Chapter 3: Lullaby

You're Pregnant, Aren't You?

Author's Note

I do not own Twilight.

By: DawnBeforeTwilight

The sun streamed through the windows and hit my face, causing me to wake up. It was June 30th. Our first appointment and 6 weeks until the wedding, it was all going by so fast. It feels just like yesterday that Edward and I shared our first kiss.

It was homecoming of our freshman year of high school, and since Alice and Jasper and Emmett and Rosalie had already gotten together Edward and I decided to go with each other. But it was just as friends. We got bored so we left the dance early and were just standing outside.

"It's freaking cold out here. Give me your jacket," I told him. He laughed as he took of his jacket and handed it to me. I slipped it one and it was way too big more me. Edward was just over 6 feet tall. He's changed a lot since grade school. His braces have been removed, his voice stopped cracking, and he's finally gotten contacts so he doesn't wear his glasses that often.

"Well you should have worn a jacket," he said.

"Don't be a smartass," I smirked at him before I laughed. I moved in closer to him to get warmer. Normally I wouldn't have cared or anything but this time was different. It felt good to be close to him. I slowly turned my head so that I was looking at him. It seemed different now. I was looking at Edward as I nice guy, very caring, well mannered.

Oh my God.

I was developing feelings for him.

Wait. Did he feel the same way for me? This wasn't good. I mean what if Edward only liked me as a friend? I mean he could probably get any girl he wants. He wouldn't want me. I was boring and simple. I have boring brown hair and boring brown eyes to match. I so pale that you could lose me in the snow.

I needed to be sure that I had feelings for him. Without even thinking about it I got on my tippy toes and kissed him on the cheek. He quickly looked at me shocked.

"I'm sorry I don't know wh-" I said spastically before he leaned down and kissed me back, but this time on the lips.

It was also the day we would look for places to live. We had a lot to do today. We would be going to our first sonogram or ultrasound, whatever the hell it is. We were both very anxious about it. I talked to Esme and she said that when she first saw Edward on the screen she cried. She even showed me pictures. I remember how Edward walked in on our conversation and Edward and how his mom was showing me his baby pictures. Edward felt embarrassed by what his mother was doing. But it was to let the worry of having a baby so young become less stressful.

Edward parked the Volvo into the parking lot and we both got out of the car. We held each other's hand as we walked into the hospital. We walked up to the front desk and talked to the receptionist.

"Hello. Swan, 10:00 with Dr. Miles," I said to her.

"Yes. I need to see some I.D first." I reached into my purse and pulled out my license. She looked at it and handed it back. "Just sign these papers real quick and we'll call you when you're ready."

We sat in the waiting area and looked at the questions. The questions were pretty simple really. Last menstrual period, is this your first child, how long have you been sexually active? The last one was a little embarrassing.

"I can't believe that this is our first appointment," Edward said, anxiously in his seat.

"Me neither. It's all happening so fast." Just then we heard my name being called. I grabbed his hand and we met the person who called my name.

"You'll be in room A4," the nurse as she led us to the room.

"You'll need to change into a paper gown," she said as she handed me a small blue bundle. "Dr. Miles will be here in about five minutes."

I changed into the noisy outfit and then proceeded to sit on the table. The door opened to a woman looking like she was in her mid-thirties, she long black hair that was in a ponytail she had olive colored skin and brown eyes, much browner than mine.

"Hello there, you must be Isabella," she said as she reached out her hand for a handshake. "And you must be the father," she then repeated the handshake to Edward.

"You are right, Edward Cullen," He said.

"And I go by Bella, actually," I said.

"Ok then Bella, I'll need you to lie down," she said. I lied down and then Dr. Miles pulled a blanket out and put in on just below my hips. "I'll need you pull the gown up so I can see your stomach," she instructed. I did as I was told.

She pulled out the scanner wand and turned on the machine. She the machine warmed up we began to ask some questions.

"How big is the baby right now?" asked Edward. I admired his enthusiasm towards our son or daughter.

"At about eight weeks the baby is about the size of a raspberry but a little smaller." We both had shocked looks on our faces, a raspberry? That would someday grow to be as big as me or Edward? The miracles that happen on earth make you wonder, don't they?

Dr. Miles grabbed a tube and held it over my stomach. "The gel is going to be cold, ok?" she said as she squeezed the blue goop on the slight baby bump that I had. I tightened my grip on Edward's hand at the feel of the coldness on my stomach. Dr. Miles then used the scanner wand on my stomach. "Ok then, are you ready to see your little raspberry?" We booth nodded with excitement.

She turned some nobs and moved the wand over my stomach before stopping. "Here is your baby." I was in shock. She took a pen and pointed to the screen, "These little lines that are sticking out?" We both nodded, "Well, those are the arms and legs. They may be barely noticeable but those are where the arms and legs are."

Those were the arms and legs? They were so small! The image was so small. I could see its little arms, its little feet that the doctor pointed out, and the most beautiful thing ever, the baby's profile, well; at least I thought it was the profile. It was hard to tell because my baby was still so small.

"Our baby is so beautiful," Edward said as he kissed by cheek. I felt like crying. That was our baby on the screen. Edward and I actually created something together. And what we created was our baby.

"If you think this amazes you just listen to the heartbeat." Dr. Miles then turned a switch on and the most beautiful lullaby played throughout the room. The heartbeat of my child was like hearing a chorus of angels in heaven.

I felt a tear fall down my cheek and I looked at Edward. He was crying, too. We kissed each other and then looked at the little miracle we created.

I quickly remembered realizing that I might have been pregnant and telling Edward the same thing.

It was just an ordinary day in Forks, raining, as pure usual. I was enjoying my freedom from high school as well. We all had graduated yesterday. All of us were going to the University of the Olympic Peninsula. We would all leave in August. But there were still things to do, like telling Edward's and my parents that we were getting married. I was worried about telling my mom though. She and my dad married young and ended up divorced less than a year after I was born. But I was 100% that this was the right thing. Even though Edward and I have been together for only 3 years we were sure of ourselves.

I was home alone as always. Charlie was at work and then he said he was going to go over to La Push to see Billy. Billy was Charlie's best friend besides Harry Clearwater. Billy was Charlie's age and had twin daughters, Rebecca and Rachel, and a son named Jacob. Harry had a son named Seth and an older daughter Leah.

I was waiting for Edward to call. He had to finish his shift at the store. On weekends Edward would work at a book store and since we've finished school he's taken up more hours for more money. Even though his family was rich he wouldn't be able to get his inheritance until he was 21 and that would be almost 2 years away. His 19th birthday would be in a week.

As I watched TV I felt myself not feeling well. I ran to the bathroom and kneeled down in front of the toilet as I tossed the contents of my stomach into it. What is with my stomach lately? Was it something I ate? I grabbed some toilet paper and wiped my mouth. I noticed that the roll was empty so I went below the sink to grab a new roll. I stopped as I saw a blue box. I reached for it and looked at it.

"Fuck."

I quickly started to count back until the last time I hadn't had my period since April, when Edward and I didn't use protection. This was not good. I couldn't be pregnant? I'm only 18. Edward and I aren't ready for a baby! I started to cry as I heard my phone ring. I pulled it out of my pocket and looked at the screen. It was Edward. I tried to stop crying and answered.

"Edward?" I asked.

"Bella, I'm on my way over. Are you ok? Do you need me to get you anything?" he asked. I took a deep breath before I went out and said it.

"I need a pregnancy test."

"Everything is in order. Your baby is completely healthy and growing at a perfect rate. I believe that we'll know the sex by your 16th week, give a week or two maybe." She said as she printed off pictures. "Would you like me to turn this into a DVD?" she asked. I nodded without hesitation.

"Thank you." I said as she handed us the pictures and DVD. I grabbed Edward's handed and we left.

"That was amazing, wasn't it?" he asked as he opened the car door for me.

"I can't wait for the little guy to be here," I said as I smiled in awe at the picture of my baby.

"You still think we're having a boy, eh?"

"Yeah, if the baby were a girl do you know how crazy hormonal she'll be in her teens? Hell I'm still a teenager and mix that with my pregnancy hormones I'm a freaking psycho," I said.

"Bella, you are not a freaking psycho," Edward said taking my hand as we pulled out of the parking lot of the hospital.

"When I start to show I'll be even more hormonal. One of those books that your mom gave said that as I go through my pregnancy I'll be moodier, hungrier, I'm supposed to have a crazy sex drive, my boobs are going to get sore and big-" I continued.

"Sex drive, eh?" Edward smirked.

"Don't be like that,' I said.

"I'm just saying that I don't mind the sex thing." I rolled my eyes at him. We haven't had sex since the before we found out about the baby. I did miss sex though. And since I'm pregnant we don't have to use condoms anymore because Edward and I have only been with other sexually. We first had sex when we were 17, about 2 years after we started going out.

Edward opened my door for me and I buckled myself up. I looked at the pictures of my baby as Edward got in.

"I can't believe we're going to have a baby," I said in disbelief. I looked over at Edward who was smiling. "I hope he looks like you; I hope he has your green eyes."

"I hope she has your brown eyes," Edward said as he started the car.

"I hope it's a boy, but if the baby ends up being a girl I'm ok with that. So are you sure you want to wait until the baby is born to find out?" I asked.

"Well, I might want to know. How about you?" he asked.

"I think I might want to find out. I mean it will be a lot easier to know what color to paint the nursery and what color clothes to buy," I said as I looked at the picture again. "Yeah, I want to find out the sex."

"Well then, I guess once you're far enough along we'll find out the sex," Edward said. "I guess then that Alice, Jasper, Emmett, and Rosalie will be happy. Who thinks it's a boy and a girl again?"

"Alice and Emmett think it's a boy while Jasper and Rosalie think it's a girl. Even your parents are taking sides. Carlisle thinks it's a boy and Esme thinks it's a girl. I haven't heard my mom's opinion yet."

"Well I guess you'll ask her the next time you talk to her," Edward said as we pulled into his driveway.

We walked hand in hand to the front door to be greeted by Esme.

"How was it? Let me see the pictures! Did you hear the heartbeat?" She asked or more so demanded. We heard footsteps coming from the living room as Carlisle joined us.

"Carlisle, Esme, meet your grandchild," I said as I showed them the pictures of Raspberry. I decided to start to call the baby Raspberry since he or she was, well, the size of a raspberry.

"Oh Bella," Esme said as she started to cry. "That's your baby." She hugged me and Edward. Carlisle was soon to follow.

"We heard the heartbeat. It was beautiful. And we have some news to tell you," I said as I took Edward's hand.

"Oh my God it's twins," Carlisle joked.

"No, we have a DVD of the ultrasound," Edward said with a smile.

"Really?" Esme said excited. "Let's see it! I want to see my grandbaby!"

"I want to see the baby," Carlisle said. We all walked to the living room and I pulled the DVD out of my purse. "The baby is really amazing."

"Do you think the heartbeat is also on the DVD?" Edward asked.

"I hope so," I told him as I placed the DVD in the player and pressed play on the remote. The screen went to the ultrasound and I smiled as I saw my baby. I sat down next to Edward and he wrapped an arm around me.

"Bella, the baby is beautiful," Esme said as she smiled from ear to ear.

"Looks like a little peanut," Carlisle said as he stared at the screen.

"The doctor said the baby is about the size of a raspberry. I'm going to call the baby Raspberry until we find out the sex," I said.

"February needs to get here now so we can find out if I have a grandson or granddaughter," Carlisle said.

"Well, actually, Edward and I were talking and we might want to find out when I'm far enough along."

"Really? Bella that'll make shopping for clothes and decorating the nursery a lot easier," Esme said. "I remember when I was told I was having a boy. We painted the nursery blue, got blue bedding, blue clothes. We got furniture that had a boyish feel to it. White furniture is girly and brown is boyish."

"When do you think you'll be able to find out?" Carlisle asked.

"I'm thinking late September or early October," I said. "I think I'm having a boy though."

"And I think Raspberry is a girl," Edward said as he kissed my head.

"Well, whether the baby is a boy or a girl Raspberry will be loved," Esme added.

"Well we have about an hour before we have to go to Port Angeles to look for apartments. So we have enough time to eat some lunch," Carlisle said. In an hour we'd go to Port Angeles to look for places to live. Carlisle and Esme would help us make the right choice on which apartment to pick since they are older and wiser than us and would have pick out a nice place for Raspberry.

We ate grilled cheese and chips for lunch. I added pickles to mine since I had been craving pickles. It was actually pretty good. Once we finished eating we got ready to go look for apartments. We all got in Carlisle's Mercedes S55 AMG, Carlisle and Esme in the front, and Edward and me in the back.

It took an hour to get there. We parked in the Grantville Apartment Complexes and got out. Edward took my hand and we followed Esme and Carlisle. We walked into the lobby and walked up to the front desk.

"Um, excuse me. We're here to look at the available apartment?" Esme asked.

The man at the desk, whose hair was very curly, typed into the computer that stood before him.

"Cullen, right?" he asked. Carlisle nodded.

"Ok then, let me get the realtor, Laurent," he said as he picked up the phone and pressed a few numbers. "Hello? Laurent? Yes, we have the people who would like to look at the apartment. You'll be here in two minutes? Ok then," he set the phone down. "Why don't you take a seat while we wait for Laurent?"

I sat down next to Edward and laid my head on his shoulder.

"I can't believe we're looking at places to live," he whispered in my ear.

"I can't believe it either," I added. I saw someone walk inside the lobby and come up to the front desk.

"Oh yes, those are the people looking at the apartment," said the guy at the desk.

"Hello, you are the ones looking at the apartment, right?" asked Laurent.

"Yes, I'm Carlisle and this is my wife Esme and this is my son Edward and his fiancée Bella," Carlisle greeted us.

"Yes, I'm Laurent. So who is looking at the apartment?" He asked.

"We are," Edward said. "We need a place to live since we're getting married, plus we're having a baby so we need a place of our own."

"Congratulations," he said. "Well then, let's head to the second floor to check out the available apartment." He motioned us to follow him to the elevator and we followed. "Now the first apartment I'll be showing you has two bedrooms, a kitchen, a living room, one bathroom, a dining room, and a storage closet that has the washer and drier in it. Now each apartment has a balcony to it."

"That sounds nice. A balcony would be nice to read on when the weather is good," I said as he lead us to the door with a '2-B' on it. He pulled out a key and opened it. We all walked inside. It opened up to a living room with a pale white carpet. The place was empty but it was clean. The carpet was cut off to the left by tiles that went to the kitchen. The kitchen had a refrigerator, an oven, a microwave that was above the oven, an island counter, and a washing machine.

"This looks cozy," Edward said as he walked down the hallway. There were four doors and they were all white. I followed him as Esme and Carlisle looked around the kitchen.

He opened the first door on the left and walked inside. I soon followed him. The walls were white and the floor was the same carpet as the living room.

"If we live here this will be the nursery. A little baby will sleep in here. Our baby, our son or daughter will be in this room someday," he said. Wow. I had never known Edward was like that. Us looking for apartments made becoming a father more real to him.

"Well, in a sort of sense, the baby is already in this room," I said as I took Edward's hand and placed it on my stomach.

"Let's look at the rest of the place," he said as he took the hand that was on my stomach and grabbed my hand. We walked to the hallway and saw Esme and Carlisle talking to Laurent.

"Do like the rooms?" Laurent asked.

"We just saw what would be the nursery. It was sort of an eye opener for us. Knowing that a little human being would be sleeping in there, if we choose this apartment anyway," I said as put my hands on my hips. We're going to go look at the other rooms," I grabbed Edward's hand and pulled him down the hall. I pulled him into the second bedroom and we looked around.

"There could be are room," he said as he walked to the window.

"Edward, you're not getting cold feet are you? I know that we're still young and that we found out about the baby after graduation and with what has happened with, I don't blame you if you want to wait to get married. We could wait until after the baby's born if we have to," I said. I was worried about getting married. I was only 18 and Edward and I have only been together for three years and we've only been with each other, but I was in love with Edward and we we're going to have a baby come February.

"No, Bella, I don't have cold feet. It's just that I'm worried about becoming a father. What if the baby hates me?" he said worried.

"Edward. Our baby doesn't hate you, he or she loves you." I walked over to him and hugged his chest. I felt his strong arms surround me and he kissed my head. He then moved me so that he could kiss my lips. I felt his tongue trace the outside of my lips. I granted him permission my slowly parting my lips and his tongue touched mine. I moved my arms from his chest to his hair as we kissed.

"Excuse me."

We stopped making out and saw Carlisle, Esme, and Laurent watching us.

"Sorry, we uh, we are just excited about our wedding in August, and we were talking about how much we love each other," I said to them as I hugged Edward. "Um, how much a month is this place? I think this is the place."

"Well it's $550 a month so it's $6,600 a year, now electricity, heating, air conditioning, cable, and internet are all included in the rent," Laurent said.

"Bella, are you sure that you want to live here? I mean we can lo-," Edward said before I cut him off.

"This is the place where I want to live in with you and the baby. Plus we'll live here for only five years at most. Once we're done with college we can move into a house with the baby. He or She will already be in school and we will both have jobs," I said.

"Ok then, this is the place we want to live," Edward told Laurent.

"Very well, I'll start the paper work. The place will be ready to move in my late July most likely," Laurent said.

"Bella, dear are you sure that this is the place you and Edward want to live?" Esme asked. "The place is lovely but I want you guys to be sure that this is where you want to raise the baby?"

"Mom, Bella and I really like the place. When we looked in the baby's room there was something that spoke out to us and we saw our baby sleeping in there," Edward said to his parents.

"Ok then, let's start the paperwork," Carlisle said.

We signed the paperwork where needed and everything. Carlisle and Esme even paid for the first 5 months' rent for us while we looked for jobs and got settled and everything. I was so grateful that I hugged them both so tight I'd thought that I would have suffocated them.

"Think of this a house warming present," Esme said. The Cullens had been very good to me since Charlie kicked me out. They were like second parents to me. Especially Esme since my mom was in Florida. I miss my mom a lot. I know that I'll see her for my wedding; I hope my baby will strengthen my relationship with her.

I got mad at my mom for leaving when I was 12. Renee and Charlie told me that their marriage wasn't working so they were getting a divorce but then Mom said she was moving to Phoenix. That was very far away. I would spend summers with her but it was still hard on me. Then she met Phil. They got married when I was 14. I was one of my mom's bridesmaids. Phil's a great guy and everything. Mom seemed happy again.

Then she moved to Jacksonville for Phil's career and I felt that she didn't want to see me anymore and our relationship was now in emails and phone calls. Now that I having a baby she can be more and more a part of my life.

On our way back to Forks I felt sick and we stopped on the side of the road where I threw up. Esme had told me that the morning sickness would end in a few weeks. I was relieved about that.

"Esme, Carlisle, I can't thank you enough for helping us pay rent for the apartment," I said as we got back in the car and drove.

"Bella, think nothing of it, you're a member of this family now. I think of you as a daughter," said Esme as she looked back at us.

I heard my phone ring so I pulled it out of my purse and looked at the screen, Alice.

"Hey Alice."

"Bella! How was the ultrasound? I want to see the little guy's pictures!" she demanded.

"Alice, relax. We're on our way back from looking at apartments and we found one. Don't worry, we took pictures. The place is really nice. There's a balcony and the living room is cozy and the nursery is the right size," I said.

"Well hurry up. I want to see the pictures," she groaned.

"Ok, we'll be back in like 20 minutes. So relax, or you'll brake out." Alice didn't like getting pimples. So I told her so she would hang up. It worked.

Once we arrived back at the house Edward and I walked up to the third story to his room. We lay down on our bed and looked at the pictures of our baby in silence. Not long after we lay down we heard running up the stars. The door slammed open and there stood Alice and Rosalie.

"Baby pictures, now," they both demanded.

"Ok. Here," I said as I handed them the pictures. They starred in awe at my baby.

"I still can't believe you're going to be a mommy," Rosalie said as she hugged me. "And Edward, you'll be such a good daddy."

"You're the first in our group to have a baby. I know that I was a little angry when you told me but I know that you're doing everything right," Alice said in tears as she hugged me.

Later that night Edward and I fell asleep in each other arms and we dreamt about our baby.