This story is going to turn into a reference of her life outside of work. May be a couple of connections to her job, but not many. Thanks 4 the reviews by the way.

"Okay, you're not going to be doing this every morning." She said looking at him after locking her door.

"Doing what?"

"Waiting outside my apartment every morning, Trevor." She started to push Noah's stroller.

He chuckled. "It's called being nice."

"It's creepy."

"It's not creepy."

She scoffed. "Says the creep whose doing it. That's lovely."

He rolled his eyes. He peaked in the stroller at the small boy. "Hey Noah."

"Hi." He said waving at him.

"Are you going to daycare today?"

Noah shook his head. "No daycare."

Trevor looked up at Olivia.

"Where you guys going?"

"Park!" Noah interjected clapping his hands. Trevor instantly knew that Noah was fond of going to the park. Especially after that response. Trevor looked at Olivia who was trying to ignore his presence.

"Your captain gave you the day off?"

"Yeah."

He paused for a moment. "You mind if I tag along?" He asked holding the door open for her. She glared at him.

"Yes." She walked through the doorway without looking at him.

"Do I get a reason why?"

"Nope." She reached around the stroller and handed Noah his juice box. She knew that by the time he was finished with it. His clothes, hands, face, and even sometimes his hair will be a sticky mess. It's bad enough that he hates baths, too.

Trevor stared at her. "Why the hell not?"

She stopped and faced him, obviously annoyed and pissed off. "You want to know why?"

"Yes."

"Boundaries."

He looked confused. "Boundaries?"

"Yes Trevor, boundaries. Ever since that night you've been coming around and doing whatever it is you're doing."

"I still don't see the damn problem Olivia."

"The problem is we need space and time Trevor. This is all new for me and him. I don't want him getting his hopes up for nothing."

"What do you mean 'for nothing'?"

She looked at him before starting to walk again. He thought for a few seconds. When he finally understood, he jogged after her.

"You-you think I'm going to abandon Noah, don't you?"

She ignored him and kept walking.

"Olivia."

"You know what Trevor, go home," She said quietly yet stern. "Go home, go to work, the gym. Quite frankly, I could give a rat's ass. Just go away and leave us alone."

"Why do you keep doing this?"

"Doing what."

"You're pushing me away, Olivia. I try to talk to you, you ignore me-"

"I don't ignore you."

"I call you-"

"I've been busy."

"I've called Melinda-"

"That's between you and her."

He sighed deeply. His patience was getting thin. "Olivia stop. I just want to make things right, give him or at least try to give him, one important aspect of his life that he's missing and you're not letting me do that."

"I am."

"No, you're not. When I talk to Noah, you act like I'm not even there."

"Mommy, park." Noah said pointing to the familiar place that came into view.

"I see it honey," She told him. She turned back to Trevor. "I can't do this, not now." She said almost inaudibly.

He nodded and gritted his teeth. "Okay, fine. I clearly see you don't want his father in his life."

"Trevor..."

"Give me a call when you start thinking about what's best for Noah and stop being so damn selfish because, believe it or not, it's about him."

Olivia watched him walk away with his hands in his pockets. Olivia never felt so shitty in her whole life. He was right, she was pushing him away for all the wrong reasons.

It had been 3 days since that day. Noah has been asking her for the 'nice man' everyday so far. She knows that it was now her turn to admit that she fucked up and royally. It was Friday morning at work.

"Benson, Amaro. Warner wants to see you." Captain Cragen said.

They nodded and walked out. Nick looked at Olivia from the driver's seat.

"You all right?"

"I'm okay."

"Are you sure?"

She snapped her head toward him. "Look, just because I don't fucking talk doesn't mean something is wrong, got it?"

"But-"

"Got it?"

"Fine." He said looking straightforward. The silence was killing him. "Amanda and Fin come up with any new leads?"

" Not much."

"What do they have so far?"

"Don't know." She replied blankly.

He looked at her faceless expression and just shut the hell up. They arrived to the ME's office a few minutes later.

"So, what have you found out about our Jane Doe?" Nick asked as they walked in the office.

"I think I may have something to lead you to who did this." She said uncovering the body.

The whole time Melinda was talking, Olivia's mind drifted off. Once again to what Trevor had said.

"Stop being so damn selfish. Start thinking about what's best for Noah." The words traveled at light speed around in around in her head. They were going so fast they were giving her a headache. The thing about Trevor was, he's always right. Then a small angel popped on her shoulder. Now she was hallucinating.

"Why are you depriving that sweet innocent boy of a father." The angel on her right shoulder said.

"You're doing the right thing Olivia. Remember, that dumb prick left you to raise his son." The devil on her left shoulder said.

"That kid deserves a father. Trevor's a good man. At least he came back to own up responsibility."

"Don't Olivia."

"Give him a father."

"No!"

"Yes."

"Stop it!" He yelled out loud holding her head. Nick and Melinda looked at her with a concerned face.

"Liv, what's wrong?" Melinda asked.

She looked at Nick. He also wanted to know the answer to the question.

"Nothing's wrong."

They looked at her once more before Nick spoke up.

"Okay, thanks Melinda." Nick said giving her a small smile before walking away. Olivia stood in place, not moving.

"Olivia-"

"Why Melinda?"

"Why what?"

"Why the hell did he have to do that," She asked. "Why did he have to ruin our lives?"

Melinda walked up to her. "Trevor's trying to be a good man and father."

Olivia just stared back. "He called me selfish. He told me to call him when I start thinking about what's best for Noah. How could he imply that? Noah's my world, I want what's best for him."

"No one's doubting that you do."

"He is."

"Liv, he's just frustrated. You are kind of pushing him away."

"I'm frustrated too, Mel."

"Go work things out with him before it's too late." She said trying to help her friend the best way she can.

Olivia tucked Noah into bed. She wasn't sure how asleep he was since he was whining that he didn't want to go to bed. She kissed his forehead and left out of his room. She went into the living room and turned on the TV. She flipped through every channel before deciding that she didn't feel like watching TV. She pulled out her phone and swallowed. She began to dial a familiar number. It rang twice before she heard his voice.

"Hello."

"Trevor, we need to talk. It's important."

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