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Sometimes pain doesn't matter. Sometimes pain had to be... Lilly thought and closed her eyes for a brief second.

Then she heard his voice again. Felt his ruffeled clothes as he shifted uncomfortable.

It was quite but with some sort of echo from the walls that surrounded them.

„I'm glad we're in this situation."

She couldn't believe him!

„You're kidding me, right?!"

She stared at his shirt with a bewildered expression that he couldn't see.

His face turned suddenly into anger and got red. She hissed a little bit and prepared herself for the incoming battle that'll soon follow.

„No, Lil. No, i'm not!"

She sighed- again.

„Okay, what's coming next?"

„Maybe you should. I probably thought you'll know the topic or at least get a hint..."

„No!?"

„Yes."

Lilly swallowed in defeat. This had to come out one day.

It was inescapeable. And they both knew it.

But should she, could she even do something to stop it? When it was something that bothered him so much?

And when somebody knew, it was her.

She could tell- about the way he hissed in pain everytime she was harsh to him when she really didn't want it to be that way. She didn't want to do so, these are the things they normally banter 'bout but these times he kept silent. That was not normal and it started to creep her out.

She started to worry about him and that worried her.

The thoughts whirled in her head and as she shaked it to clear them, got them out, away.

Suddenly she inhaled his scent and felt his heart was about to start beating faster.

With her eyes closed she couldn't resist but to hold on this unsteady but strongly sound- his heartbeat.

It's sourrounds her almost like a lull and although it's hardly skipping out of line it comforted Lil.

Helped to put her down. God, if he'll know how drawn to him she was this very moment!

You shall tell him, you fool. a tiny little voice in her head.

It told her the way she felt.

In this very moment she wanted to drift away, head rested against his chest, stay here in his arms for as long as they'll held her and never ever open her eyes again- just this time.

Only to hear his steady heartbeat.

And she felt the sudden urge to tell him got really uncomfortable.

„Scotty, I..."

A single finger landed onto her lips, encirceled her chin.

„Sh, Lil. I know. I already know."

He tilted up her chin in one of those hands of his and she had to admit that this-

being so close to him, practically wrapped in his presence- was all she wished for a long time

without allowing herself to think about.

And to be honest- it was better than all she could ever think about and she wished it'll never

stop and the merly second she wondered where these thoughts have come from.

She had hidden them so tight inside herself, within her, like their are a sea shell.

And it's going to open up when it's washed out of the sea, lying at the beach and feels the sunlight

on her shell.

It takes an afford to lift her head and stared directly into the sun.

The light in his eyes was warm and tender and full of hope.