgotten kettle with the hot water waiting patiently for him. With a cry he leapt up and focused his trembling hands on making two decent cups of tea. "I want to ask you a question now" He placed a cup in front of Kai and sat down, curling his hands around his own warm cup. "Have you ever seen a spider making a web?"

"Yes"

"And?"

"And?" Kai echoed.

Rei pouted "And, what did you think?"

Kai smirked "Find out for yourself when you see one"

Rei scrunched up his face and flickered his sight to the clock. The time was dragging rather spectacularly as he pondered what on earth he would learn out of watching a spider. Spiders are disgusting creatures and they were ugly in everything they do, Rei concluded that Kai was just trying to make him look like an idiot. Although the look the bluenette gave him told Rei he wasn't hoping to make the younger look like a fool. Rei suddenly felt tired from all the late night thinking and rested his head atop the cool surface that he contently sighed onto. He could feel Kai looking at him, but kept his eyes closed, waiting for the bluenette to do something.

As Kai gazed at the ebony haired boy, he found a strange unwelcomed feeling overcoming him. He closed his eyes and lowered his head. No, it couldn't be that feeling. He wanted to pray to God that it wasn't that feeling but knew better than to ask God for help.

-

Love is such a fragile thing. One word uttered hatefully and a heart breaks. A set of footsteps becoming fainter and a door slammed shut and your world dies.

One knife, one cut and you find peace and you can finally smile.

That's all he ever wanted. To smile.

Insanewelshangel: I'm going to say it again: I am really sorry for the lateness! I am speechless, here's a stick please beat me across the head with it! Poke me in anger or something! I honestly didn't know I hadn't updated in that long.

Sorry times infinity! D:

This type of story, I have to get in an 'wahhh' mood because I know what's coming up and what not, but it was no problem after learning my dear YunHo is ill, so get well soon oppa! Fighting! Oh and I'm aware some of this chapter has 'wtf?' moment's it's supposed to. Are you confused about the chapter? Yes, I meant for that as well. : D well not really but…meep.

And I'm really worried right now because I don't really have the internet, I have this weird thingy that acts like a substitute…so I don't even know if this story will be updated or not. O.o as long as it doesn't get lost and end up on a different site.

Oh and thank you for all those shiny reviews! ♥ XD