Pairing: Dean & Cas

Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural

A/N: Mood struck me I guess J

Cas had obviously seen blood before. He'd healed Dean and Sam enough times to know it wasn't a good thing. The scarlet oozing out of the wound was a sight he'd been used to, at least as an angel.

But as a human, he'd never felt such searing pain. He couldn't bare to look down at the sight in front of him, but he struggled to hold his guts together as the faint sound of Dean Winchester's voiced soothed him and comforted him.

"Dean," Cas rasped, his insides still hurt like hell and it was a struggle to speak.

"Cas, it's okay you don't have to say anything." Dean soothed.

After Dean had gotten over the initial shock of being in bed with Cas, he had laid back down with him, making sure he was comfortable and felt loved without ever saying a word. He didn't need to. Cas knew.

"When that ghoul attacked me... I-I thought I was going to die. But I didn't care about that." Cas said, grimly.

"What?" Dean couldn't believe what he was hearing, "You were okay with dying?"

"It's not that... It's just... This world is corrupted, and I'm not an angel anymore. I'm..."

"You're what?"

"I was planning on killing myself."

Dean stood up quickly, in anger.

"Just... Listen, okay? I was planning on killing myself, but I couldn't leave you behind, by yourself. Alone again. I just didn't want that to happen to you... The ghoul didn't want me. She wanted you."

"What?" Dean asked.

"She was going to kill you, not me. I stopped her."

"What did she want with me?"

Cas paused. He didn't really want to tell Dean the truth. He couldn't tell him, but... It was time. He had to.

"To punish me..." Cas finished, "She wasn't a ghoul at all. She was... A fallen angel. Angry with me for being stupid enough to trust Metatron. She wanted to punish me, and that best way to do that was to kill you and leave me all alone. She wanted me to suffer. I knew who it was right away, so I followed her..."

"And almost got yourself killed!" Dean shouted.

"... Back to her house to confront her. She attacked me, and you showed up. But right before you did, she whispered something in my ear..."

"What did she say, Cas?"

Cas blinked back tears. He couldn't have Dean hate him.

"She said, 'Even Dean doesn't love you, no one does.' And then... You killed her. I already stabbed her with the angel blade when you came in, but I wanted you to believe she was a ghoul. I wanted to forget what I made heaven into; nothing."

Dean pulled the former angel into a tight hug. Cas sighed and braced for the inevitable.

"I love you, Dean." Cas whispered.

"I love you, too." Dean replied.

Cas was shocked. He didn't expect Dean to ever love him, not after everything he's done, what he became. He was even more shock when he felt the light touch of Dean's lips against his own.

"I just wanted you to know that." Dean said, as he pulled the covers over Cas' head and went in for more.

Cas may not be an angel exactly, but he was still Dean's angel.

Finished! So review? How was it? I know it was short but...