I ran that night I'm not sure why and wasn't sure where I was going but I ran until I reached a point where I jumped. My feet slammed hard against the floor of the empty train car, I sat down and gazed out the side the cool night air whipping around me.

We zoomed down the rail tracks and when we passed Candor I thought about Liz somewhere out there soon to be ashamed by Victor's lies.

When we passed Amity, Patty crossed my mind a girl who will become restless from Victor's brute.

The lights if Erudite shone away from me and not only did I think of Gina and how she was blinded from her wit by Victor's tricks, but I thought of that group of Erudites always clustered the same way. Who was Jayson or those girls in the center? Were their parents always pressuring them? Is that considered love?

When the plain homes and buildings of Abnegation came into my view I thought of Lexi. It's weird thinking of people you have never met before, but I had spent a whole night doing so. This poor girl lay in bed somewhere scared and alone stripped away by Victor's selfishness, probably deemed to be judged by false accusations forever.

Then my thoughts drift to me. I have dealt with Victor longer, my full 16 years of existence. I knew the Victor that used to be a caring older brother until one day Dauntless changed him. At that hour, minute, second I decided I was going to be different somewhere, somehow, I would be.

-

Eventually dawn approached and at daybreak I made my way to Shaun's house.

"Hello Toni!" his mother said opening the door with a smile.

In Dauntless many of the parents do care for their children and love them but they just don't show it. Even at Shaun's it's a totally different world.

Shaun scrambled downstairs, "Oh Uh Toni?"

"Yeah I came by early, decided to not go back to that place once and for all," I replied to what I knew he would ask next.

"You can stay in the guest room until initiation," Shaun's mom piped up.

"Thanks," I shrugged.

"Your welcome, are you guys skipping?" she asked casually.

"Nah, we might as well go," Shaun replied leaving his home, "See ya later."

"Well, momma's got to get to the tattoo shop!" she said.

Nodding me and Shaun jumped on the train. I showed no signs of sleep, I had after all gotten zero sleep, but who really needs it anyway?

At school for once I paid attention not to the learning but the people. Observing how they interacted with each other without bias.

Now I was pretty sure I was going to switch factions, "But which?" I mumbled.

"Yes Toni?" The teacher asked.

"4," I said quickly acting on impulse going with the first answer that came to mind.

"Mr. Anderling, this is English class," the teacher replied and a whole bunch of giggles and laughs.

Rolling my eyes I went back deep into my thoughts.

After school music became my sanctuary blasting the beats into my headphones and listening intently to the words. The room across from mine was Shaun's and lately we haven't spoken much. I was always too absorbed in my thoughts and Shaun probably didn't want me to snap at him.

So I listen to the lyrics and closed my eyes until one day I couldn't stand it much longer.