CHAPTER VIII
I'm so sorry again for updating so late... I rarely have off these days and I spend it sleeping most of the times or reading other fanfics which I find more interesting than mine. Lol. Thanks for everyone who followed, reviewed and Favorited this. 3 I'd really like to finish this story as soon as possible... this is more of a trial since it's my first time and I have a great idea for another story and I can't wait to work on it. Anyways, hope you enjoy this update. Do review please? :)
P.S. I'm sure I have tons of mistakes here... just like from the last chapter *embarassed* but I don't have time to recheck everything so SORRY.
Okay. Now what? Brittany still didn't say anything back. She was just there staring at her... smiling. God, she will just laugh at me. "Britt... please... say something." She pleaded.
"I know Santana." Brittany stepped closer and hugged her tight. It felt warm; Santana felt the comfort rushing back to her because of the hug... but she didn't quite understand what Brittany just said.
Santana didn't let go from the hug, instead, she hugged the blonde tighter. "Britt-Britt?" Santana asked while she buried her face in Brittany's neck.
Brittany loosened her hug to face Santana but didn't completely let go... "Mmm?"
"What do you mean you know? ...That I like you?" Santana frowned.
Brittany's response started with a giggle. "I'll tell you the story but first, we should get back to the table. Sab is waiting." Brittany let go of Santana this time and grabbed one of her hands to lead her back to the table.
"Britt, wait..." Santana stopped. Brittany just gave her a questioning look. "Um, you and... Sabrina... do you like her? Will you still go out with her tomorrow?" Santana looked down suddenly finding the bathroom tiles interesting, afraid to see Brittany's expression when she answers.
"I told you she's likeable... but it's a different like compared to how I'm starting to like S... as in you Santana." This caused the brunette to look up into Brittany's blue eyes. "But yes... I already told her I'll go with her so I'll go... and I'm curious as to what she'll say."
Santana winced because of Brittany's response and could not think of a better response. She wants to tell her don't go or ask if she can come but they're not even dating yet. Brittany's not her girlfriend. She only nodded and they both went back to the table.
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"What happened in there? Are you guys okay?" Sabrina greeted them with concern. Santana is worried... if Brittany goes out with this girl out tomorrow and it turns out this girl can actually sweep Brittany off her feet then she wouldn't have a chance.
"Sorry about that Sab... but Santana's not feeling well. Is it okay if we go home now?" Brittany said. Santana who was trying to avoid looking at both of them glanced at Brittany. She feels bad that Brittany had to lie because she's acting like a jealous girlfriend when she doesn't even have the right to.
"Oh yes sure Brittany. Since I live on the opposite side of the city, I'll just ride a cab. But I'll be seeing you tomorrow right?" The blue-eyed brunette looked at Brittany with full of hope.
"Yes of course, see you at the studio." Brittany replied and then hugged Sabrina. This caused Santana to cringe at the sight in front of her.
"Bye Santana. It was nice meeting you." Sabrina turned towards her and gave her a shy smile. Santana just smiled back at the blue-eyed brunette... half-heartedly.
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It has been a quiet ride... they were just a few minutes away from the apartment but the traffic is real bad today. Neither of them opened up about what just happened earlier. Santana noticed Brittany pouting while texting. "Britt, are you and your phone okay?" Santana sniggered to lighten up the mood.
"I was about to text you." Brittany said, still pouting.
"Why would you text me Britt-Britt? I'm just here." Santana let out a chuckle and rested her hand on Brittany's hand. She noticed Brittany glance at their hands, which caused the latter to form a blush. "So what were you supposed to tell me in your text message?" Santana asked curiously.
"Hmm... I want to ask you why you're not talking that much and if you're mad at me." Brittany's pout came on again. She's definitely trying to kill me with her pout.
"Stop the pouting Britt. You're too cute with it." Santana had to tell her that or she might end up kissing Brittany's lips right at that moment. "And no I'm not mad... It's just... I'm sorry, I'm a little embarrassed that I acted like a jealous girlfriend earlier."
Brittany just smiled back and turned her attention to her phone again. Santana just let her because Brittany might have found her confession awkward, which she just realized.
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When they arrived at the building, Santana still followed Brittany until she reached her unit.
"San, you're unit is over there..." Brittany giggled while pointing to her unit.
"I know... but I really want to be a gentlewoman and walk you home." She grinned.
"You..." Brittany raised her hands... "...are the..." she placed it on Santana's cheeks... "...cutest, San!" ...and pinched them. It was soft at first but later on Brittany pinched harder. It hurts a little... no not a little... it hurts a lot but Santana liked the softness of Brittany's hands on her cheeks. It's the first time she let someone do that to her and it's that moment she decided that only Brittany can do that to her.
"Ouch Britt, it hurts. Stop it." Santana said, not sounding convincing because she is giggling like a 3 year old.
Brittany stopped and showed her pout. Oh God, I'm so stupid! I shouldn't have said it hurts. "Britt, I was kidding. It's fine." Santana said which caused Brittany to laugh.
"And I'm also kidding when I showed you my pout." Brittany smirked and gave Santana a kiss on her right cheek. She didn't fail to notice how Santana just stood there and formed a blush... it's either because of the kiss or because she was pinching it too hard earlier. "Goodnight San... thanks for tonight. I like it a lot." She smiled.
"Oh... uhh, Goodnight too but you haven't told me what you meant about... you knew?" Santana was not thinking about it earlier to be honest. She just doesn't want Brittany to leave out of her sight yet. This night might have started horrible because of Sabrina but thanks to her, she was able to admit everything to Brittany... now she is at the point of addiction... of wanting to see Brittany all the time, wanting to tell her how she feels and take care of her every fucking time.
"I'm a bit tired though... next time I promise I'll tell you. Goodnight San." Brittany smiled apologetically but sweetly. She is such an angel.
"Goodnight Britt."
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Brittany was right all along, it was Santana. She finally confirmed it... Santana denied it furtively for too long but clues kept coming and thanks to Santana's bestfriend Puck, she doesn't have to think who S is because S already has an identity.
Brittany was trying to sleep but Santana was occupying her mind all night. The brunette is something... for someone who hasn't been in a relationship, she sure is sweet and caring. She hadn't realized it but the last few encounters she had with Santana aren't exactly very friendly... like something was up and the girl was too sweet to be a friend. She has been linking Santana and S for a while and finally all her questions were answered.
Brittany was a little surprised when Puck accidentally slipped out the S scheme... but she didn't get mad or insulted... she understands that pranks are fun and it was kind of cute when Puck told her Santana never thought about the bet after... and that the brunette is truly interested with her. Brittany is not making this prank or bet a big deal with Santana but she was thinking of playing a little prank to the brunette as well... just for fun.
Two hours passed and sleep was still impossible... she was thinking of a prank that she can pull off to the brunette. Her pillows are now tossed everywhere and it's getting frustrating... she has lots of things to do at work plus a lunch date with Sabrina and all she can think about right now is Santana. She picked up her phone and noticed a single SMS waiting to be read. She put her phone to silent mode when they were at the restaurant and forgot to turn the volume up again.
From Santana: I can't sleep Britt... I miss you already.
She checked what time the message was sent. 2.53Am, which was 5minutes ago. Since she can't sleep anyway, Brittany decided to call the brunette, wishing to hear her voice. Yes, she was longing to hear the other's girl voice.
"Hey Britt." The brunette's raspy voice lingered for a second realizing how pleasing it is to hear. "Britt?"
"San... hearing your voice suddenly makes me feel so sleepy." She giggled sheepishly. It was true... hearing Santana on the other line relaxed her and the sudden urge to sleep is back.
"Ouch. Am I boring you even before we started talking?" The brunette replied with a giggle as well.
"No... but now that I'm hearing you... I feel relaxed and my eyes feel heavy... Don't hate me if I fell asleep." She doesn't want to be rude especially to someone who just confessed her feelings for her but her eyes are failing her and she's about to shut down.
"I'll never hate you... and I'm taking this as a compliment Britt." She heard what Santana said but now her eyes are close, holding her phone on her right hand while the other is hugging her pillow. "Is something wrong though? Why were you having trouble sleeping?" Santana was waiting for her response but she knows that she only has a few more seconds before she visits dreamland.
"Please sing for me San." Her voice was so soft that she wasn't even sure if Santana heard her.
"Okay..." that's the last word Brittany heard from the brunette and she's off to snoozeville.
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Santana was stunned at Brittany's request but she will do it... anything for her girl. That's right, she's claiming Brittany as her girl. She smiled at the thought of having Brittany as her girl but she hasn't asked her out on a date yet, maybe after the song she will. "Britt, what do you want me to sing for you?" She was waiting for the other girl's response but all she could hear were breathing sounds. She smiled... she wanted to talk to Brittany longer but she's happy that the other girl was able to sleep... thanks to her.
Head down as I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground
I should, I find myself in love racing the earth
And I'm soaked in your love
And love was right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong
I wanna run, run, smash into you
I wanna run, run, smash into you
It flows, what I hear no one else has to know
'Cause I know in what we have is worth first place in gold
And I'm soaked in your love
And love right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong
I wanna run, run, smash into you
I wanna run, run, smash into you, smash into you
"Goodnight Brittany." Santana ended the call. She doesn't want to use up all of the blonde's balance but she feels an ache in her chest. Not the bad ache but the one she got from missing the girl. Before she decided to sleep, she sent the blonde a message.
To Brittany: Goodnight Britt. Sweetdreams. P.S. You make me miss you so much. :(
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Santana was supposed to sleep but this was a great day and she's too overwhelmed with all the events that happened last night although she knows that she has to deal with the fact that Brittany and Sabrina are going out later. Now that Brittany knows about her feelings, she should not be scared to ask the blonde for a date anymore but she's what she's feeling is the exact opposite... she's terrified. She never asked anyone out on a date... a real date. She only knows how to lead a girl to have sex with her but beyond that she has no idea what she should do. Frustration hits her because the strong facade she's putting on is now stripped because of the blonde.
She let out a heavy sigh. If only her S front is still there, then it would be better... and that's when it hit Santana. Of course she can still be S, the only difference is Brittany knows who S is. She almost jumped from her bed to the desk to get a pen and paper and started writing.
I'd like to spend the whole day looking at your eyes, making you smile, going crazy over every little thing you do... Go out with me blue eyes. - S
She probably re-read the note for a millionth time... it's too overboard but the hell, she'll put it on Brittany's door, no more backing out. Before she left the note on the blonde's door, she kissed it for goodluck. I'm so lame, she thought to herself shaking her head and grinning.
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Santana woke up feeling relaxed even if she only slept for an hour and 30minutes. It's still early and her blonde is already occupying her brain.
To Brittany: Just woke up and thought about you. Goodmorning Britt. :)
Her own message made her content although a reply would totally make her day. She's hoping for two replies... a "good morning, I miss you too" and the "yes I'm going on a date with you". She can only hope but she's not expecting any of them, Brittany doesn't know her too well and she isn't doing a good job in persuading the girl.
Santana is not much of a coffee person but she needed the caffeine today. She has stress to deal with at work and the messages from Brittany that she's waiting for. Coffee is good although unlike Brittany, she isn't crazy about it. Since she woke up earlier than expected, she decided that news and coffee would be her company. It's the same old shit on the news though; politics, Hollywood breakups, wasted people doing crap when they're in public... it's always the same thing... but one headline caught her attention.
Multi-billionaire business tycoon Paul Pierce announces the marriage of his daughter to Ryder Lynn, one of the most sought bachelors in the country.
After the death of Richard Lynn, former COO and bestfriend of Mr. Pierce, Ryder Lynn took over the position and did an excellent job, which impressed Paul Pierce. An interview with Mr. Pierce and Mr. Lynn shows that these two are not just tied together to dominate the corporate world but have a bonding like a father and son would have.
Santana, who was now gripping her cup firmly, scooted closer to the television. After hearing the words Pierce, daughter and marriage, she was not able to bring herself to sip from her cup.
Ryder Lynn: When my father died, Paul and his family were there for me. Being the only child and the only one left in a family of three, I almost went to severe depression. Until now it hurts but not that much because I have the Pierce's. They are great and I'm very happy that I'll officially be part of them.
He seems to be a nice guy, Santana thought, but she can't almost hear her own thoughts because the pounding on her chest is deafening.
Reporter: Mr. Pierce, you kept your family's life as private as possible and hearing the news about your daughter's marriage stunned everyone. Is there any reason why you announced this?
Seeing Brittany's father on screen reminded her of Brittany, they have the same shade of blue eyes and blonde hair and their smiles were similar. Both of them gave Santana the same vibe... of them being genuine... that's why she can't understand why Brittany is getting married and the blonde didn't tell her, worse is she's going out on a date with someone else who happens to be a girl.
Paul Pierce: Yes, there is. My little girl is a bit possessive. She wants everyone to know that Ryder is off the market.
Ryder Lynn: The same goes with her.
Reporter: That's very sweet of you two... So when will the wedding be? Will the public have a peek on it?
Ryder Lynn: A few months from now... we are preparing for a while now and we're almost done.
Paul Pierce: Only family members and close friends will be there and no... I wouldn't let their wedding be available for everyone's viewing.
Reporter: Will this marriage take "PIERCE" to higher grounds?
Ryder Lynn: The company is stable and doing a great job. I don't understand how the marriage will affect the company at all.
Santana didn't realize that she is frozen in her position, she's not even sure if she blinked while looking at the two men who's delivering bad news from television when she heard her phone beeped, bringing her back to reality.
From Brittany: Oh God, I'm so sorry I feel asleep San. See you soon... :) P.S. You're so demanding... :p But yes, I'll go out with you. xoxo
She glanced at the television and noticed that the news is now about a robbery in the south. Reading back the message she just received made her angry, jealous and heartbroken. Angry because Brittany is giving her hope when she just found out the truth in the news where everyone will know. She's not planning to take on a girl who is getting married and is in a relationship. She remembered when Brittany said she'll tell Santana if she has someone and the blonde lied. Why Brittany would lie, she doesn't know... all she knows is she believed her when she said she is single. Santana wouldn't even compare to Ryder Lynn; he's popular, rich and well, close to Brittany's dad. She hates herself for being into Brittany and for listening to Puck's sentiments about her love life. Now, she got too involved with her confession and it's breaking her. Brittany's breaking her... If this is what seriously liking someone feels like, then she doesn't want to do this again... not if she is the one getting fooled.
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"Somebody got up on the wrong side of the bed." Puck teased her. She just ridiculed at her bestfriend and gave her a "don't fuck me; I'm not in the mood" look. "My bad Tana... how's Brittany? I forgot to tell you ab..."
"Shut the fuck up Noah. Don't mention that girl's name again!" Just hearing Brittany's name made her snap at her bestfriend... She was turning red because of anger, she feels the blood rushing to her brain and worse, Brittany just appeared out of fucking nowhere.
"Hi San! Hi Puck!" Brittany greeted them cheerfully with a smile so genuine and bright that she almost smiled back... but she doesn't have any plans to do that, not after she found out about the wedding. Puck greeted Brittany back but she on the other hand went inside her car as fast as she can and started the engine. Her bestfriend who seemed confused just bid bye to Brittany and hopped in. As soon as Puck got in, she left the goddamn building.
"Did Brittany dump you that's why you just fucked up the girl you like earlier? What the hell Santana?" Puck screamed at her, he rarely scream at her when she did something wrong, but he just did. She didn't respond... she doesn't want Puck to know about Brittany's marriage and the fact that the blonde agreed on a date with her. "You're a mess Santana... you just found the girl you're willing to take seriously and here you are again fucking this whole thing. The bet is off... it was never serious... if you're worried about it then don't be... Brittany knows about it and she doesn't care."
"What?! Brittany knows?!" That information surprised her. Is the girl trying to take a revenge on her? ...and she's making her believe that she's interested when she isn't just to get back at her.
"Yeah. I accidentally told her when we had our meeting. She was cool about it and even found you cute when I told her the faces you make when you're writing the notes." Puck said, this time he was calm. She didn't respond... she doesn't know what to say. Was she supposed to be happy that Brittany found her cute? "Don't fuck up San. Brittany is a great girl; spend more time with her, get to know her... I feel like Sugar and I spends more time with her and her friends than you do."
"You don't understand Noah." She concentrated on the road, afraid to see the look on her bestfriend's eyes.
Puck shifted closer to her. "Then help me understand... we want you to be happy San. If you're having problems with Brittany, we'll help. Both of us don't have the experience on this but I'll try to not let you fuck this up."
"She's getting married Puck! What do you want me to do? Last night I was very happy with her because I thought I'd have a chance but the next thing I know she's getting married! So tell me Puck, how can I not fuck this up?! She's the one playing here... not me!" She shouted, she wanted to scream since this morning. She was trying so hard to hold back her tears and so far, she's doing a good job, not unless Puck will not shut his mouth and continue his counseling.
"Why are you judging her? Did you even talk to her...?" Puck said.
"And what?! Tell her hey Britt, you agreed to go out on a date with me but you're getting married?"
"Santana... ask her why she agreed to go out with you... for all you know this girl isn't happy with her relationship, that she's not proud of it. Stop assuming, seek for the truth and hope for the best but if it comes to worst... you have me." Puck placed her hand on her shoulder and that's it... she reached her threshold... tears are flowing out from her eyes again. She can't believe that this is happening to her again... she's not even sure if this is normal. She cried twice because of this girl already.
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After her little drama act with Puck earlier, she was finding work very difficult. Numbers were blurry and her hands were shaking. She wanted to stay in the office though than go back to their apartment where she might see Brittany. Little did she know, she'd see the girl she wants to avoid in her office. Yes, Brittany's in her office, in front of her... staring at her with questioning eyes.
"Hi San... I came here because I had to meet with your boss. Are you okay?" Brittany said meekly. Seeing Brittany so beautiful today almost made her knees so weak... but she's angry at this girl and she doesn't want to deal with her.
"What are you doing here Brittany? I'm busy." She replied coldly.
"Oh... Sorry. Puck said you're here and I wanted to surprise you... anyway, I'll go now. Bye San." A part of her wants to tell Brittany not to go but she doesn't want to see or hear anything from the blonde yet. Santana didn't even look or said goodbye to her, she's mean but she's already broken, not that she wasn't before. When Brittany realized that she's not getting any response from her, she started to walk away but Sugar and Puck came in.
"Brittany! I heard you're getting married...! Congratulations...!" Sugar hugged Brittany and so did Puck. Santana stared at the three of them and thought about how nice her friends are for doing congratulatory messages in front of her.
"Woah... I'm getting married? I didn't know that. Is this another prank of yours?" Brittany eyed the three of them with a smirk. She didn't know if this is Brittany joking or she really doesn't know she's getting married to her dad's COO.
"It was on the news Brittany... you're getting married to one of the hottest bachelors in the country, the Ryder Lynn. If he was single, I'd run my fingers all over his body and ooh, I might not be able to restrict myself when I see him Brittany..." Sugar was teasing Brittany and Santana can't believe she's hearing all of this crap.
"I'll have to warn you to back off from Ryder if ever you'll see him Sugar..." Brittany replied grinning... Santana who was just there felt like a broken glass being stepped on and pounded by a hammer to turn her into little crystals while hearing Brittany tell her friend to back off from her fiancé. "...he happens to be my sister's soon to be husband and is like my little brother already." Brittany finished.
Santana felt like her heart dropped in her stomach... "You're not the one getting married?" She finally spoke up.
Brittany looked at her, her brows showing her confusion... "Is that why you're acting like a bitch since this morning? Coz you think I'm engaged?" Santana winced when Brittany emphasized the word bitch to her.
"I'm sorry Britt, I didn't know you have a sister and..." She wanted to cry again because of her stupidity She has always been stupid.
"You don't know Santana coz you never ask... and didn't I tell you before that I'm single? How many times do I have to prove that to you?" Brittany sounded like she was mad. Santana hates it, she doesn't want Brittany to be mad especially if it was because of her.
"I'm sorry... I was just jealous..." She said softly. Santana almost begged Sugar and Puck not to go out to leave Brittany and her alone because she might just break down from the scene in front of her...
"You're always jealous... you don't even have the right to be jealous. I don't even know if I'll ever give you the right to be jealous Santana. I don't like the bitchy you... Do you know how confused I was this morning when you were acting all shitty on me when last night you were just... so sweet?" Brittany was looking directly at her, her blue eyes were darker and she felt the pain... she knows that her sorry is not enough because she was indeed a bitch since this morning.
"Look Britt... just give me a chance..." She stood up from her seat and approached Brittany now... she is willing to beg to the blonde to give her the chance she wants.
"Santana, I think it's better if we just stay as friends... no dating or other feelings involved because you confuse me a lot." Brittany was looking at her with pity.
"I can't do that Britt... I like you a lot. The first time I saw you I knew that I just don't want to be friends with you. Give me a chance... please." She grabbed Brittany's hand and squeezed it tightly hoping that the girl would feel her sincerity.
"I guess it's my turn to say sorry." Brittany squeezed her hands back. "I'm sorry San but I don't want something with full of drama. In the past few days, I've been happy, sad, confused and angry at you... You and me, I think it will not work." That was the last straw... Santana broke down in tears... Brittany let go of her hands and hugged her. "I'm sorry San, I didn't mean to hurt you but it's better that this happened now, before something deeper will occur between us and will end up hurting us even more. Bye San. I really have to go now."
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As if on cue, Puck and Sugar came back when Brittany left. "I fucked up guys..." She was sobbing hard, the last time she cried like this was when her abuela died. It's the same feeling she had before, like someone left a hole in her heart and nothing can be done to fill it up.
"Don't think about what happened now... think about what you will do tomorrow and the next days. She's still single for god's sakes Santana... just grow up." Sugar said firmly.
"Sugar's right San... grown some balls and man up... don't give up yet." Puck added.
Santana took a deep breath to help stop the tears from falling, Her friends are right... she failed Brittany but she'll try not to next time. Now, she's an immature, green-eyed monster and a fantastic drama queen that Brittany doesn't like, so she'll stop being one. "You're right guys... I will make Brittany and me work."
I promise happy times on my next update... but I can't promise it will be up soon. :( Review, review, review please... :)