I don't own Percy Jackson or Say My Name by Within Temptation.
Say my name
So I will know you're back
You're here again for a while
Oh, let us share
The memories that only we can share
Together
"Thalia," I say. Tears are streaming down my cheeks. "Thalia, look at me." But she won't. I ask her to say my name, but she acts like she doesn't hear me. Maybe she doesn't. She just sits there in the corner of the room, her knees against her chest, her head against the wall, her eyes far away and unresponsive. I am kneeling in front of her, begging her to say my name, to let me know she's back. Even for just a little while. I want to share the memories that only we have together, I want her to know who I am, and maybe I can save her. I want her to laugh with me just one more time.
Tell me about
The days before I was born,
How we were as children
Sometimes I feel hysterical, asking her the same things over and over again. Asking her to tell me about things I don't even know if she remembers. The doctors watch from the doorway, to see if she will respond. But she doesn't. She doesn't even move.
You touch my hand
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again
I take her hand and move my thumb over it. The tears are falling on the white dress they make her wear, but she doesn't notice. She doesn't care.
I feel her move her fingers in my hand, and my heart begins to pound. Somehow, the world is brighter with that tiny movement. "Thalia." But she doesn't move again. For a second I thought I saw that spark of life in her eyes. But now it's gone.
We breathe the air
Do you remember how you used to touch my hair?
You're not aware
Your hands keep still
You just don't know that I am here
For a moment, I hear nothing but her breathing, in sync with mine. I think about how we used to lie on the couch, we would be watching a movie. She loved Disney. She would lay her head in my lap and I would play with her hair. But she doesn't remember, she doesn't know I'm here. I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes, and I try to hold them back. But they spill out onto the white tile floor.
It hurts too much
I pray now that soon you'll release
To where you belong
It hurts every time I look at her, the way she seems so lifeless. Sometimes I wish I could just let her go, let her stay in the world she's created. That's where she belongs. But I can't give up.
You touch my hand
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again
I move my free hand to her cheek, and for a moment I think I see that spark again, that spark in her eyes. I think it's just my hoping.
But it's not. She squeezes my hand, and turns her head to look at me.
"Oh my God, Thalia," I say. I wrap my arms around her in a hug. She doesn't move.
Please, say my name
Remember who I am
You will find me in the world of yesterday
You drift away again
To far from where I am
When you ask me who I am
I pull back and look at her. There's something wrong, I can tell. I ask her.
When she speaks, her voice is quiet and small. A shell of what it used to be. "Who are you?"
Say my name
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again
Fresh tears fall onto the white floor. "I'm your best friend," I say. "I've known you forever."
Her eyes light in understanding. "Nico," she whispers. But her eyes go dim again. She's drifting away from me again. I want to follow her, into the world she's living in. But she's gone. I say her name, repeat it over and over again, but she's gone. I can't get her back again.
Say my name
Okay, this was seriously not as good as my others. I completely spaced on my stories until today, when I realized it was my upload day. So I threw this together really quickly before I went to the library, which is the only place I can upload. I swear my next one will be better. For those of you who are interested, our high school orientation was today. My friend Jake nearly passed out when he walked into the computer room where he's taking robotics and intro to computer graphics because they have a 3D printer. He explained to me how it worked, but it didn't quite make sense to me. And they cut my German class. Damn them. Anyway, you probably don't care and I will stop rambling now. Again, I swear my next upload will be better.